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Gusto ko lang umiyak ng umiyak ng umiyak.

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bakit 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

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you do not need to constantly justify yourself. go ahead. eat pancakes. eat a ton at dinner. eat ice cream sundaes at 1am. take a rest day. take six rest days. sleep in. watch a movie. watch ten movies. no explanations needed. you’re allowed to be kind to yourself.

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nobody talks about how ugly taking care of yourself can be

yes, sometimes it’s taking a warm bath and texting memes to friends and keeping an aesthetically pretty journal.

sometimes it’s crying silently on your couch at 3am, hugging yourself and reminding yourself that you’re a good person.

self care is not always ‘aesthetic’ and cute…and that’s ok. don’t be embarrassed, just do what you need to do.

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“…I’m hungry and hollow and just want something to call my own. I’ll be your slaughterhouse, your killing floor, your morgue and final resting—”

— Richard Siken, excerpt from Wishbone 

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I wanna live here

Giethoorn in Netherlands has no roads or any modern transportation at all, only canals. Well, and 176 bridges too. Tourists have to leave their cars outside of the village and travel here by foot or boat by. So you can probably imagine how peaceful it is here.

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I will endure this stillness, the smoldering hours that continue to erase me, as though by my birth I have broken a pact, that I remain invisible and small.

So I carry everything with me, though it’s almost over, though I’m tired of being strong. I leave nothing for grief to feed on.

[…] Not even love, whose October grows ever more faint in yours.

— Eric Gamalinda, from “The Remembered World,” Amigo Warfare (Wordtech Communications, 2007)  

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A failure

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“Grief is a nation of everyone, a country without borders. I roam the avenues of it out of habit.”

— Eric Gamalinda, from “DMZ,” Amigo Warfare (Wordtech Communications, 2007)      

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kinda cool to think how someone somewhere is having the best day of their life today. someone’s hearing “i love you” for the first time today. someone’s gonna meet the love of their life today. someone’s gonna get the job of their dreams today. it’s someone’s best day today. and guess what binch? tomorrow it could be ur best day so keep going

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Walang katumbas ang lahat ng sakit ng loob. Ang pagtulog ko bawat gabi ng mabigat ang pakiramdam, walang katumbas. Sige lang. Malapit nako mapuno :) Konti na lang, konting konti nalang. :)

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Birthday ko pero ang lungkot

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“To whom it may concern: Today, I am alive.”

— Zaina Alsous, from “Train of Mercury Stations Direct,” Lemon Effigies

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so you dated the wrong person and learned a hard lesson. you chose the wrong major and had to start over again. you cherished a friend who backstabbed you. it sucks, but it’s also going to work out. that’s life; you learn, hurt, love, cry, laugh, and keep going. you experience setbacks and you grow and it’s all okay.

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Uhhhhh 💓

“I grew angry and cursed, with the curse of silence, the river, and the lilies, and the wind, and the forest, and the heaven, and the thunder, and the sighs of the water-lilies.”

— Edgar Allan Poe, from The Complete Works of E. A. P.; “Siope, A Fable,”

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Maulan.

“You’re about to overcome something you’ve been dealing with. Your mind and heart will soon be at peace again. The weight is being lifted off of you right now. Breathe. Be patient. Everything will be okay.”

— Unknown