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“I was 12 thinking about killing myself. I am 21, still thinking about killing myself.”

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i pray to whatever god is out there everyday that a freak accident happens & kills me so i don’t have to do it myself

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“You cannot love someone into loving you.”

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I am so so so lonely I feel like I have absolutely nobody. Nobody I feel like I can talk to, nobody to tell me that I'm going to be okay and that things are going to be okay. I am going nowhere in life, I have no passions or aspirations, no hobbies, nothing. I literally feel like an empty shell without a face, like I have no identity at all. Like what is the fucking point?

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“I went through my hardest moments alone while everyone thought I was fine.”

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And it's like you want the attention, you wish people would notice how lonely you've been, you wish they would reach out, you wish they would care.

But you can't ask for it, and not just because it would make you feel vulnerable and you'd hate that. But because it would all be meaningless then.

It's not about people being there when you ask, it's about them wanting to be there because they care.

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“I’m sorry that someone you loved made you think it’s hard to love you.”

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Do you ever wish you had something really bad, like cancer, just to finally know you'll be gone soon, and wouldn't have to think about the future anymore?

I wouldn't have to think about what to do after I finish university.

I wouldn't have to think about the fact that I'll probably never meet someone, get married, have kids etc.

I wouldn't have to feel all the stress and pressure I have now.

I wouldn't have to hear my mother and everyone else compare me to other people who are doing much better in life, than I am.

And I wouldn't have to kill myself directly, which would make it easier for my parents to understand that I'm gone and to let me go.

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i dont know what to do anymore. im wasting every aspect of my worthless life and i feel the only escape is death.

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I'm strongly starting to believe that life isn't meant for me.

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“Nobody deserves to fall asleep at night wondering why they weren’t enough.”

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“I wish you liked me like I like you.”

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"I'm not lazy, I'm just tired. and I don't mean because I've been working hard. Not at all. I'm tired from forcing myself to get out of bed everyday. I'm tired of distracting myself from the thoughts in my brain. I'm tired because all my energy is put to surviving and people don't understand that because all they see is how unproductive you are."

— depression is a disease and it's tiring