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“What now?” You ask.

“What do you mean?” He asks.

“What do we do now? We've lost... everyone.”

“We still have each other, I think.”

Silence. The weight of it all settles upon you.

“You think?”

He clenches his jaws. “I think.”

Silence.

“You're going to leave too, you know.”

He looks over at you. “What?”

“I know you're not the reason why they left.”

“What's that got to do with anything?”

“I think I'm the reason why they left.”

Silence.

“But I don't know the reason why they left.”

“It was probably because of me.” You sigh.

“I doubt it.” He retorts.

Pause. Hesitation circles back around.

“I don't know why they actually left, but...”

“But..?”

“...I'm not thinking what they're thinking. I don't see their reason for leaving, nor do I even share it. I don't know why they left, and I might never know, but I personally have every reason to stay right here, right beside you, and absolutely no reason to do otherwise.”

“Huh?”

“You heard me.”

But you don't believe him. Silence.

“I want to be convinced.” You finally say.

“Then believe me.”

“I don't know why I can't believe you.”

He opens his mouth to say something, but hesitation settles in. He doesn't say anything. Silence.

“I love you.” He mutters.

“You— you what? ”

“Sorry.” He buries his face in his hands.

“No no, what did you say?”

“I said I love you.” He says louder and clearer.

Silence. He wants to run off, but it won't do any good for either of you.

“So you... like me?” You hesitate.

“Yeah. Except I actually love you.”

Hesitation. You want to say it back.

“I–? I don't—”

“I know,” he sighs. “I'm sorry.”

“I do, I like you too, I just...”

He flips his head over to you. He hides his smile beneath his hands, but his eyes are still on you.

“You can say it, no worries.”

“...I feel terrible right now. I don't want to, but I feel like I'm about to— I don't know, break into a million pieces? Shatter all over the floor? I don't... I don't feel good.”

He stops smiling. He lets his hands down.

“...Do you want a hug?” He offers.

“I need one.” You say, and he hugs you.

Silence. But it's just a little less lonely.

“You can keep talking about it.”

“...They're gone, just like that. So easily. All because of me.”

“I still doubt it.”

“But everything hurts right now, and I can't blame anybody but me.”

Silence. Occasionally broken up by sobbing.

“You're my reason to stay.”

You sob even more. His shoulder is soaked with your tears.

“What if I become your reason to leave, too?”

“You won't. Not ever.”

“How do you know?” You retort.

“I just know.”

He pats and occasionally rubs your back. Your sobs soften little by little. It's quieter, the silence still remains.

“Can you promise me something?”

“I'm never leaving you.”

Pause.

“You knew what I wanted to ask.”

“I was going to promise you that anyways.”

...

“I love you.” You whisper.

“I love you, too.” He smiles.

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I wasnt around for glomas last year! Delighted to see my best (horrible) boys be horrible together. I think they should have been more horrible, tbh.

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Calling your 70 year old mentor Gehrbear for fun & profit

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Bloodborne is a game about kissing old men, I think.

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Call my brain the Hunter's Dream the way that old man is stuck in it.

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I'm thinking about that dark little chuckle Gehrman does right before his boss cutscene starts. Holy fuck.

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THIS IS HALLOWEEN BY TWST OMGOMGOMG

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" Alicemare ” Allen Plushie Crowdfunding! https://camp-fire.jp/projects/793686/view

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Imagine your f/o comforting you as you have an emotional break down. Imagine them holding you as you lean on them, or wiping your tears away, or just saying kind things to you. Even if they don't know exactly how to help, they assure you that they're there and they'll do anything in their power to help you through this.

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he can’t even imagine how many kisses i wanna give him 🙂‍↔️

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im a fucking sucker for the “character gets so badly injured that they can’t think clearly and start calling for help in a distressingly vulnerable way.” characters who start using nicknames for their friends they haven’t used since they were kids. characters who start begging for their brother they haven’t seen in years to be there. characters who would usually use their parents’ names or call them mother/father/etc crying out mama when they go down. u understand.

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im a fucking sucker for the “character gets so badly injured that they can’t think clearly and start calling for help in a distressingly vulnerable way.” characters who start using nicknames for their friends they haven’t used since they were kids. characters who start begging for their brother they haven’t seen in years to be there. characters who would usually use their parents’ names or call them mother/father/etc crying out mama when they go down. u understand.

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“everyone interprets characters differently” unfortunately so true! thankfully I was blessed with an intense preternatural insight into their core beings (watched and paid attention) and I don’t have to worry

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You were going to tell Shadow you were sick! Honest! … Maybe like a day or two after the initial wave of ickiness.

That hedgehog always such a worry wart. Your door was practically kicked in once he found out. Curses. Of course your friends would tattle on you.

Shadow would be mad at first for not informing him. All he wants is to help and support you anyway he can. Plus? He’s the ultimate life form for Gaia’s sake. The ultimate life form can’t get sick! That’s what he was made for!

Definitely tell him ASAP when you’re not feeling well.

You are not immune to him scolding you like a child. Somewhere in there he claims, “I told you so” even if it’s unrelated to your current illness. Also might blame Sonic while he’s fussing over you.

Count on Shadow to take good care of you. When’s the last time you showered? You don’t know? Well, now he’s hauling you out of bed to take one. It’s not good to lay in a puddle of your own sticky sweat. Depending on how much you fight him, Shadow will carry you like a sack of potatoes over his shoulders or like a princess.

While you’re showering he’ll bring you a change of clothes and place it on the bathroom countertop.

He might not be an immaculate cook, but Shadow can sure make a mean chicken soup. The guy’s got a lot of practice on the Ark after all.

CUDDLING!! Sleeping together!!

You don’t have to worry at all about getting him sick so accidentally get your snot and drool all over Shadow all you want.

Arms are wrapped around you tightly in fear you might disappear. He says it’s to monitor your temperature.. which isn’t entirely wrong.

Soft peppered kisses all over your face. Absentmindedly Shadow will rub circles on your back, hoping it’ll make comfort you to the point of falling asleep.

While you’re sleeping, he does his best to stay awake. Your sleeping face is so peaceful. It’s not a crime to just watch. Watch the way your face crinkles in various expressions on occasion. Watch the way your chest rises and falls with every breath.

Absolutely thinks about Maria. Would she be happy? Proud? There’s not a day where he misses her. He’s thankful to have had experience with her so now he can properly take care of you in your time of need.

“I love you.”

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The movie night list is never-ending, every day we find new movies and shows to watch together

but the truth is, I never want that list to end, I want the list to go on and on so I have excuses to see you