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Michael Keaton as Betelgeuse

BEETLEJUICE (1988)

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When you eat a candy cane do you humanely break it's neck before you take the condom off or after

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Current mood

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I want to get to a new stage in my life and move on from this belief that I have to do something massive. Maybe it’s just a childish belief that I’ve held on since childhood. It’s not like I won’t do the things I love I just won’t have this fucking burden going ooo you didn’t get your name in the history books you aren’t in the media ooo you’re never gonna get the chance to do all these cool things. I think all my role models are these famous inventors or artists and I’m like wow I’m never gonna get to be like my role model (because I didn’t have role models growing up) it just sucks fucking helll. Like I truly believe in my brain that I’m just as smart and capable as these people yet I’m fucking struggling I’m like what’s fucking going on. I need to talk to a therapist (the therapist won’t help me)

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I want to make funny videos but I don’t have inspiration :/ or I’m depressed. I just want to be full of ideas again and stuff . I honestly feel like a failure. I honestly hope one day I’m able to accomplish something special but on a larger scale for lots of people to talk about and feel and stuff. My life long dream is to invent or do something. I’m scared I’m never gonna get to that. Like there’s something wrong with me. everything’s always so far away. this is fucked in the head. Sometimes I think I might off myself if I can’t achieve my goal. Like I feel like my life isn’t worth living if I don’t get To it. I don’t know why I’m like this.

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for fuck sake not trump again

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i'm getting singing lessons next friday woopie HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEHEHHEHEHEH

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i wanna make an album. i'm GOING to make an album. i guesse

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I’m in this crazy mood to create and I’m trying to make a kids book bc I told a friend I’d do a short story, but im just flailing all over the place bc im finding it hard to draw a fairy for the book like what would my kind of fairy look like I don’t want them to look boring

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vomited on plane that’s good omen

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do i watch madagascar or brokeback mountain i cant choose

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waiting to sleep to wake up to catch a plane to go home i'm SO FUCKING READY TO GO HOME

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GARRY WINOGRAND(1928 - 1984)

Billie Holiday, ca. 1955

Gelatin silver print

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AI Billy Joel just too me to Sal's Pizzeria what do i do?

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dude where’s my gas leak

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hopefully this helps a creative in crisis:

artists whom the media throw around like dolls are the few who got given a mic. if they hadn't made any art, they'd still be just as fucking creative - in the clothes they wear or how they speak or walk. i think whether you make something or not it doesn't fucking matter. fame is not lucrative, it's punishment for being yourself. you don't need to impress or prove yourself to anyone or anything. you can't change the fact that you're stuck being a silly creative person.