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Nu mai suport să simt că trebuie să fiu tare pentru ceilalți. Vreau să pot arăta cuiva cât sufăr cu adevărat.

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In the mood to delete everything and go missing .

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“There will always be a person who looks like a poem the earth wrote to keep you alive.”

— Juansen Dizon

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Power

i had my own town once

i was a God

and those who displeased me

i winked their souls out of existence

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can we start to earn forgives now?

how can we come back

from the tearing and the scratching

our body’s ripped apart

laid out in front of us

we tried to tell the truth

distrust scars our tongues

and i hope

you remember a time

before the war

before the bloodshed

i hope

we aren’t too late

the doctors are on their way

is healing on its way too?

i am scared of you now

afraid to look you in the eye

maybe i don’t want to see the truth either

maybe it is beter if i leave this house for good

but even tho today my brain aches in fear

when you step into my room

i am still willing to forgive you in time

i am just wondering if you are too

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The sun has risen but there is no dawn.

Grey smoke lies over the city.

Far from here the fires rage on.

And smoke lies over the city.

21 July, 2021

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Deer

I just stood there.

Maybe a minute,

maybe ten.

A swell of emotions compounded and suppressed

A year prior, you walked into my life.

Unapologetically independent,

unabashedly kind,

undoubtedly beautiful.

A year after, I still think of you daily.

Constantly scared,

never certain,

always in fear.

The moment I saw your smile I knew,

I knew this was someone who would give me joy

for a moment.

I knew you were the one;

to distract me.

I knew you would be there;

to hurt me.

Months prior to the night that I would stand in the cold, I compressed.

I pulled everything positive I had learned over two years and vomited it out.

I put aside my faith and virtue for all that made me depressed.

Trying to learn what we were about.

Mutual friends warned,

"she isn't in a good space"

"In the end, you will be scorned"

But I knew your face.

The same that smiled as the car rolled forward.

The one that watched for the entire trip,

as feet turned to miles,

and minutes into hours.

But you cut the brakes,

leaving me going 100 miles per hour with no control,

no power to change the course or avoid anything.

not even able to turn the wheels because if I did, the car would roll.

I would be crushed beyond recognition.

Or, am I the deer?

Standing on the concrete.

Just waiting to have my eyes illuminated before,

all in one moment

everything is lost.

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She knows

She can fly

Her scars are

Gems in the crown

The new moon

Is coming

Darkness reached

its peak

The stars of hope

Is twinkling

The whole world

Is waiting

For the new moon

To shine.

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Strange Feelings

No one can understand Wonder if even I can It was all unplanned Now I’m drowning in the river Don’t wanna save myself Just want to let it be Remember those fairytale elves I’ve tried to set me free Will it be alright? Guess nothing’s even wrong right now Maybe it was all over my might Would be useless to ask you, how? Feeling confused Don’t know what to do Accepting it all Makes me dive in the…

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Daily Teachings of the Masters, August 23, 2020

You are making it happen. Every time you say yes to love. Every time you stop and breathe and choose the light, rather than the darkness, rather than an old familiar pattern. You make it happen.

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Curg.

Pe foi nescrise

Mă scurg

Din forțe neînvins.

Curg.

În patimi nezise,

Curg

În ale mele vise.

Curg.

De pe scaun

Pe o foaie albă-neagră

Într-o mare de luceferi

Curg.

Pe-o pajiște albastră

Printr-un cânt

Ce-n vise nu-i

Curg.

Într-un somn sihastru

Prin foi de nuferi

Mă scufund.

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Petrecere sinucigașă în mintea mea se-așterne

În cadrul unei vieți ce s-a rezumat la două cisterne

De miez despletit din negura luminii

Închis în case de cei ce l-au crezut primii.

Roșu de noapte se-așterne-n piele

Mănâncă-n liniște arbuști de cremene

Se-mping necontenit în oase și în vene

Și fac din ei niște flămânde hiene.

Când ei apoi se scoală din a lor stază

Revin în centru privind la a lumii oază

Însetați până peste cap nu reușesc

Să mai sustragă cunoaștere din albastrul ceresc.

Se zbat zbierând în zbor zăcând

Prin carne cântând al lumii gând

Sperând la speranța ce-o simțeau scriind

Din când în când sperând și dispărând.

Curând.

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Când ceilalți se pierdeau, ei se găseau sub clar de lună.

-Releveu

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“Man has it all in his hands, and it all slips through his fingers from sheer cowardice.” - Fyodor Dostoevsky, Crime and Punishment

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