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Happy Birthday, Love!

Happy 26th birthday! I know I sent you a message and a slideshow as soon as the clock struck 12 on the day of your 26th birthday but that message was actually just an excerpt of my real message to you. I didn’t know that until I found myself typing this message half an hour past 5pm of your birthday. We’re still in quarantine and I badly wanted to see you.

Anyway, I just wanted to let you know how grateful I am for you. You’ve been very kind, thoughtful and patient with me. I don’t know what I’ve done to deserve your love. I thank you for saving me. Saving me from those thoughts that drown me every night. Those thoughts that creep up my mind and and leave me feeling empty. You saved me from those thoughts that visit me every single night until you came along. I’ve always asked God to bless me with someone I can talk to and be myself with. You see, I was never a talker or someone who would share every thought that pops into her mind but boy, you made me feel relieved. Having someone to talk to wasn’t so bad after all. It’s even quite nice. 

People might find you funny, a bad boy and most of the time annoying. I honestly did to! But days and months passed of talking to you, knowing you even more and being with you, I’ve come to say that yes, you are indeed funny and annoying. Haha. They, myself included, saw you as a bad boy since you’re one of our few classmates who smokes. I know, poor association. What they didn’t know, however, was that you’re a softy. I don’t know if you would agree because you’d always say that you’re a gangster. You’re a momma’s boy and that’s why I’ve come to love you. You are one gentle giant and you have so much respect to people you love. You always prioritize the comfort of others. You complain of untoward situations but shrugs it off and go with the flow. Your patience amazes me. You have greatly dealt with my mood swings, rants and sulkiness. I’m sorry for being such a pain in the ass. You have proven yourself day by day and I cannot be more delighted with my decision to say yes to you on that one summer night.

You are destined to be successful. I know you will. You were more diligent and more eager to learn than me. You were not the type to be late in class and you were rarely absent. You’ve got your priorities straight. Yes, you may have stumbled along the way but you picked yourself up and never allowed yourself to stumble again. I am proud of you. You always have that dream which is what I admire about you. As of this moment, I believe you’d want to be a surgeon. Know that I will always be by your side rooting for you. And some day when experiences lead you to another department or path different from Surgery, I would still be here to support. Who knows, maybe you would want to be in OB-Gyne after all? HAHA. Kidding aside, keep pushing forward. You have so much potential in you. I see your compassion for the patients and your willingness to learn without counting the cost. You will go far, I know it. Hang in there.

I love you, Raymund Angelo. More than I could ever imagine. You are my answered prayer. Happy 26th birthday, love!