lisicaaaa - Tumblr blog

lisicaaaa · 2 months

Text

Questioning if I'm a therian

First of all hello, I made a new account because some friends follow me on the original and I'm not sure if they'd make fun of me for questioning this. I really don't know where else I can ask this so any advice would be of help!

I am a 21 years old and ever since a child I REALLY BADLY wanted to be a canid of sorts (dog/wolf/fox, you name it). When my family would go to grandma's village I'd run around the fields imagining I was a dog exploring the wildernesses and I remember even asking my mom if she can put water in a bowl instead or a cup so I can lick it like a dog (I'd lick the water like that even if she gave me a normal cup xd she couldn't stop me back then).

When school started I was quite isolated and lonely (I won't go into too much depth), I felt like a part of me didn't belong with humans and that I had easier time being friends with animals because they don't judge you for superficial stuff. I remember watching these "watch this video to become a wolf" and being really sad and disappointed that it didn't work. I also didn't like any books/movies that didn't feature animals as main characters because I found more fun to imagine being them than a human.

That's when I discovered the kitsune mythology and they've been my main interest since I was like 13 because I found the idea of a fox being able to switch between their true form and a human form very cool! Wish that were me!

Even when creating original characters, most of them are shapeshifters of some sort because I like the idea of being able to shift wheneve they want. I wish to find some field where there are no ppl around so I can run free and not worry about human problems. I also sometimes imagine how nice it would be to be reincarnated as a fox or a wolf in the future life.

However, I'm not sure if I have species dysphoria nor shifts, I never interacted with other therians who could explain it to me :( I'm also not sure if all of this what I said is actually therian related or I might be somewhere on the neurodivergent spectrum (I'm NOT saying that therians ""have a problem in their head"" I'm saying that it might be a *me* problem only because I'm confused and possibly undiagnosed with something because getting any sort of mental health diagnosis or treatment in my country is quite hard)

So what do you think? Could I possibly be a therian or am I experiencing something different? Did you relate with anything I said? And in case that I am, am I too late for discovering it now at 21 years old?

I'm sorry if I worded something badly or if this is a dumb question, I rarely post anything online because I'm very shy and I'm bad at wording things. Thank you in advance for any help and I hope you're having a great day!!

#otherkin #therian #nonhuman #therian questions #otherkin questions #foxkin #wolfkin

5 notes · View notes