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Self love.. it’s so easy to impose, it’s so easy to tell the world that “hey, you gotta acceot who you are, you gottanlove yourself” pero in reality, hindi madali, hindi makatotohanan, ideal sya pero, somehow parang ang hirap gawin.

Accept yourself, love yourself, ito yung madalas mong marinig sa mga tao sa paligid mo. Pero kelan mo ba masasabi na mahal at tanggap mo ang sarili mo? Kaylan mo ba matatanggap o natanggap na bago ka sumaya sa piling ng iba, kaylangan mong maging masaya on your own, na bago ka mahalin ng ibang tao, dapat mahal mo ang sarili mo? Ang hirap no, o baka naman ako lang ang nakakaranas ng ganito? Baka ako lang ang nag-iisip ng ganitong bagay?

It’s past 12 midnight, i can’t sleep, just like the same old nights. Bakit? Hindi ko din alam, insomniac? Maybe, o baka naman merong isang tao na nag-iisip sa akin, kaya hindi ako makatulog? Well, reality is, hindi lang talaga ako makatulog, sa ganitong pagkakataon, ang daming pumapasok sa utak ko, nakakagawa ako ng istorya sa utak ko, na somehow ipinagdadasal ko na sana mangyare. Ano nga ba yung mga naiisip ko, anong istorya na ba ang nabuo ko? Sa dami ng nasimulan kong istorya simula nung nagkaisip ako, hindi ko na alam ang bilang, marami akong nasimulan, pero walang natapos. Hindi ko isinusulat sa papel, lahat nasa utak ko lang, kaya malamang, hindi lahat natatandaan ko. Let’s focus on my current story, sa kasalukuyang tumatakbo sa utak ko. I always dream of living someone else’s life, artista, singer, actress, or reliving my childhood days, para somehow mabigyan ako ng chance to do things differently. O di kaya naman, sana isa na lang akong prinsesa, o di kaya, sana mayaman na lang kame. I always wanted to live comfortably. Sino ba naman ang hindi? Comfortable house, stable business, maganda ka, sexy, madaming nagkakagusto. Right now, i have a full time job abroad, kumakayod para sa pamilya, nagbabayad ng utang, lumalaban para sa panibagong bukas. Ang hirap, kasi parang lahat ng problema pasan mo lalo na kapag mag-isa ka na lang. The only way na makawala ako ay gumawa ako ng sarili kong mundo sa utak ko. Ako pa din naman yung character ng story sa utak ko, kasama ang pamilya ko, ang difference lang, mayaman kame, may stable na business at nakakapagtravel sa loob at labas ng bansa. Sa istoryang ako din ang may gawa, ginagawa lang namin kapitbahay ang bansa sa south east asia. Can you imagine? Business-travel-business-travel, what a perfect cycle, diba? Samahan mo pa ng imaginary boyfriend, from NZ, na may stable job, at mahal na mahal ka,ang perfect diba? Haba ng hair ko, no? Pero lahat ng yan, hindi totoo, gawa gawa pang ng malikot kong imahinasyon.

Isa lang ang sigurado ako, kahit anong iatorya pa ang gawin ko sa utak ko, isang pamilya pa din ang guato kong kabilangan ko. Yun ang pamilya na meron ako.

Plot twist naman dyan Lord. Isang malupit at masayang plot twist naman po, please.

As of now, hindi ko masasabing i am inlove with who i am, i am learning, and getting there.

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Ladies will surely relate to the picture above. Si o ba naman ang hindi,diba? We all know how difficult it is when the "monthly visitor" came.. Para sa mga singles, normal na lang na buwan buwan eh may bisita kang hinihintay, pero para sa mga kasal na at nagsisimulang bumuo ng pamilya, pwedeng ipinagdadasal mo na sana wag ka muna dumating, na sana wag ka nyang dalawin sa susunod na siyam na buwan. Pero para sa mga may boyfriend at sexually active na kababaihan na hindi pa handang magkaanak, marahil buwan buwan mo din ipinagdadasal na sana hindi kayo nakabuo. Na sana delayed lang talaga ng ilang araw. (Unwanted advice: be safe, be protected, mas mura ang condom kesa sa bumuhay ng bata, lalo sa panahong hindi ka pa handa). Pag babae ka and you started getting your monthly period, we all know the struggle, naalala ko noong unang araw na dinatnan ako, i woke up, went straight to the bathroom to do my morning routine, then i got the shock of my younger years, may dugo sa panty ko!!! I screamed, my older sister was there, ironically, she's having her period. I cried, telling her i saw blood in my panty, hello??? Im turning 10years old during that time. I said, "ayoko, ayoko nito" while crying. Anong irereact ko, diba?? At ang malala, instead na bilihan nya ako ng napkin, ako pa ang bumili para sa aming dalawa. Since wala naman choice ang anti mo, tinanggap ko na lang ang destiny ko, na simula sa araw na yon, buwan buwan akong duduguin. I have learned the ways para hindi matagusan, kumakain padin ng maasim kahit binabawal. Hindi ko din sinunod ang mga pamahiin tulad ng ihilamos ang pinagbanlawan ng unang regla para hindi magkatigyawat, umupo sa hagdan at magpsaldak pababa mula sa ikatlong baitang para tatlong araw lang ang regla, kumakain at umiinom ng malamig kahit maraming nagsasabi na masama daw yon. My mentrual period was normal, buwan buwan akong dinadatnan, until i reached a certain age. I started gaining weight, getting pimples, acne breakouts, then my "monthly visitor" seems to forget about me, dinadatnan na lang ako after 3months, minsang 6months, then 8months. No, i was not sexually active when this happened. I was working as a call center agent, and decided to resign due to health issues, naisip ko baka i need to relax, i need to take a break, i need a rest, but still hindi pa din dumadating ng regular ang bisita ko. Praning na ako, i felt lumps on my boobs, i had it checked, good thing results was good, it was all negative. I decided to go to an OB Gyne, the moment she saw me, she knew something is wrong with my system, with my pimples/acnes, and my weight, sino ba naman ang hindi mkakapansin. So yeah, she asked me questions, when was the last time i had my period, my answer? "8months ago po doc" sexually active? I said "no". I asked her if she could give me pills, opo yung pills para hindi mabuntis, pero ayaw nya, her reasons? Una, my Lola on my Mom's side died because of breast cancer, my Lola on my Dad's side was diagnosed stage 2 breast cancer 2years ago. Pangalawa, ipinamukha sakin ni Doc, ma single ako at hindi ko kailangan ng pills dahil hindi ako sexually active. Pangatlo, she said i am still young to consume such medication. What she gave me was VitaminC&E, which i need to take every other day, kunware vit.c ngayong araw, bukas naman vit.e. Alam naman natin na nakakataba lalo ang dalawa na yan kapag pinagsabay, she also gave me wheatgrass capsule for cleansing, after taking all her prescription, i had my period after a month. I continued taking her prescriptions hanggang sa itinigil ko dahil gusto kong subukan kung kaya na ba ng katawan kong magregla without the support of my doctor's prescription. My menstual period went crazy again, missing my period for a month, minsan dalawa hanggang tatlong buwan. But i did not go back taking prescriptions. I started taking Apple Cider Vinegar every morning or minsan sa gabi, bess hindi mo iinumin ng puro ha, 2-3 table spoon lang mix with water, isang baso ng tubig. The result? I had to wait para makita ang result, and it pays off, after 2 months dumating ang period ko. So, i continue.. minsan padin nadedelay ang period ko, minsan one week, minsan two weeks. Pero hindi na katulad ng dati na parang kinalimutan nya ako. As i am writing this, i have my period, delayed for two weeks but no menstrual cramps. Girls, it's okay to be very emotional once a month, okay lang to be demanding once a month, okay lang kung hindi mo makontrol ang emosyon mo, if you're craving for something sweet, savory or whatever it is, okay lang yan, deserve mo yan, kung walang magbibigay sayo ng pagkain na gusto mo, buy for yourself, treat yoursel girl. Boys, please be very considerate sa emosyon naming mga babae, tandaan nyo, kayo isang beses lang tinuli, kame buwan buwan na dinudugo, kayo magpapakasarap lang sa kama, ang babae pagkatapos masarapan, maglilihi, 9 months may dalang baby sa tiyan, manganganak, mag'aalaga ng bata. PS. I was not diagnosed with any disorder, tulad ng PCOS. But my Doctor adviced, i should lose weight para hindi dumating sa punto na yon. I am trying, i just can't. My pimples? Ugh, i still have some, but mostly pimple marks na lang. Im also taking multi.vitamins, and ACV everyday. PPS. I wait for my period every month like it's my monthly check..

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Let's start by saying, I DON'T GIVE A SHIT!!! You know what people say, if no one hates you, maybe you're doing something wrong. I guess it's true. Working on a foreign land needs a lot of adjustments, you need to understand you don't have the same culture to share with, everything is just so different from where you came from. From the food, to climate, to people, to religion, to beliefs, to values, etc. As I have said, I am 25yeras old, working with majority of the locals, I need to adjust, and be respectful to them, which is never and will never be a difficult thing to do, cause one, i know i can adjust and get along with people around me, yeah i know i can, believe me, two, being respectful is very natural and normal to us Filipinos, specially with the elders. So everything is working just fine, no, honestly i have little complains, but what can i do? I signed up for this, as what Filipino says "ginusto mo yan diba?" So yes, pinanindigan ko, i stayed with the company, and will stay for another year, binigyan ko na ng taning ang sarili ko. So going back, i found out someone hated me, cause some locals are getting close to me. Oh yeah, selos si ate mong local. But what can i do, this person likes me, nagkasundo kasi kame. So what can I do? Hindi ko naman pwede iundriend sa totoong buhay yung tao just because you hate me. Good thing matalino yung friend kong local, kahit ayaw mo sakin, hindi nya ako iniwasan. Instead mukhang iniinis ka pa nya at tuwang tuwa dahil nakikita nya how pissed you are. I don't have anything against you, I have nothing against anyone. I just go to work, and do what I need to do. Besides, I don't go to work to please you or anyone. Guys, if someone is hating on you, don't bother to give a shit! You don't need to effin change who you are, you don't need to prove them wrong. Do your own thing, just don't mind them. Giving them the satisfaction of you paying attention, is not worth every inch of you. People will hate you, weather you do good or you do bad. If they hate you, they hate you. Period. You need to learn the art of not giving a shit.

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Hello!!! My name is LeasCelyn.. no, not my real name.. i want to keep myself private.. ✌✌ i am 25 years old, single, from the Philippines, but living and working offshore. Kung saan man, basta hindi msyadong malayo. 😊😊 Single for years, i don't know why. Ah i actually know why, best blocker kasi yata ako.i am not beautiful,oo alam ko..Pero let me tell you the story next time. Now, i am trying to live the adult life. Yes, i am 25 and still i am struggling living the adult life. Paano ba namang hindi? Living abroad, ikaw ang lahat, sometimes i just want to go back to the Philippines at magpaalila sa bahay namen, kahit pa araw araw at every meal ako mghugas ng pinggan.😂😂😂 Hanggang dito na lang muna. Next post,mas may sense na.