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people often think i'm doing it for the bit but unfortunately i Am the type of guy who just says shit like "pray tell" and "indeed" and "naught but the human heart can hope to capture the moon's beauty" (that was actually about my shitty phone camera) and nobody really knows what to do when they hear those words come out of my mouth. myself included.

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*deletes post after 1 minute* limited edition

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“You are in the embrace of the history” — Deir el-Bahri in Nile West Bank. Luxor, Egypt

“The first written words started here” — Uruk, Iraq (Sumer, Mesopotamia)

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Whenever anyone asks me about things I’ve read I am struck by the truth that I have never read a single book in my whole entire life. I have been to maybe five plays. Probably I saw a movie once. I don’t know anything and I never have.

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It is likely that no one ever masters anything in which he has not known impotence; and if you agree, you will also see that this impotence comes not at the beginning of or before the struggle with the subject, but in the heart of it.

Walter Benjamin

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The Soft Skin (dir. François Truffaut, 1964)

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op turned reblogs off but i need this one so bad

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Completely unhinged, and you don’t have to publish this ask if you don’t want, but I would be downnnnn for a Kaz dubcon sex pollen fic / oneshot 🫠 I know you would handle that material well 🤭

I appreciate your trust, and I see the appeal, but I feel like it might just be a Murder Ballad retread in some ways? Since oh no they have to is pretty much the defining trait of both sex pollen and a/b/o as genres. And while sex pollen does skip some of the weirder anatomical stuff, it does also miss the fun of scent descriptions, and, in the case of kanej, the terrible angst of oh no they’re stuck now. I did also give Kaz a sex pollen fantasy at the beginning of Served Me Well so it might just be a duplicate in that way as well.

This is also maybe a good time to say that if I do write this, it will have an archive lock on it, since I will probably be locking everything I write after Publish or Perish. I’m pretty sick of having my work fed to the tech industry’s little meat grinders to be turned into someone else’s pablum, and the archive lock isn’t perfect protection but it’s something.

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guy who wouldn’t even notice they’ve been sex pollened with all the repressed lust they’ve got going on

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FAVORITE CLASSIC FILM PERFORMANCES

Cary Grant & Ingrid Bergman as T.R. Devlin and Alicia Huberman in NOTORIOUS (1946) dir. Alfred Hitchcock

Say it again, it keeps me awake. - I love you.

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There's a book that we had in our house growing up that I was obsessed with as a kid. It was just called "PAKISTAN: PAINTINGS BY LIN YONG AND SU HUA" and it was an art book of 100+ paintings/sketches by two Chinese artists who travelled thru Pakistan in 1978 and 1981, a sort of travelogue of their trip, and to little-kid me, it was some of the most beautiful things I'd ever seen. I have no idea why we had that book, but I would stare at it for hours, and it made me wish I could draw/paint/do whatever it was that these artists had managed to do.

Anyway, we've moved house a bunch of times and I lost track of the book and haven't seen it for probably two decades now. But I think about it now and again, and had struggled to find it over the years, but I finally, finally got my hands on a copy of my own and i want to cry haha

I was afraid that maybe the art isn't as good as I remembered, being just a kid and all, but I cracked it open and nope, it hits me just the way it used to. Maybe even more now. It's so fucking pretty. Have some random pages:

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actually kinda funny to me that fanfiction is known as a hobby for cringe 13 year olds because personally over half of the fanfic authors i know are married 30 year olds with mediocre admin jobs they attend to inbetween posting chapters of their latest gay sex epic adventure

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I’m curious about kaz’s panic attacks. This last chapter, he and inej had quite prolonged contact multiple times without triggering kaz’s panic attacks. Is it because he has been practicing? Or is it because after taking down pekka he has something different to focus on?

It’s partly practice (he practices more than he lets on), partly (in the one case) the distracting power of horniness, but mostly it’s that all the contact has been mediated by at least one layer of clothes. Nice dry clothes provide a psychological barrier and keep down the more intrusive fears.

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The chapter was absolutely chefs kiss! I missed these two so much and to get so much of them together this chapter altered my brain chemistry fr 🫠 I hope the next instalment doesn’t give you too much trouble! 💕

Thank you very much! I have an idea for the next chapter which I hope works out and works for people. I have two scenes written already, but some tricky ones left to do. Thanks and much appreciation for your good wishes!

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was kaz capable of getting any work done the day after inej visited him in his office? i can either see him compartmentalizing like no one has ever compartmentalized before, or any time he stepped foot in his office, he 404-error-messaged the entire time

Kaz has lemon-scented furniture polish he keeps in his desk and he put it on every surface he could think of in a dogged attempt to reorient himself to the space again. It sort of worked. And he has strong powers of concentration. There was the problem of getting horny-lightheaded every time he pushed back from the desk, though. Maybe he promised himself a really enjoyable bout of remembering if he could get through another chapter.

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