lilowcore

[lilowcore]

lilows monologue ﹥ˏˋ♡̩͙♡̩̩̥͙♡̩̥̩

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what’s worse,

Watching your father have a temper tantrum,

Or watching your mother withdrawal.

Anger or sadness

Obsessive or possessive

Guilty or innocent

Self destructive

That’s what they said I was,

From the moment I was born.

They injected me with agony.

I use to draw, I use to run barefoot,

My knees had grass stains, my finger tips.

I was raw.

My last life is a blur between sanity and insanity.

The lines collide over time.

The trees don’t move the same way they did.

I don’t dream, I don’t hope for a better future.

Hence why I spend my days in oblivion,

5am till 3:30pm.

I had a life of being famous at one point, the spotlight was mine

They bowed for me, every movement i made was godsend.

I could do no wrong.

but I was cursed with no talent,

Cursed with hyper-sensitivity.

My family use to eat dinner in front of the telly, the food would turn into maggots when the news would blare through my ears.

How could a world be so cruel, so unforgiving.

These are people, people with children, with hopes, people who have people who care.

Now I sit on the edge, I watch them go by, but ive grown immune to the hatered.

It’s my toxin,

My blood rises, I scream, I scratch, I hit

I bite.

I always had someone by my side, someone telling me I was doing fine.

For the first time in my 17 years of life I have no one.

My teeth no longer shine,

My knuckles white

Bloody tears drip down from my eyes.

I’ve found comfort,

He use to say I mad,

He’d remind me that I had nothing going for me.

Nobody makes it to Hollywood,

That’s something I’ve learnt to live with.

Oblivion.