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“Can we get dressed up, go out and pretend we don’t know each other? We don’t know each other anymore anyway... Can we just go out and meet for the first time? Please let’s just start over. ”

- First time. 🌜🌛

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“I want enough time to be in love with everything.”

— Marina Keegan

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“All of the pain and all of the suffering is worth it. For only one moment of happiness. So please keep looking for those moments. Appreciate the sun. Appreciate the moon. Appreciate the grass and flowers. Appreciate the breath in your lungs. Breathe these moments in like fresh air. Fill your lungs with it. Take it into your blood stream and pump it into your heart because you’re worth it. Take in every moment of happiness and hold it close. Use it as I reminder when you don’t see the light. Let your mind be at ease because these moments will be fleeting but they will always return. Love yourself enough to put your happiness into your own hands. And on those days you can’t. I’m here. I’ll always be here because no matter how far you are or how long it’s been. I love you. Whoever you are. I love you so much. Stay here. Don’t go because I’ll miss you. I. Will. Miss. You”

— a letter to myself for the days I don’t remember who I am. 📿

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“My chest still feels empty. The wounds on my heart are gapping. You tore me open with your words and dug holes with false hope. Filling me with dissolvable love. It’s gone in a flash. As soon as my tears reach my lips you’re already gone. My chest still feels empty. Am I incomplete?”

—empty 🦋

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“A perfect face an imperfect place. I never got to know you. The whole you.

My heart is aching at the thought of what we could’ve been.

I dream of your perfect smile. Your perfect lips and your perfect eyes that would stare into mine. They should be starring into mine.

You healed me without realizing it.

I wish I could do the same for you. I want to protect you from what’s hurting you. You won’t let me. That’s okay. So noble of you to not want to put me in between yourself and your troubles. But I’d place myself there without hesitation.

But for now I’ll sit and think of your perfect face in this imperfect place. “

— Perfect 👼🏻

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“You know you aren’t where you’re supposed to be. But you have too much pride to admit you need me. I’d never leave if you just showed me I’m worth it. But that’s too much to ask you for. You’d rather just end it.”

— the end🦋

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“I don’t know sweet girl. I’m sorry I’m writing you on a random day with no significance. But I can’t help it. I’ve been thinking about you so much. And I can’t help but miss you. I wish you were here. So we could talk... I know you’d have the right words. You’d tell me I’m strong and I know exactly what I have to do, I just need to do it. You’d tell me you love me too. And give me that goofy fucking smile I love so much. I love you so much. When I feel empty I know it’s because I’m missing you. I wish you were here sweet girl. I miss you so much.”

— a letter to Destiny 🌹

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i killed a plant once because i gave it too much water. lord, i worry that love is violence.

— José Olivarez, from “Getting Ready to Say I Love You to My Dad, It Rains,” Citizen Illegal

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“You can search the world over, but you won’t find happiness until you realize that happiness isn’t getting what you want. It’s being content with what you already have.”

— Yasmin Mogahed

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“When I see things that remind me of you, I close my eyes. There’s to much pain in the reality that you are gone and I can no longer have you, and you no longer want me. However I find strength in knowing I can navigate my way with my eyes closed for a short while, as I learn to let go of your memory. I’m learning slowly but surely and soon I’ll have my eyes open again to see the things that remind me of myself. Who I am is more important to me than who you were. Until my heart heals. I’ll navigate my way with my eyes closed. “

—Open Eyes 🦋

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“Carve my heart out of my chest. I don’t want this pain anymore. Take my soul. I’m yours anyway. Have it take it all. I can never be the same anyway. Take everything so I can start over. Let me go. What’s left of me. Let it go. “

– struggle 🦋

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“I’m in bed staring at the wall trying to find your face in the texture. Your voice is running through my mind. I feel your absence in every breath. My chest is empty. I am hollow. Without you I am incomplete.”

— hollow 🦋

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“I trace the image of your body in my mind before bed. Use my imagination to color in the lines. My dreams to feel your curves. But nothing will ever come close to being next to you.”

—next to you 🦋