lightweightprince

[lightweightprince]

I tried to stay off of this account to be better but I just can't. I feel like utter shit, my best friend blocked me on everything a few days ago without a word and the only thing keeping me together is watching the numbers on the scale go down. I am less than 3 pounds away to my first goal of 275... I have slacked off so much and failed and I just feel horrible. time to get back on track because I can't even look in the mirror right now even though I've lost weight

[lightweightprince]

back here because I can't stand it anymore. my chronic nausea has been acting up for over a week now, I've had barely anything to eat every day and I feel so sick, and somehow I've *gained* weight. I don't understand what I'm doing wrong. I feel like shit and I don't know what to do...time to get back on tumblr because that'll definitely make things better.

[lightweightprince]

getting my wisdom teeth taken out has been great for me because all I have had to eat today is an apple sauce cup and I'm not hungry and also nauseous so I don't want more and it's 5pm. I can't even eat solid food right now if I wanted to. yesterday I went to a ren faire with friends and I got a chocolate milkshake (mostly ice lmao) and that's literally all I had all day besides water. maybe this will help me drop a good few pounds more before I visit my bf next month

[lightweightprince]

I really do feel like I look bigger at 284 than I did at 360. what a strange phenomenon. like all my old pants are too big on me and I need to have my belt multiple notches tighter, my 3xl shirts are oversized now, and yet I feel like I look fatter...it sucks. like I truly can't look at my body right now because I feel like I look bigger. I don't know if it's the way my weight is distributing or just..my brain. regardless, I hate it.

[lightweightprince]

had some major setbacks for the past 2 months but finally I'm back on track. I'm down to 284.2lbs. I was 308 at the end of april and it does piss me off to no end that I only lost 23.8lbs in 6 months, I know once I'm back locked in and not dealing with my families bs (and also mental health meds that made me gain weight!! thank god I'm off those now!) I'll drop more. I really would love to get down to 275 by halloween, that would be ideal.

also dni and get off my page if you don't support people who start at a high bmi thanks!

[lightweightprince]

been eating less than ever, I feel tired and have a headache all the time, and I've gained 4 fucking pounds. I'm going to actually end it. I don't understand why this is happening.

[lightweightprince]

I am so sick and tired of eating usually less than 300 calories all day and then ruining everything by eating the dinner my parents make. today was particularly bad.

breakfast: nothing

lunch: ham and cheese hot pocket..[270 calories]

dinner: 1 cup of homemade pesto pasta, 2 slices of garlic bread, and 3 homemade jalepeno poppers [estimating around 1,050 calories. ugh]

snacks: 1 small hard boiled egg [50 calories]

total: 1,330 and I literally feel like shit. yay.

[lightweightprince]

food log today

breakfast: zero sugar baja blast [0 calories]

lunch: nothing

dinner: caesar salad kit + steak and broccoli/potato dish from a meal kit service my parents got [780 calories]

snacks: a crystal lite lemonade packet in my water [10 calories]

total: 790 calories

[lightweightprince]

food I ate today because I need to log my food for my sanity!

breakfast: nothing

lunch: zero sugar rootbeer [0 calories]

dinner: sushi and crab rangoon [750-800 calories..]

snack: one crystal light lemonade packet split between all my water today [10 calories]

total: around 800 calories. annoying that I ate it all for dinner but whatever!

[lightweightprince]

had to not get pissed off in a comment section but y'all are so fatphobic on here if you at fatphobic I want you as far away as fucking possible from me. you aren't better than fucking anyone for having a disorder. this community loves to shit on plus size people and it makes me genuinely sick. keep your opinions about YOUR body to your body. you assholes. ugh. not gonna put tags on this because I'm just angry that I see this so often. I don't want to be fat but leave people the hell alone who do.

[lightweightprince]

I think I'm gonna start logging what I eat on here at the end of every day for a while. I've been feeling so fucking shitty and I keep gaining and losing the sane 5 pounds it's driving me up the wall. I feel so much better when I'm starving I don't know why I go and eat.

[lightweightprince]

I'm so pissed by not being able to have good low cal meal or snack options like. all I've had today is chicken nuggets and dr pepper and I hit 560 calories and I'm fucking hungry and haven't had dinner yet. I seriously need ideas for meals/snacks. I think I'm gonna do a grocery order for myself soon, maybe even tonight while my parents are out for a fee hours..sigh

[lightweightprince]

big conversation this weekend! means I don't have to eat because food is so expensive and I'll be walking around so much and burn calories, thank god.

[lightweightprince]

it really sucks that I gained 3lbs this past month instead of losing literally anything, because today is my birthday. I checked the scale anyways just to see and thankfully the past few days has got me back on track because I'm 299.2. while yes, I am still fat, and I would've liked to have been lighter, I am under 300lbs for the first time in 4 years and on my birthday too! trying to look at the positives today...

[lightweightprince]

is it bad to say I love when my boyfriend asks me if I've eaten? it's been more frequent lately and I'm like aww you realize I'm eating less! <3

[lightweightprince]

I've been really struggling with so much and recently my body has been giving me so much trouble and if I don't eat I literally feel like I'm dying, being chronically ill is very fun (not) and I gained 3 pounds instead of losing anything. I feel like shit but it's okay..I just need to find some very low calorie meals that I can eat. sigh.. I hope I can get to 280 by september 1st. I know this weekend is going to be rough because it's my birthday but..I can do this

[lightweightprince]

I kind of don't believe it and I feel lik my scale has to be messed up but I've been weighing myself every day for a week just to see what happens and I'm down to 299.6 today?? I don't care what your opinions are, I haven't been below 300 in almost 4 years. it also means I've lost 8.5lbs this week so damn. okay, I so got this.