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raiven - veronika

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the way this had me wheezing

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watching sam and colby & seeing all the stuff they miss has me weak on my knees like the way I scream at my tablet god bless them but they give me heart palpitations

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I can’t wait to see Kaz become unhinged. I mean go absolutely feral. Carry Inej to the ship and then lose his mind and tear out a man’s eye.

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Nobody:

Kaz Brekker:

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I no longer pretend to be someone I am not. I have been tamed my whole life by the rules of society and the whims of men. I was raised and educated to be a being of order and I never intended to change that, but when faced with something far beyond all human comprehension, it's difficult to resist the power freedom possesses.

I am stepping into my own power and allowing the insanity and divinity in me to fully manifest, even if it takes me from one world to another. I am no longer bound by the chains of humanity.

Welcome to the chaos of godhood.

For that is what I am: pure, insane, divine, godly.

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Bartender… sleepytime tea…. and make it a double.

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We're meant to suffer

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Does everything I write suck?

Or do I just need to go to sleep

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ꜱʜᴏᴡ, ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴛᴇʟʟ (ɪɪ)

fear - open mouth - backing away - fake smiles - hugging themselves - long / dragged breaths - rocking

jealousy - snide remarks - darting looks - self-deprication - visible judging - folded arms - arguing a fair point

hurt - steadying breaths - overly bobbing head - teary - anger - trembling - pressed lips - insisting everything is 'fine'

lying (ticks) - picking at nails - touching hair - licking lips - laughing too loud - avoids subjects - won't meet eyes

worry - reaching out physically - pursing lips - looking to others - reassuring smiles - looking you up and down - tilted head - sympathetic nod

shame - will not meet eyes - feet turned away - teary - desperate - fidgeting - begging

humiliation - lashes back - cheeks flush - palms turn sweaty - face frowns -> brows scrunch, lips pull back - teary

love - looks for approval - blushing / turning red - clammy palms - nervous around certain people - laughs hard - turning clumsy - slip of thought

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show, don't tell:

anticipation - bouncing legs - darting eyes - breathing deeply - useless / mindless tasks - eyes on the clock - checking and re-checking

frustration - grumbling - heavy footsteps - hot flush - narrowed eyes - pointing fingers - pacing / stomping

sadness - eyes filling up with tears - blinking quickly - hiccuped breaths - face turned away - red / burning cheeks - short sentences with gulps

happiness - smiling / cheeks hurting - animated - chest hurts from laughing - rapid movements - eye contact - quick speaking

boredom - complaining - sighing - grumbling - pacing - leg bouncing - picking at nails

fear - quick heartbeat - shaking / clammy hands - pinching self - tuck away - closing eyes - clenched hands

disappointment - no eye contact - hard swallow - clenched hands - tears, occasionally - mhm-hmm

tiredness - spacing out - eyes closing - nodding head absently - long sighs - no eye contact - grim smile

confidence - prolonged eye contact - appreciates instead of apologizing - active listening - shoulders back - micro reactions

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I feel personally attacked

12th house/Pisces placements

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𝑆𝑢𝑚𝑚𝑒𝑟 𝐼'𝑚 𝑑𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑜𝑓 ༄☼︎*

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if only I'd put so much work into my uni assignments as I put into my fanfictions.