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all other poetry is cancelled 

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"do it scared" ok but I would like to do something some other way occasionally. Like at least once. For a change.

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Remember calming cat? Remember when tumblr was this color? If you don’t that’s fine. I just feel old and alone.

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here’s a gold star for anyone who survived this week!!!!

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rubber bands

life is all about discipline

ignore the pain, girls

up on your toes

work those calves

roll through the ankles

hold, hold, hold, hold

engage that core

shoulders loose, but elbows turned out

do not mistake tension for strength

we must engage in discipline

tilt your pelvis downwards

don’t let your back slope

maintain your turn out

turn out, out, out rotating the hips

elongate your body from your

neck to toes to fingertips

we must always appear taller

proper posture 

soft front ribs, harsh back ones

a dove housed within your ribs

strike the floor

do not mistake softness for weakness

muscles taut like a band, not a board

grab your rubber bands

work those inner thighs

tie back your hair

we must look the part to act it

discipline, not in the way of a wooden stick

but in the rigorous grip of muscles

rise up on your toes and hold

engage your core

don’t drop those elbows

lead from the heel, lead from the knee

pain is temporary, girls

the muscle memory eternal

if you remember nothing else,

no pirouettes or jettes 

remember this moment

the discipline, the rubber bands

-Roshini

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i don't "date" and i don't "chill" and i don't "hang out." i make pacts. i swear oaths. i forge unbreakable bonds. this makes me a cool breezy person to take on road trips et cetera

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happy eat rocks friday

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Oops! …I Did It Again (Disappeared Under Mysterious Circumstances and Returned Physically Intact but Intrinsically Altered by a Terrible Journey Through the Other-World)

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Thinking about the dichotomy of "I feel uncomfortable/triggered in the presence of x/y/z environments I would like to be someplace without that" that I constantly see online and when I tell my therapist I really get uncomfortable when people raise their voices around me even if they aren't actually mad and her response of "you can only control your own reactions and emotions, it's not really fair to police others on how they should exist in your presence" and honestly it sucks to hear but she's right.. it's good to have people be conscientious of what triggers you but really it's up to us to do the hard work of building that emotional resilience. The idea of people around me having to be hypervigilant of what they say and do lest I start getting dysregulated does not sound fun at all, I want people to feel comfortable being themselves around me and that means training my dumb lizard brain to chill tf out. Living in a constant state of avoidance sucks ass for everyone involved.

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“how was ur day?” “how are u?” “i missed u today” “call me when u get home” “im proud of you”

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dating someone who pays so much attention to the little details about you >>>>