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lifeisabeautyx · 3 months ago

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Trucker boy

Here I am, once again with another boy story..

A few weeks after things ended with the last boy, I decided to get on to dating apps again. I matched with this cute looking guy and we talked for quitte a bit. We exchanged numbers and we really hit it off. I thought he was just very cute and interesting. He was a international trucker and he would only be home in the weekends.

We texted for honestly a good amount of time. Didn't really talk about actually meeting eachother. I'm not really sure why but it just dind't come up. After a few months he did ask me to meet up and I said yes. Last minute he decided to cancel on me and I was at first okay with that. A few weeks later he asked me out again and this time it was more serious. He then canceled on me literally the day of, saying he didn't want to anymore. I then was a little annoyed and told him that. That would be the end of our contact.

A few weeks later he texted me again, saying he missed me. We went back to talking non stop again and a few months in he again asked me out. This time he said he really was gonna come and he wasn't gonna bail on me. Guess what.. he didn't come and cancelled on my a few hours before he would come.

Then a few weeks later, it was the middle of the night and I suddenly got a random text from him saying he was at a party in my hometown and where I was. It was so random and we texted for a bit. He then called me asking me if I knew some taxi company since they could not get home, or back to the park he was staying at with his family. He said he really missed me and that he was stupid for not showing up and that he wanted to have kids with me and start a family. I knew he was drunk so I just thought it was hilarious. We got in contact again and a few months into texting he once again asked me if I wanted to see him and go out for dinner. He once again bailed on me and I was just mad. I went out for dinner anyways that night, not with him but with my sister.

A few months later, somewhere in july he reached out to me by liking all of my instagram stories, sending me snapchats. And this one day he decided to comment on my story. That was the day we got in contact again. We had full conversations through snapchat and this went on for a few months actually. In November we actually started texting again. He said he really misses me and that there was just no one like me. A month later he asked me if I was doing anything that night and I said no. He asked me if he should get ready to come see me or if was not up to it at all. I said "sure". He then texted me he was already on his way and I was just in shock.. Was he actually gonna show up this time?! He said he was 40 minutes away and 40 minutes later he was at my house. He was acutally here.. at my house.. again, I was in shock. I asked him what he wanted to do and we agreed on taking a walk. I put on my jacket and went outside to meet him. I hugged him and we went on our walk. We talked and made some jokes on the way, It was honestly so great. We walked for about 30 minutes and we were back at my apartment. I asked him what he wanted to do; go back home or maybe get upstairs to my apartment to get a drink. He said he would like to come over for a drink so we went up to my house. We were just chilling in the living room and played a game 'UNO', which I won ofcourse. We then went on and watched some tv. He was flirting a little bit and suddenly he threw his arm around me and we cuddled. It was just so damn cute. A few hours later he said he should go soon. He came a little closer to me and he kissed me. It was such a good kiss. It quickly escalated into a hot make out seshh. He was touching me everywhere, kissing my forehead and giving me kisses in my neck. Which im such a sucker for. About 30 minutes into kissing he asked me if we needed to take this to the master bedroom. I told him we shouldn't, even though I really doubted myself and kinda wanted to. He accepted it and just continued to kiss me for about 20 minutes. He then got up and was getting ready to go home since it was pretty late. At the door he kissed me again and told me he had a great time and he wanted to see me soon again. In the car he texted me already saying he thought I was really cute and he really liked me.

2 weeks later he came over again. We went out for dinner and he picked me up. He paid for dinner and we went back to my place. While watching tv he had his arm around me again and we were cuddling on the couch. He kissed me and this time I couldn't resist him anymore. It was all just so damn hot. It was a long make out session and his hands went everywhere. The thing that just melted me was when he was kissing me, stopped, looked me in my eyes and said: "You are just so so beautiful". And then he kisses me again. It was just such a lovely moment. He was also just so damn sweet and lovely. As his hands went everywhere, I was just a little frozen I guess. After a while he takes my hand and put it on his bulge. I then go all out and grab his bulge and feel how hard he is. He really enjoys my touch and he's getting wilder and wilder. As he tries to get in my pants, I unbottun his pants and grab his dick though his underwear, massaging him. He is fingering me and kissing me heavily and then he decides to get up and takes me with him. He walks me to the bedroom while still kissing. I walk backwards and we hit some walls in the route to the bedroom. It was just so fucking hot. Finally we were in the bedroom and he threw me onto my bed and started to undress me. I started to undress him and we were still making out heavily. He got on top of me, took my underwear off and went down on me and started licking me. He was so good and it felt so amazing. He really took his time and just wow.. He then came back up and started to kiss me again. He started putting his dick inside me but it kinda hurt. It could'nt get in all the way and slipped out. The more we tried getting it back in, the more it hurt. I felt so stupid because I couldn't let it go succesfully and got really insecure. We tried different positions but we couldn't get it done. We then decided to give it up and lied next to eachother, he fingering me, and me jerking him off. He came, we cuddled for a little bit and we decided to get out of bed and get dressed again. We were chilling on the couch for a little bit and he went home, since it was already far past midnight.

A few days later the vibe was just off.. The energy between us was not the same anymore and he wasn't so enthousiastic as before. I felt really insecure about all of it and asked him if there was something wrong. He told me it was all good and told me not to worry. He never asked me out again tho and that made me insecure. My best friend decided to text him from my phone asking him when we would meet up again. We planned a date and in the meantime the vibe was still off. The day before we would meet up I asked him if it was still happening and he said he was not sure if he was able to come. He had a thing he needed to go to and he was pretty sure he was gonna drink some beers there. Even though we had not seen eachother for over a month by now. I was getting very annoyed at that point and asked him if he wanted to see me at all at that point. He said he kinda wanted to but he just doesn't know. Auch.. I responded saying "Oke" and that was the last thing that was said.

Mind you.. this was in january this year. Right now it's September and we just recently got back in touch. The thing is.. I just reaaaally like this guy. There is just something about him I can't resist. I honestly miss the way we talk.. we have such a good vibe, it's like he is my male best friend. We just laugh alot and fit perfectly together. Since begin this summer he started to like my instagram stories again. Sometimes he reacted to my stories, saying how beautiful I am and that I looked good etc.

A few weeks back there was a really big storm and there was a big tree that fell into my mom's yard. I put a picture of that online and he decided to react to it. We got into a conversation by then and he decided to keep talking to me, asking me how I was doing and how life has been, what I've been up to and just constantly trying really hard to keep in contact with me. For 3 days straight we were in constant contact. Then he decided to quit randomly. I was so confused at that point because what the fuck.. Why did he suddenly pull his interest? He started sending me snapchats again and so am I. Sometimes he reacts to my snapchats and we talk for just a little bit.

Last friday I had a wedding. He replied to my snapchat again and we had a quick talk. He asked me how my weekend was gonna look like and so I told him my plans and asked him for his plans. After that the conversation died a little bit. I send a snapchat of my outfit for the wedding and he responds saying I look really cute. A few hours later I send a snapchat of some photobooth pictures I had just made and he, once again, responded saying how pretty I looked in the pictures. At the time I was getting a little drunk, since it was late at night, and I told him he needed to get here so we could take some cool pictures. He said he was on his way and that the pictures of us were going to be so cute.. by the time I saw this I already was back at my moms house, since I was sleeping there. As I got ready to get in bed he was responding to me again. At his tone I was getting the feeling he himself was also a little drunk. He said he was making some tosti's and had choclate milk, living his best life at 2 A.M. and I told him i wanted that too. He told me I should come over and he would make me some. A little later he asked me if I was in bed already and I told him I was. He said goodnight and send me some kisses. I send some kisses back and he said that was sweet. So as the drunk me as I am, I asked him why he was so sweet to me all of the sudden. He laughed and said that he was missing me a little bit. I told him "just a little bit" and he said "Okay fine, I miss you a whole lot".. I then went to sleep.

I just don't know what he wants with me.. The last time we texted back in January he told me he just doesn't know if he wants to see me and now he says he misses me. Also one second he's telling me i'm beautiful and wants to know what i'm up to and then he just cuts our conversation short and stops talking. I just don't know what to do at this point. I reaaaally like the guy still and there's nothing more I want then him and just him. But I do feel like I deserve someone who is really sure about me and not just doubting me all the time.

Well.. since this story is not done yet, i'll keep you updated.

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lifeisabeautyx · 3 months ago

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Did i s-s-s-stutter?

Hey ya'll.. im back!

It's been a few years but i'm still full of stories.. So here we go about another boy story.

Back in 2021 I met this guy through Facebook dating. We hit it off pretty quickly and I decided to give him my number. We texted quitte a bit and this one day he asked if he could call me. Since we had a date planned for the next day, he wanted to hear my voice beforehand he said.

When he called me, the first thing I noticed was that he stuttered. A-lot.. I didn't really know how to react to it and just went with the flow I guess. In the meantime I was texting my best friend telling her what was going on. I remember telling her that I thought he was a weirdo and not a normal kinda guy.

The next day we would meet up, and so we did. It was a pretty weird date. The first time I saw him, he was wearing this weird bag, which I absolutely hate and I kinda judged him for it. He then explained he was diabetic and in the bag he carries his stuff for it. In the date he told me some weird things about his ex. That he was single for just a couple weeks acutally and then he decided to show me his Tinder profile. I meaaaannn.. that's weird right? At the end of the date he walked me back to the car, gave me a hug and left.

He was very enthousiastic about me I guess and he texted me afterwards saying he had a great time and wanted to see me again. We planned a next date and went to the movies. It was an okay date I guess. When we left the movies, he walked me to my car again and gave me a hug and left to go get his own car. When I got home he called me and told me he wanted another date but this time he wanted to do something else. Because at the movies we couldn't talk and he wanted to get to know me. I remember thinking that was pretty funny. We agreed to meet up again and I went to his house this time. I met his entire family and we went up to his bedroom. We watched a movie on his bed, talked a bit and later on I went home. He walked me outside and just before I left he hugged me and asked me if he could kiss me. I said "sure" and then he kissed me. It was a good kiss and it lasted for a bit. I went home and he texted me if it was not weird that he kissed me. I told him it was great and we met up quitte some times after that.

The next date he went to my house and met my mother. We went up to my room and watched a movie. Things got a little heated at the end of the date and we made out a lot. His hands went everywhere up and down my body and he undressed me from the top. I told him I didn't want to have sex yet and he was okay with that. He told me there were other things we could do then and we continued to make out. We were both shirtless in my bed in a hot make out seshh and then decided to stop it there.

The next time we met up, he also came to my house and this time we couldn't wait anymore. We had sex and it was good. He was really cute the whole time and very caring. Afterwards we cuddled and it resulted in us having sex again.

The next day he texted me that he had a great night and he had no regrets, and asked me if I had any regrets about it. I told him I had a good time and he was very happy to hear that. The then invited me to come to his house for a game night with his family. We got more and more serious and we had a great time.

A few months in we decided to be official and so we were boyfriend and girlfriend. We had the best time together and he was so so sweet for me. I got these texts all the time about how in love he was with me and how much he liked me and how much he misses me when i'm not around.

A few weeks into our relationship he wanted me to meet his ex. Since he was still friends with her and all her friends, which were also his friends. I wasn't really looking forward to it but did it anyways. I did not like her vibe and I told him this. He accepted it kinda and decided to keep us apart from each other. It kinda bothered me that he still wanted to see his ex and how good he was with her and her family.

Later on he went on a work trip outside of the country. He would go for about 2 weeks and the day before he left we had a great day together. We spent the night, had some really good sex, went for a round 2 and even a round 3. The next day I kissed him goodbye as he needed to leave to get his flight and I went home. I was meeting up with one of my best friends and we had a fun girls night. I remember waking up the next day to a text from her if I was awake. I texted her that I was and she then texted me a screenshot of my boyfriends Tinder profile. With it saying he was about a 1000+ km away and he was recently active. My heart broke into a million pieces. I was just with him the day before. I decided to confront him with it and he knew he fucked up big time. He called me and explained the situation. He was there with his collegue and were just for fun looking on Tinder and wanted to swipe for fun. He told me not to worry and that he was still very much in love with me. I believed him and when he came back he stood at my doorstep and we hugged for a long long time.

A few months in the relationship I felt his energy changing. He wasn't so actively texting me anymore and it was just different. When I was with him, everything was good and he was very clingy, cute and loveydovey so I thought everything was good.

In May we decided to go out. His best friend was hooking up with his sister and they also were coming with us. They would sleep at my house so we could all go out. That night he was a little distant. Wasn't really looking after me and just a little weird. His best friend and sister went their own way to go to the hospital and we decided we should go home as it was late already. The second we walk out of the door he sees his ex with her new boyfriend and he walks up to them to talk. Since I didn't like her, I was across the street with some other friends, waiting for him to come so we could go home. I remember getting irritated and told him to hurry up since I was cold and I was tired and ready to go home. He then told me he wanted to stay after all since now there are people he liked at the club.. his ex and her boyfriend.. I was so mad he sad that and also it broke my heart. I said he needed to give me my keys to my house and I grisped it out of his hand and left. I didn't give him a kiss, I was just so mad. My friends brought me home since my boyfriend left me all alone. When I got home I was crying my eyes out. I didn't even want him getting to my house again that night. I was just ready to end things with him. But since his best friend and sister were also sleeping at my house, I just couldn't do it. When his best friend and sister came home to my house they were hugging me and told me he was just such a dumbass for pulling that stunt. They had my back. I went to bed, crying my eyes out and later on got a text from him he was on his way. He came inside the house and lied next to me. I couldn't sleep the whole night and in the morning time I just needed to get out of my house. Since I couldn't go to the livingroom because of the people sleeping there, I decided to go out for a walk to cry. I found a bench and I just sat there and cried my eyes out. When I got back in the house, I had breakfast with the best friend and his sister and they both went home. While my boyfriend was still sleeping. I was sitting in the living room when he finally got out of bed. He acted like nothing was wrong which made me even more mad. He just honestly had no idea I was feeling so miserable. I told him how I felt about it and he apologized for his crazy behaviour and asked me to not end things with him. I, again, forgave him and we made up.

In August we decided to go on a little trip together to Paris. We booked and went on our trip. We had a great little get away. The last day we had the best sex. It was so damn magical, in the middle of the night, the windows open and the curtains flowing in to the room, he on top of me and giving me so much love. I remember cleaning up afterwards and walking back to the bed and just standing there, admiring the view of him lying there in the bed after the night we just had. I remember wanting to take a picture of it, but since he was butt naked on the bed I decided not to take the picture.

A few days after we got back he came to my house. I was on the balcony and since he had a key to my house, he came in himself. He joined me on the balcony and sat down. He told me we needed to talk. He didn't want to be with my anymore and that he wasn't in love with me anymore. It was a very intense night with the both of us hysterical crying. The next few days were a rollercoaster for me. He came over a few days later to talk about it and he came over to me and just hugged me. I remember him walking up to me with his arms wide open and I told him, if he would hug me right now I would burst in to tears and he said he doesn't care. He really needed to hug me and we both burst in to tears. We talked a whole lot and he said he was just so confused but he needed to be alone. He did kiss me and touched me in some places and said he wanted to sleep next to me that night and wanted to have sex. But I dind't think that would be a good idea. He left and told me he would come over in a few days again.

The day after my birthday he came over again and had a basket with him with some food in it. It was a gift for my birhtday. That night we ended up having a fight because I hated how he treated me the last week and he did not see it that way. He was so angry, he stormed out of the room and grabbed the basket he got for me and took it with him. I asked him to come back and he came back, threw the basket back on the table and started yelling at me again. At that point I was so fed up with him and I told him to fuck off then. And so he slammed the door behind him and left.

Later on he came over one time again to return my keys and to get his stuff from my place. So that was it..

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lifeisabeautyx · 3 years ago

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Hooligan boy.

So hi.. im back with yet another boy story..

This story is all about hooligan boy. He’s not really a hooligan but you could say he’s a die hard fan of this one soccer team.

I met this guy through Facebook dating lol. We chatted for about a week non stop when he asked me out for a date. He initially asked me to get a drink together after work. He then asked of we could make it into a dinner and i agreed. He arranged the whole thing, which i find sooo damn attractive.

The night of the date i texted him about where we were gonna meet and he told me he was already in the parking garage near by the restaurant. I told him i’d meet him there and so i drove to the garage. When i rolled up he was sitting in his car with the door open. I parked my car next to him and he walked out to come see me and said hi to eachother. We walked to the restaurant and sat down. Throughout the dinner we were just constantly talking and laughing.. having a good time ☺️

It was time to leave and he paid for dinner and walked together to the car. He then realised he did not have his car keys and thought he left them on the table so he ran back to our table. When he came back he told me they weren’t on the table. We continued to walk to the garage where he ran off to his car to check if the keys were there and when he came back he told me the keys were still in the contact. In the meantime i paid my car ticket and we walked back to our cars. When we arrived he gave me a hug and then looked me in my eyes and went for a kiss, tongue and all.. it was a pretty intense kiss if you ask me lol.. he told me he had a good time and right before i stepped into my car he asked me if i wanted to go grab a drink in his hometown. I told him i’d love to but i had so much shit to do and he understood.

When i came home that night he texted me he had a really good time and that the kiss was really good. He also said he was pretty nervous for the date causeur he was convinced i’d be out of his reach.. And then he continued asking me if i wanted to meet up again soon and ofcourse i agreed because i reaaally was liking the guy. He told me he was free saturday night. He had to work at this restaurant but he’d be free early so we could hang out. He asked me if i wanted to chill at his house or mine and maybe watch a movie or something. He also told me he’d be home alone that weekend. I told him that we’d hang out at his house because i felt it would be a little too soon to bring him to my house and meet my mother.

So two days later i drove to his house. I couldn’t find it at first and was a bit lost so i texted him and he told me he was waiting outside for me. I walked around a bit and then i heard him calling for me and looked over to see him talking to his neighbour. I walked over to him and he was still talking to his neighbour for a bit. When we walked in the house i waited for him in the hallway and he immediately kissed me, again with tongue, and hugged me. He then walked into the house and i walked behind him. I took a seat on the couch while he grabbed me something to drink. When he came back, he took a spot on the couch and we were just chatting for a bit and decided on what to watch. The blacklist it was.

He looked over at me and asked me if i always sit that far away. I asked him if he wanted me to get closer to him and he said that he’d like that. So I sat closer to him. A few minutes later he asked me if I thought he smelled, when I told him no he said “good, then I can put my arm around you..” and so he did. I rested my head on him and watched the tv. We were just chatting a bit and when I looked at him, we kissed. Heavily. The kiss become more heated and heated as the minutes passed by while he grabbed my leg and pulled me on top of him. A little later he pinned me down on the couch and started to feel me up as the kissing became more heated and heated. After about 10 minutes he took it a step further and went for a feel on my boobs while kissing my neck.

At this point he had me.. I was all his and he was mine. He took my top off and so he had a little more access and took his shirt off to. He went to feel a little between my legs and I was just enjoying the situation a lot. He asked me if I wanted to continue this in his bedroom and I told him I didn’t wanna have sex and we had to stop in a bit.. he continued to kiss me and feel me up and I took my hand to his growing bulge which was pretty hard when I touched it. He slowly continued to open up my jeans and his hand went between my legs and started fingering me. He told me he liked how wet I was for him. We continued kissing and I undid his jeans and underwear and saw his dick in all its glory. He was hard and I started to jerk him off. I could tell he liked it a lot as I looked in his eyes. He grabbed me on top of him and undid my bra and played with my boobs. He then layed me down again and went back to fingering me. He pulled down my jeans and thong so he had more access again haha. His technique was just on a whole nother level and I never experienced something like this. While kissing he grabbed my throat and asked me if that would be something I liked and also grabbing my hair. I had no experience with that though so I told him that and he said he saw In my eyes that I liked it though and he was right.. I did. As he was laying on the couch completely naked, with his Dick rockhard I decided to give him head. It would be my first time giving head and I had no idea what to do but I just thought to myself, once had to be the first time right?? So I just did it. As I looked at him to see what his reaction was and again he enjoyed himself very much. He grabbed my head and made me deepthroat him which was a first for me too and I started to gag. He kissed me and pinned me to the couch again and went back to pleasuring me with his fingers. He told me he wanted to taste me with his tongue to and wanted to show me what his tongue could do. And so he did. It was also the first time someone went down on me and honestly I didn’t really find it all that amazing. Maybe because I was so amazed by his technique with his fingers that a tongue just couldn’t do it for me. A few minutes later he went up for a kiss and tried to fuck my boobs. His attention was then fixed on making me come. He spread my legs wide and watched me as he fingered me hard and fast. He asked me if he was on the right spot and let me tell you he goddamn was. After a little while he made me come and since he was going so hard it wore me out. He told me he wasn’t done with me tho and held my legs apart by pinning his own leg on mine so I couldn’t close my legs as he continued fingering me. It was all so sensitive I asked him to stop cause it wasn’t feeling good anymore and so he did.

It was now my mission to make him come by going down on him. I wanted to make him feel good and I asked him what he would like. As I sucked on his balls I saw him enjoy himself so damn much. At one point he couldn’t handle himself and pinned me down on the couch again as he turned me around. I was quick to know what he was about to do and told him again that we were not gonna have sex. I turned myself around and went back to kissing him and jacking off. As we switched positions he asked me how I didn’t feel like having sex and what would the diffrence be as to what we were doing right then en there. I told him that I honestly didn’t know what the diffrence is and I just didn’t know anything at that moment. I continued to pleasure him and he told me it wouldn’t take long for him to come so we had to switch positions, otherwise his cum would go everywhere. So we switched positions again and I told him he had to tell me when he was about to come cause I didn’t want him to come in my mouth. He asked me where would be okay and I told him everywhere 😉. He seemed to really like that answer and about a minute later he told me he was about to come. I continued with my hands as I looked him in his eyes and he came all over me. He immediately kissed me deep and asked me if I needed a towel and got one for me. As I started to dress, he came back from the kitchen totally naked and was shocked to see me half dressed. He told me “you’re not gonna leave already, do you?” As he handed me the towel. I joked saying; yea nice meeting you, bye.. as I started to wipe of his cum. I continued to dress myself and he lied back on the couch and said “this was the best sex I’ve ever had and we didn’t even have sex.. I was shaking when I came and I never had that before..” he then asked me where I learned all that and how I could be so good with my tongue.

About five minutes later he told me he needed to smoke and asked if I went outside with him cause he needed to get some fresh air since it became so heated inside. I went with him and we sat next to each other on this wooden bench. He looked at me and smiled and again told me it was so good and he told me that is has been a while since this happens for him. I asked him how long and he told me that the last time would be a few years ago. He continued saying that he just was focused on his carreer and his focus was not on girls. He asked about me and I told him it was about a year ago for me. We chatted for a bit outside and went back inside. He got us another drink and as he sat down he kissed me again.

We continued watching the serie we were watching and saw we were 2 episodes further. We continued talking and he was telling me something he was pretty passionate about and bought this book and he got up to show me the book. When he sat next to me he kissed me again and continued to explain. He told me that there are not many people who want to talk about the subject or do not take him serious for it. I was all ears tho and he really respected me for it. Some time went by and he told me he was tired so I told him I’d be going back to my house. As I was standing he slapped my ass and walked behind me. As we got to the hallway he kissed me and told me he had a great time and told me to text him when I got home. So i did.

The next day I texted him and his response was just a little later as usual. In the meantime I was already freaking out because of what happened the night before, thinking he had used me. Later on that day it was all good and he texted me as usual. Monday morning he texted me goodmorning and later on the day he became a little more distant again. And once again I was freaking out and then he told me he was not feeling good and he was sleeping a lot. It calmed me down again and Tuesday he was still a little off. I just got so insecure of it, it was killing me. The next day I just couldn’t take it anymore and asked him when I was gonna see him again, just to get some clarity out of him. He told me he was really busy this weekend and told me all of his plans. I then said that if he wasn’t up for seeing me again, he could just say that. He then told me he was doubting the whole thing because he didn’t have “the feeling” just yet as he normally has that pretty soon. Well, I can tell you that at that moment my heart broke in a million pieces. I responded about an hour later telling him he gave me some other ideas last Saturday but that it’s okay and I saw it coming. He asked me what I meant with that and I told him it just didn’t add up with the thing he told me. But that it was fine and that I appreciate it that he was honest with me. He then said sorry blablabla and that was the last communication we had.

I feel so sick of it.. I just really thought this guy was different. The things he told me.. saying “your eyes are so damn beautiful.. and your smile. The first picture i saw of you, I completely melted” and what about all those lovey dovey kisses he gave me after the whole thing happened?? All the things we talked about, the connection we had.. I just don’t get it. I honestly feel like he was telling the truth when he told me those things. I could see it in his eyes.. those were not lying. I honestly have this gut feeling that he is going to come back in my life. The feeling is just so strong, so you might be hearing about hooligan boy again xoxo

Love,

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lifeisabeautyx · 4 years ago

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Bad boy.

Well.. here’s another story for ya..

I met this guy through Tinder. From the second we chatted I had this feeling he wasn’t something I was looking for. The way he’d be talking was just not on my level and I felt like he was just a little too childish. I kept talking to him anyway and later on he started to intriguig me.. There was something about him.

He then started telling me some heavy things he went through and some pretty heavy stuff he did as a teenager. He told me he was a drugdealer at the age of 16 and walked around with like 40k while being in school. He told me that his very best friend got shot because of a deal gone wrong and he felt responsible for it because it was his deal and he actually had to be there. He told me he had to carry his best friends body in to the car and take it to his family’s house. He said he still lies awake at night thinking about it. After that he got out of that world and he changed his life around for the better. The way he opened up to me felt so special..

Since that moment we bonded and we just really connected. Some time later we had our first date. He picked me up and we went to a café. At first we were sitting outside but then there was this huuuuge rainstorm right above us and we had to run inside. We had just sooo much fun and we’d laugh our asses off. My hayfever was getting out of hand and my eyeliner was allll smudged out on my eyes. I had no idea how long he let me walk around like that but when I had a quick glance in my phone I called him out for not telling me haha. We honestly had so much fun but at the same time I was hella insecure about if he felt the same way towards me.. A couple hours later he took me home and chatted some more in his car. When he dropped me off, he walked out of his car and walked up to me and gave me a big hug. It just felt sooo good and thought it was such a sweet gesture. He then drove off and a few minutes later I got a Snapchat saying “had such a nice day❤️”. My heart melted.. he felt the same way.

About two days later he asked me what my thoughts were about the date and if he was what i expected. I told him he was exactly how I expected him to be and I had a really good time with him. I reversed the question on him and he told me I was even better than he expected and he said “have you seen yourself? 😍😍” and again my heart melted.

Our second date was a pretty serious one haha. We went to a zoo. So he came to pick me up again and again we had just so much fun. He was so outspoken and didn’t care about what people would hear or what they would think of him. And i’m basicly the complete opposite. In that way we just really completed eachother cause we learned from eachother. We went through the whole park and just enjoyed ourselves. At the end of the day he dropped me off and again he got out of his car again, coming towards me. He gave me a reaaally big hug. The one that you walk a little, so big. And just stared at each other and there was just this thing.. there wasn’t a kiss or anything but there was just this magical thing at the moment we stared in each others eyes. It felt good.

Our third date we went to see a movie that I picked out and he would pick a restaurant to eat at afterwards. He came to pick me up again and went the cinema. We then drove about 45 minutes to the place he made reservations for. A freakin’ sushi restaurant (fucking amazing right!! 🥰) and had dinner. After we had dinner we walked to the car and he told me he wanted to buy a new car and we wanted to show me a picture of it. As he showed me the picture, a notification from a dating app showed saying “you got a new message from Ilke”. He swiped it away reaaal quick but I already saw that ofcourse. I decided not to mention it because it was not like we were official or anything. The ride home was just a little awkward because I didn’t mention it and he was just a little quiet. When we were at my house he again got out of his car and walked up to me to give me a hug. We then looked each other in the eye and we kissed. A pretty long kiss right in front of my neighbours houses haha.

The next date we decided to take a walk in the woods. We had some serious talks while walking and I’d say we had fun. We then went to a cafe afterwards and drank some alcohol and went home. He dropped me off and talked some more and he gave me a hug. No kiss or anything and it felt just a little off.

After that it went just a little downhill. The vibe was not the same and I just felt that he changed in his way of communicating towards me. His whole attitude changed overnight and he would react so cold sometimes what made me a little insecure. Because my car broke down I was looking for a new one. I got myself a new car and was just really excited so he was one of the first people I told the good news to and he was so mean. He told me it was ugly and that grandma’s drive these type of cars. I decided not to make a comment about it and let it be.

A few days later I posted a photo on my Facebook with the car and he commented something so mean. He said “what should I see here? I see a girl and a piece of crap thing that’s ready for the junkyard” I was just soooo fucking pissed and texted him saying he doesn’t have to be that shitty and we had a fight over text after that and he told me he didn’t have time for this and he just waisted his time with me anyway. That was the last conversation we had.

He still checks up on my socials now and then even though he deleted me on everything. He got himself a girlfriend pretty quick after that though. I felt like such a fool. I really thought there was something between us and then he pulled this on me. Even my friends thought it was getting pretty serious and started liking the thought of him.

Anyway.. that’s the story of bad boy ⚡️

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lifeisabeautyx · 4 years ago

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Fishy guy.

Well.. it’s been a while huh.. Here I am again with yet another story in my oh so sad lovelife. Get ready.

So this guy added me on Facebook like a year ago and i thought he looked kinda cute so i accepted. We didn’t really talk at all, he got in a relationship with someone and they were together for i think about a year or so. A year later i was out for dinner with my friends because it was my birthday and i got a DM on instagram from this guy wishing me happy birthday. I thanked him and that was kinda the end of the conversation.

About 2 or 3 weeks later he messaged me again on a saterday night and we kinda hit it off.. Exchanged numbers and decided to meet up pretty quickly. I was so fucking nervous for the date cause i already thought he was pretty cute and we’d totally match. He picked me up and we drove around for a while, talking about life and just alot of random shit. Honestly we were hitting it off and there was just a good vibe. He drove me back home and i was kinda head over heels. We didn’t kiss and that made me a little insecure cause i didn’t know if he liked it as much as i did. We texted a little after the date and then it was radio silence.

I was so sad cause clearly he didn’t like the date as much as i did. Decided to text him about 2 weeks later and we hit it off again. Until he said “Hey, im not really looking for a relationship or anything right now..” and again my heart broke.. FUCK.. He then said he would like to be friends with benefits with me if that’s something i would be up for. I told him i was not up for that at all and told him that i was kinda offended he thought i would just like that sleep with him. He told me i didn’t look easy at all to him and he honestly really liked me and i was defenitely was his type but he was just not ready for a relationship at the moment. Again, i told him i wasn’t up for that and we decided to just talk.

After some time we were talking on the daily and flirting with each other. This one day he knew where i was going and he drove by me just to have a quick glance at me. That night he called me on Facetime saying he wanted to hear my voice again and he wanted to see me. I was crushing on him soooo fucking hard and we just had the goofiest conversation. I loved it.

Again after some months of texting eachother non stop and some failed attempts of meeting up, it was new years eve and as the clock hits 00.00 a.m., he texted me “happy new year love ❤” after some texting i told him i’d go to bed and when I woke up on new years day i woke up from a couple different texts from him. The one that made my heart skip a beat said “Why don’t you come over tomorrow? I canceled everything for you so you can come over ❤❤❤” Since i knew he was pretty drunk that night i asked him if he was serious about what he said and that morning he said that he really did want me to come over. I agreed and went over to his house that night.

When i was on my way he texted me saying “drive savely babe” since it was pretty bad weather. I got to his house and didn’t really know how to greet him. Do i just say hi, give him a hug.. I got out of the car and didn’t really have to do anything cause he already walked inside the house and i didn’t even know where he went HAHA. I walked inside his house and he was already chilling on the couch. I took my jacket off and joined him on the other couch. We were watching a show called ‘First dates’ and he started asking me questions as “how long you been single?” we were kinda having small talk while still watching the show. Suddenly he looked at me and said “why are you still on that couch and why are you not lying here next to me?” I didn’t see that one coming at all and said to him something like “well you can come lie here too if you want..” this went on for a little while and then about 20 minutes later he took his blanket and stood up to come over and lie on the coach i was sitting on.

There he was.. The boy i was sooo crushing on was laying in my lap. We kinda stared at each other for a little while and had some small talk. Then watched the show again. He then turned his body to me and just blankly stared at me. He was deadass flirting again with me saying i looked so good and he really loved my curls while his hand was going through my hair. And there it was. OUR FIRST KISS!! he kissed me and it felt soooo good. It was just a kinda awkward position we were in since i was just sitting on the couch and he was lying in my lap haha. He got up and we kissed some more and he laid me down next to him on the couch. He started to feel me up everywhere and were just full on making out. He made a comment saying he wanted to go to his bedroom and i told him that would not be a good idea. We were still heavily making out still and he found his way in to my pants and i to his 🙈.

After about 15 minutes later and about 5 comments of him trying to get me in to his bedroom and me denying he just stood up and took my hand, kissing our way to the stairs as he walked in front of me. As we walked in to his room he turned on some dim lights and got in his bed. I took off my shoes as i lied next to him in his bed. We made out again and he suddenly was on top of me, removing my clothes from my body and i removed his clothes. And it happend. We had sex.

The sex was honestly pretty good, not gonna lie. He just came pretty quickly. As i was getting all in to it he suddenly stops and mumbled something i couldn’t hear. I asked him what he was saying and he repeated his self again saying “the first time is always quick with me” and then i realized he already came. I was just kinda confused about it all since i was just enjoying myself a whole lot about a minute ago. He then said “I’ll stay like this for a minute so it won’t come all out of you” while still being ‘inside’ me. Again i didn’t know what he was talking about and he said “I always cum a lot so if i stay inside just a little, it won’t come out flooding all out of you.” I finally understood him and it all landed haha. He lied next to me and the look on his face was just so sad and irritated. I asked him what was wrong and he said he’s just really irritated that he came that quick since it’s been a while that he had sex with anyone and he didn’t want that to happen. He got pretty mad at himself and i tried to calm him down saying that it’s okay.

He then looked at me and asked me if i wanted some tissues for all that was dripping out of me, making stains on his bed. He then said “I told you i always cum a lot hahah.” He was smiling again and that made me really happy. We lied there for a few minutes then both got up to get dressed again. We walked downstairs and he went outside to smoke a sigaret. When he got back in the house he walked over to me realll close as he showed me a funny video on his phone.

We then walked back to the livingroom and both sat on a different couch again. Immediately i thought to myself what is happening.. why are you not sitting next to me to cuddle or something. We talked some more while he was kinda distant as he was at the beginning of the evening. He then suddenly got up to light a candle that he was pretty enthousiastic over and he wanted me to smell the candle and walked over to me. He got all happy about that and i thought it was just so cute.

Some hours later i decided to go home and he said he would leave with me to go to his dad’s house. I got my stuff and we talked some more as we walked to our cars. As i walked to my car, hoping he would follow me and give me a hug or a kiss, he walked to his car and got in. We then both drove away .

On my way home he texted me talking about my driving skills that it wasn’t as bad as i made it out to be. We texted a little and the next day he didn’t say a word to me. Later that night i texted him and he immediately responds but that was it. I was getting so insecure at that moment about the whole situation. Did he just use me for sex? was i honestly falling for that bullshit?

A week went by as i build up the courage to ask him what the fuck was going on between us and what the fuck was up with him not reaching out after that night. He told me he was confused about everything and himself and life and just everything. He told me he smashed his phone and didn’t know what to do at the moment. He said he needed to go talk to his therapist again cause of his anger issues and that he didn’t know anything that was going on, including us. I asked him if he used me for sex and he told me that that was absolutely not the case, he was just confused.

Some days went by not talking to each other and while i was a night out in the city he suddenly reached out to me asking me if i was in the city. He told me that he was nearby and i could come over if i wanted to. I then said to him that i thought he was ignoring me cause he didn’t say a word to me. He told me that was not the case but since he smashed his phone, it didn’t work plus he was still so confused. We talked a little that night and the following days but then it got quite again.

Ever since that day we sometimes talk to each other on Snapchat but more on a friendly base. Till about a few months back when he replied on a snapchat saying he would love to see me again and to have his way with me again. He then told me he wanted to re-do that night again since he said he could perform better than that and he wanted to show me. I told him no since im still not up for friends with benefits. I know i would get feelings for him and i would just get hurt all over again. We talked for a bit and it made me think about the time i was with him and how good it was. It made me miss him and still hoping thing between us would work out.

WHY CAN’T I JUST FIND A GUY THAT I LIKE AND ACTUALLY REALLY LIKES ME BACK. FUUUUUCKK haha

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lifeisabeautyx · 5 years ago

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Sushi boy.

Well here I am with yet another boy story..

So this summer there was a week full of party’s and activities at my best friends hometown.. on Friday and Saturday there was this big party and she asked me to go with her. The party was on this big field in the middle of this town and it was pretty crowded. Suddenly this guy walked up to us and my friend knew him from high school so they were catching up. Meanwhile I was still dancing my ass off. This other guy walked up to us that they both knew from high school and my friend went on to catch up with him. The first guy then came up to me and started chit chatting. He then told me that I probably don’t know him anymore, but he defenitely knows who I am. He then went on to tell me my name, age, where I live and what my origin is.

I was kinda in shock and asked him how the fuck he knew all that. He told me we once had a match on Tinder and I told him all that in a tinderchat. He told me I never responded to him after that and he was bummed out about it. The whole night he was diehard flirting with me and we danced together. I thought he was cute and a sweetheart.

The next night he was also at the party and we met up again. He told me he saw me earlier that day and thought to himself “wow, such a pretty girl..” and he told me he was glad I was there again tonight. When the party came to an end we (my friend, him & me) were talking for about 2 hours.. we talked about everything and it was really nice. He was kinda weird but I liked it. The whole night he was flirting with me again but at the end of the night he didn’t make a move. Didn’t even ask for my number so I was so confused.

Few weeks later and there was another big party in my best friends hometown. I knew he was gonna be there so I was kinda excited. He walked up to us and we started talking and dancing again. He then left and didn’t see him for the rest of the night until the party was over and he suddenly popped up out of nowhere and walked up to me again.. my friend and I were talking to him and she was trying to set us up. He told her IN FRONT OF ME that he was scared to ask me out and that he’s shy. Pretty awkward isn’t it?? 😂

The next day I was at a festival with my best friend and that guy texted her last night with a crazy photo. She responded back by giving him my number. They went on to talking about how he should just text me and not be scared. So later on that night I got a text from him. About a week later we went out on a dinner date and went to eat sushi. He never had sushi but was willing to try it as long as I went with him.

He picked me up and went to the restaurant. He wanted to smoke real quick before we went in and that’s when I saw a collegue of mine standing really close next to me. I kinda tried to ignore it and later on we went in. We got seated and a few minutes later my colleague was seated RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME and I was making eye contact the entire night.. Meanwhile Nick was really nervous and I thought it was kinda cute. He asked me to show him how to eat with the sticks and when he reached his hand out to me to show him, I saw his hands were all shaky. Throughout the date we were having a good time. Though he sometimes randomly came up with some topics that was just so so weird. Like we were talking about Netflix shows and he suddenly says hey have you ever taken a bloodtest??

He dropped me of at home later that night and it ended with a kiss. The kiss didn’t give me any sparks or anything but I thought it might come later. I was left with so many unanswered feelings and so confused because I didn’t know why I didn’t feel as happy and giggly as I thought I had to feel. I decided to give it another chance before quitting it and we went on another date.

We were going to see the lion king and he came to pick me up. Beforehand I was kinda dreading to go i this date with him and wasn’t feeling happy.. I got in his car and we kissed. Again.. didn’t feel anything. I felt like I was kinda distancing myself from him and I didn’t think that was fair of me to do. He grabbed my thigh throughout the movie but I didn’t respond to it at all.. I found it just so awkward. When he took me home all I could think about was oh my god.. when we’re in front of my house I have to kiss him again and I really don’t want to..

So we were parked right in front of my house and there I was.. dreading the kiss. But I kinda felt like I had to because I didn’t want to hurt him because I knew he was really in to me. He got really in to the kiss and deepened it. I told him I had fun thanked him for his company and left the car.

After that date I was just so confused.. why couldn’t I just like him. He was such a good guy and all that I wanted before hand and now that I got it in front of me, I didn’t feel any spark. I felt so guilty for leading him on and a about 2 days later I told him that it just wasn’t going to work out between us and that I’m so so sorry for all this.

He told me that he kinda expected it and that broke my heart. Just because I know that he’s just such a good guy.

My lesson in this one was that you just always have to listen to your gut feeling.. if there is no spark in the beginning, there isn’t going to be one at all.. trust your gut.

Till next time

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lifeisabeautyx · 5 years ago

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Dear John.

Oh boy.. here we go again haha !

A lot has happend since the last time I wrote on here.

As a destraction to get over my ex I installed the app Tinder and decided to swipe here and there. This guy I had a match with, send me a message and from the very beginning the conversation stood out from all the other conversations i’ve had on Tinder.

I found out he lived about 10 minutes near my best friend. And when I went to a party at her hometown he told me he was thinking about showing up if his friends wanted to go with him. I gave him my number so he could text me if he actually would show up at the party. He didn’t, but that’s the moment we started texting.

In the midst of summer, the hottest day measured, I went swimming with my sisters and niece. When we drove through his hometown, i snapchatted a picture of it to him, to show him I was nearby. He immeadiately responded and when I was at the beach he texted me and asked me if I was at that specific beach. About 10 minutes later he texted me “come to the parkinglot! I’m actually here haha”

At first I thought he was joking and got kinda scared because what if he actually did show up there.. I had no makeup on, was wearing a pretty revealing bathingsuit and I was with family. I decided to run in the water and pretend I never saw his text (oops🙊). After about an hour I thought i’d be safe to get back on the beach and checked my phone. I had about 20 missed texts from him and a missed call. He actually still stood there after an hour!!

I was kinda scared to go over there and told him he could come to me if he wanted to, but him being also scared we didn’t come far. After texting for another hour (so in the meantime he stood there for about 2 hours waiting for me on the most hottest day measured..) I finally build up enough courage to get up and meet him.

We were talking about some random stuff and there was a pretty good vibe. At some point he even started flirting with me. We were talking about how hot it was outside and he told me “i’m getting hot just by seeing you” and I thought that was pretty cute and bold of him to say.

After about 30 minutes I told him I’d better get back to my family before they would come look for me. As I was about to walk away he said “am I not gonna get a hug from you?” I walked over to him and gave him a quick hug. He put both his arms around me and gave me a tight hug. While I didn’t know what kinda hug he meant and just put a quick arm around his neck. It felt really good honestly. At some point I kinda had this feeling he wanted to lower his hands and grab my ass but he didn’t. I walked away and he got in his car and yelled after me that I had to stop waving my ass in front of him. I laughed and told him to shut up.

I walked back to my family and had to tell them about him because they obviously saw him. When I went back to the shore to check my phone he had texted me a couple times saying “you do look really cute 😳” and because I was in the water, talking to my family, about 30 minutes later I got another text saying “your ass was defenitely waving at me😂😍” hahahaha

After that we texted for a pretty long time but we never seemed to actually go on a date even though we made some plans here and there.. they just never went through. I kinda felt a connection with him and kinda cared. But after some time the conversations were kinda one sided from my side and I saw him tagging his ex on Facebook. That was the last straw for me and I decided to go on full ignore mode. He could’ve have it and decided to text me here and there and was out for attention. I don’t know why but it did kinda hurt me to see him getting close to his ex again and I felt played.

About a week later I met up with this guy I met at a party to go on a date and decided to go an a little revenge action. I posted a picture of this guy on my Snapchat stories with a ‘❤️’ emoji and changed my settings so that only he could view my stories. He did within minutes and right after he deleted me from all social media. I know it was such a pity move to do this but I felt kinda betrayed by him and I wanted to hurt his feelings too.

When I got home later that night I decided to text him one last time and told him it was ridiculous that he would delete me off of everything. He told me he didn’t think so and the next day I responded by saying an ex is an ex for a reason.. he would find out eventually and ended it by saying “byeeeee”

I ignored his text after that and he even deleted my phone number after that. About a week ago I suddenly got a message on tinder and guess who it was.. Hahah exactly. Him. He texted “hii”. I decided to ignore him cause I was kinda mad. I mean I’m not a second option to anyone. Especially not for him, he wasn’t even that handsome or anything.. about a week later I decided to respond by saying hey but he never said anything back.

I honestly think we will be talking again in the future and I think he does really have a thing for me but he’s just not ready to get over his ex. Well I’m not out here waiting for him, I’m getting all the attention I want at the moment but I can’t lie and say that I also didn’t have a weakspot for him.

We’ll see what the time will bring I guess..

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lifeisabeautyx · 5 years ago

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Heartbroken.

I honestly don’t really know where to start..

This ex I told u about in my last post.. I just can’t seem to get over him. It’s been over a year and I still miss him. He’s making me lose my mind and I can’t stand it.

Last summer I spoke to my mom’s friend who’s reading cards. She told me alot of things about him. Like that he regrets the things he did to me so much and that he misses being with me because I was different from all the other girls. She told me that he talked about me with an older person asking for advice. She told me he would reach out sooner then later and about a week later he texted me. In that conversation he was being a little flirty and sweet, while I on the otherhand was being a little distant.

I just have a really strong feeling that there’s still something between the two of us and I can’t let it go.. I know for sure that i’m still on his mind because he still goes on a stalking mode from time to time on all my social media and is making sure that I know he things about me. He’s also on my mind for sure. I honestly have this feeling that we belong together in the end. We compliment eachother so damn well and it was an overall match. Usually i’m right about things like this, we both just are too scared to make the real first step I think.

Since 2 weeks he’s been dating this other girl and throwing it all over social media. I don’t know if he does it so he knows I see it or that he does it because she’s putting it all on social media too. I feel like it’s the second option though. And this girl is just like all his other exes. They look NOTHING like me at all and are honestly the complete opposite of me. She’s just another ugly ass blonde girl like the rest he’s dated. He just posted a picture with her on Facebook and it just hurts to see that. Even though I know that she’s nothing on me, she still has him right now.

I just don’t know why I can’t get over him. It’s not like I don’t get attention from other guys. I’ve actually been talking to this guy but I just don’t get that feeling with him as I did with my ex. This guy was actually pretty active on social media with me as in tagging me in memes on Facebook, commenting hearteyes emoji’s under my instagram pictures etc. And I have a feeling my ex saw all that. Maybe that’s why he’s been so active on trying to show off this girl he’s dating right now.

I’m just out here hoping he’ll break up with her ASAP and comes back to me, showing me he’s matured up and ready for a relationship with me. I still love that boy..

Love,

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lifeisabeautyx · 6 years ago

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Ex.

Well, I guess I have alot to tell you..

So the guy I was dating broke up with me through text. ON A SATURDAY NIGHT WHILE HE WAS AT A PARTY. And left me heartbroken..

Exactly a week before it all happend he came over and we had such a fun night with my family and he really was bonding with my family and slept over at my house.

That morning we had sex and again he was telling me al these cute things like he loved me and that he’s happy that he was my first. And that he didn’t want to leave and wanted to stay and just cuddle with me. Eventually when he was leaving he came back like 5 times to give me a kiss and still telling me he didn’t want to leave. Being all cute and shit..

The whole week in between the break up and when he slept over we didn’t have alot of contact.. he was kinda being distant and I wasn’t having it so I was being distant towards him. Saturday night I texted him asking if we were okay and he told me everything was fine and told me he was busy with the party he was throwing. So I asked him if he was sure and that if there is something that’s bothering him, he can tell me and he told me there was nothing I needed to be worried about bla bla..

That was until I recieved a text at 4 A.M. that night from him that he didn’t want it anymore.

Turned out he met some other (underaged) chick that he cheated on me with. Two days after we broke up he changed his status that he was in a relationship with that other chick. Their relationship lasted a whole two weeks tho..

I was so heartbroken over it all because I honestly thought he was a good guy but I guess it was all too good to be true.

About a week later his grandma was at the store I work at and she was so excited to see me and she had two little girls with her and she told the girls that I was the girlfriend of their nephew. HIS GRANDMA DIDN’T EVEN KNOW WE WERE BROKEN UP! Even though his grandma is at his house a few times a week. So when she said that to those girls I told her “Well, not anymore..” and she was so shocked. She said “What?! Are u kidding? You are so good for him and you are just so pretty? What happend between you two?” So I told her that I didn’t even know myself what happend and that she had to ask that question to him and she told me she defenitely would ask him that and that she’s so sorry.

That was about the most awkward conversation I have ever had. Lol

See ya!

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lifeisabeautyx · 7 years ago

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First.

OMG!! I had sex last night with the guy i’m dating. My boyfriend.

It all happend so quick..

We were watching a movie on Netflix and we were just kissing a bit. Then it got a little serious and he was trying to pull my pants down and succeeded.

Before I knew it he was already inside me. Lol. It all happend a little quick and went on for about 5 minutes before he came in me haha. I was just thinking the whole time ‘so this is it?’ And kinda felt bad for thinking that.

He was so sweet the whole time though. Kissing me, holding me and afterwards saying all these sweet things like he wants to stay the night with me to cuddle and he really enjoyed what we just did. He also was asking me a millon times if I enjoyed it and saying he loves me. Idk everything was just so cute. He is cute.

So I lost my virginity on sunday February 11th.

See ya!

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lifeisabeautyx · 7 years ago

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Mine.

I have alot of things to get off my chest. Are u ready? Let’s go.

Okay, where do I start this one..

Let’s begin with that I was in Berlin for New Years with a couple friends. The day we went back home I got this message on Facebook from this guy saying ‘happy new year 😘!’

I knew who this guy was since I was already friends with him, but i’ve never spoken a word to him. I’ve never even seen this guy in real life, even though we used to live in the same town.

I decided to message him back saying ‘you too!’ And from there on out we just hit it off. We decided to meet up a couple days later at my work. I was sooooo nervous to meet him because i’ve never really met up with a boy.

So my shift was over and I was getting ready when he texted me he was there. The second I walk out of my work, my colleague mentions that my mom is in the store and that second she walks up to me. I quickly said goodbye to her and walked outside. There he was.. we talked for over an hour in the cold. When I went home later on he texted me that he thought I was really cute and he asked me if I wanted to go on another date with him.

I was hella excited and so he picked me up the next day. We were just driving around in his car for about 4 hours and he took me to one of his boys where he introduced me as his girlfriend. THIS WAS ONLY THE SECOND TIME WE MET!! Later on when he drove me home it was a little awkward because I was waiting for him to make a move to kiss me, but he didn’t make a move.

A couple days later we decided to go to his house to watch a movie. He told me he would be home alone. So when he picked me up and were driving to his house, he mentions his grandma was at his house also. I was like ‘whaaattt? You told me you were home alone’ and he said ‘Yeaa that’s what I thought, but my parents are home, my brother and my grandma.’ So I met them that night and later on we decided to go to some friends of him that night where his brother introduced me as ‘the girlfriend’ to everybody. That night he gave me my first kiss.

Fast forward to like 1,5 week later. It was friday the 26th of January. He met my family and when everybody went home and when my mom went to bed, we were kissing on the couch. He then said ‘babe, I need to ask you something’ ‘do you want to be my girlfriend?’ And I said yeeeeesssss!! That night he slept in my bed.

Fast forward to last friday when he picked me up to go to his friends again. He kinda made plans for us in the summer and I heard alot of stories about him. Funny stories. We went back to my house and decided to watch a movie together. We fooled around a little bit and there was defenitely some touching going on lol. He slept at my house that night too.

SO I FINALLY GOT MY FIRST BOYFRIEND. And he’s mine. It’s so weird to me still haha..

But I really really like him and I feel like this relationship is a healthy and steady relationship between two people that care for each other.

I will keep you updated 😇

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lifeisabeautyx · 7 years ago

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Stalker-ish.

I’m back with another story..

It all began a couple months ago. I work at a supermarket and I just started my sunday shift. Then this guy (who’s kinda well known in our town) came to me and started talking to me and asking me dumb questions like “since when is this store open on sundays?” Or “when are you closing?” Constantly trying to small talk. Even though the store opens up on sundays for a couple years.. Then a few weeks later every time he came to the store, he walks past me at least 5 times.

Later on when I just started my saterday afternoon shift, this guy is standing in line and he sees me and keeps looking at me. When I sat down at my register he walked past me again and looks at me from outside through the window and starts smiling at me and giving me a wink.

So when I came home that night I had a friend request from S. on Facebook from that same guy. He had also messaged me saying ;Hi girl from the supermarket was like wtf does this guy want from me and texted back like Uhh hey 😅;

We started texting for just a little little bit and when he was saying stuff like you have pretty pictures and shit I thought to myself you gotta stop now. So since then I have ignored every message he send. Just because I know he’s got a reputation build up in our town, and it'snot a good one..

He is 8 years older then me first of all. I feel like he goes to the gym everyday because he’s that fit. Hangs with the wrong people. He is just in no way possible a match for me.

The next day I saw him riding infront of the windows of the store, looking inside to see if I was there. I was so scared though. I didn’t know what to say to him if he would ask me why I didn’t respond to his messages anymore.

Last week I was in town with some friends and he drove by me again, smiling at me. I was like duuuuude stoooopp!

I kinda feel like he’s lowkey stalking me since he knows where I work. Also.. i still don’t know how he found me on Facebook since at the time I wasn’t wearing a name tag, so he didn’t know my name..

This story is so weird and all over the place, i know. Sorry. Bye.

See ya next time!

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lifeisabeautyx · 8 years ago

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Oh boy.

I got another boy story for ya. So my friend texted me saying a guy she knows wants my number and if I was okay with it. I did some background checks like what’s his name, how old is he, send a picture and where does he live. I was kinda okay with it so later that day I got a text from him. Immediately I kinda knew he was a player by the way he was texting me. For example after almost every sentence there was an x. Like Hey youx, how are youx. That shit, I hate it.. He also wanted me to go to him and watch a movie in his room. Boy I ain’t that type of girl so fuck off. I just told him I was busy with school and stuff and he kinda backed off. We talked for quite a while though. And so this time he texted me this whole paragraph about that he thinks im such a pretty girl and he can’t take his mind off of me and he had a dream about me and then he asked me out on a date. I didn’t know what to say.. He wasn’t really my type cause off the player-ish things he said and i’d rather be just friends with him. So I texted him like ur a really nice guy and all but you’re not really my type. I didn’t want to hurt your feelings so.. and then he had the nerve.. He had the damn nerve to text me and say it was a dare. a fucking dare.. I was so angry and I let him know ahaha. After that I didn’t really talk to him But then when I went to Suriname he began to talk to me again. And since then we started talking again about what happend with my father and about everything kinda. He still hinted that he would really like to meet me and have a drink with me or something and here I was, blowing him off again. And said you’re scared to meet up with me aren’t you.. And me being my sarcastic self said back Yeah man.. im so scared of you. He never replied. He didn’t even reply to my Merry Christmas text. And to top it all off.. he deleted me from snapchat. Like what the fuck is wrong with you boy. But whatever. That was all :)

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lifeisabeautyx · 8 years ago

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Suriname.

Wow.. the last couple of months A LOT of shit happend. This has defenitely not been my year at all. On november 24th I received a text from my sister that our father passed away. My whole world collapsed and I couldn’t stop crying. I went to my moms room and told her and she tried to comfort me. I talked to both my sisters on the Phone and they told me they were coming over. When S was here I hugged her and I cried in her arms for about 5 minutes. She told me she contacted our half brother and he would come to our house also. about 15 minutes later my other sister arrived and she told me to go get a passport as soon as possible. She went with me and we went to a travel agency. We got tickets to go to Suriname. We’d fly the next day so we had to pack quickly. The next day we were at the airport. About to fly to Suriname to go see my father for the last time. Both my sisters and I were so emotional but we felt like we were on this automatic pilot. We could’t progress what was happening. At least I didn’t know what was happening and I couldn’t progress the fact I would be flying in an airplane for the first time and I would be on a 9 hour flight. After going through security and all we finally were on the plane. That’s where it kicked in. I was about to fly in a fucking airplane above the freakin ocean dude! I got scared for a bit but that went away quickly. On the plane I decided to write a letter for my father. I wrote everything I ever wanted to tell him. I was his little girl after all. I put all my feelings and thought in to that letter and I criend on the plane. Everybody was looking at me like wtf is that girl doing over there.. why is she crying.. haha. 9 hours later we had arrived safely in Suriname. We had to wait about 2 hours to get our tourist ticket and then we finally could go meet my family. My half brother who lives in Suriname picked us up with his wife. The whole time we were there we stayed at their hous. In that week I finally got to see what my father always talked about and I saw where he came from. It did me so well to be at his house and sit under my grandma’s tree and to talk to my father. I felt at peace.. Suriname is such a beautiful country. The people out there care so much about each other. And especially family. Family is so so so important. If I could go back there I would be back ASAP. I also got a tattoo when I was in Suriname. I always wanted to get a little heart on the inside of my ankle but I was always too scared. But on the flight there my sister said she wanted to go get a tattoo for my dad and I told her I would get one too. My cousins went with me and since I was so damn scared they were laughing at me so much. Even the tattoo artist was laughing at me haha. So that was kinda my Suriname story. love ya

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