liam-roth

[liam-roth]

To the woman who delivered to me: the most beautiful blessing,… I love you.

My biggest fear is trying my best but looking dumb in front of people

I used to write about love, or lack there of, and imagined it being romantic. The truth is it came from a place of sadness and loneliness, but today marks the first day it comes from loving…you

I ask myself what do I mean when I tell you I love you?

When I first started writing this, I wanted to say something like:

I want to be your ex boyfriend’s stunt man- brave enough to do the things he never had the courage to do….. like..believing in you

Or maybe:

“I’ve heard love is blind so I write every poem in braille..and I never actually finish because true love is endless

So I thought back to our vows …

When I said “I do” I didn’t know what I was getting myself into

When I said, “I do” I didn’t know what the heck kale was but I like with the way you make it

When I said, “I do” I didn’t know it meant lying next to you on the couch while we watch every episode of love Island and I secretly start to love it too.

You can me molly-Mae and I can be Tommy and we could make our own island of love to make the whole world vote for us…I’m trying to have a 1-on-1 with you girl!…. Also we would have good banter.

When I said, “I do” I didn’t know I would start eating rice cakes and how my favorite combination is the chocolate rice cake with a little bit of Nutella first, then a little bit of peanut butter on top of that, then 10 to 13 Mimi dark chocolate chips to top it off- cause..we boujee like that

When I said, “I do” I didn’t know that the best part of me isn’t in a mirror. The best part of me, is being there FOR you

What I’m trying to say is When I said, “I do” I didn’t know that “not knowing” would be where my favorite memories manifest from…

I used to think the perfect pattern made everything-perfect…

1. You find THE woman. That’s a piece

2. You get a dog. That’s a piece

3. You buy the house. That’s a piece

4. You have the baby. That’s a piece

And when you take a step back, all of these pieces make a spectacle of surrealism that would make Picasso retire…- but that’s where I got it wrong!

If I’m only getting a piece of you, the pattern is pointless….. I want to be so close to you that I can’t recognize anything else.

The only pattern I want to recognize is the shape of you that fits perfectly inside of me.

My biggest fear is trying my best but looking dumb in front of people so if showing you that I love you means looking dumb, then I’ll do it everyday

LR

[liam-roth]

How beautiful is a rose if no one is there to see it?

And what good is a book if no one takes the time to read it?

Sometimes the most beautiful things can’t be seen,

But they’re boldly there.

They’re those things that seem to “fit-in-between”,

Discovered by the ones who truly care.

I see you for all your beauty.

You are His magnum opus.

LR

[liam-roth]

I’m sick

I don’t know for how long but my symptoms come and go

It seems once I get better, the sickness creeps back up again

Sometimes I feel like I’ve found the medicine I need and it gives me hope

But that same medicine has a name and she doesn’t want me better

LR

[liam-roth]

You push me away to a point where I feel nothing

Nothing but sadness so I pray that tomorrow will be better

Better than today because it was rough

Rough is where you're supposed to be someone's rock

Rock-solid for their emotional needs

Needs that I also have but can't show

Show me a side is you where I don't have to write my feelings in poetry

Poetry that I only love writing about you

You are the only thing I have going for me

But now you might be gone

LR

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The voice inside me is screaming. I’m yearning to talk to anyone but the words are like shards of glass so they don’t come out. I feel the weight of a grey cloud that follows me constantly. He knows everything I feel and enjoys every minute of it. My closest friend is a person’s enemy.

LR

[liam-roth]

To me you are just like the sunset. You are the most beautiful thing to me but yet you’re so far away. The time we’ve had together is brief but when we are, it’s amazing. I’m chasing something I’m not able to touch. All I want is to be a cloud in your sky

LR

[liam-roth]

Love is sacrifice

So why are your hands full?

LR

[liam-roth]

He said,

She said,

No one said,

Anything ever again.

LR

[liam-roth]

You are there, quietly holding me even I'm filled with pain

You never leave even when I push you far, far away

You show me love that's undeserving when all I want to do is hate

And now You've gotten me through it to see a brighter day

LR

[liam-roth]

That smile...

Can brighten a day and a room...

Can influence wisdom and love...

Can heal sadness and doubt...

So how can it now work?

LR

[liam-roth]

You can't cry when you die.

That's why people commit suicide.

They feel like they’ve failed at everything they’ve tried

And now the pain stays inside

Waiting for a glimpse of happiness that never comes becomes immortalized.

LR

[liam-roth]

I'm missing you like it's the first day of school.

I reach out but my arms aren't long enough to touch you.

Separation gives me time to be the man you deserve...

So for now I reminisce on milkshakes and our first kiss-

Because out of everything, you're my only wish

LR

[liam-roth]

I want to take a shower and wash off the day but you took the water away.

What if I told you that today was the day?

Would you watch as I leave and act like you've paid?

Right now I can't say, but tomorrow is a new day and I'm a fool for change.

LR

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The sound of a second hand echoes in my mind.

What is it that entertains you while I drive myself crazy?

Why do you long for things that make you empty?

The darkness is surprisingly warm and comfortably kind.

LR

[liam-roth]

I am a slave to you and it's pathetic.

Unanswered texts, forget it.

I even flipped the switch so that you can know I read it-because that's what love is.

I want to be shown love, like how my mom gave me every night.

Like how she would still tuck me in when I would try and pick a fight.

The only woman to put down her phone when she would talk to me...

That's love and I know what it is so why do I do things with the mind of a kid?

LR

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This disappointment inside me has scales and breathes fire.

What were open skies set into a muggy cave where I reside.

Meetings in secret ground the strongest wings

And now I don't feel like flying.

LR

[liam-roth]

Tonight I smelled your hair as I laid down but you were nowhere to be found. Why aren’t you here next to me? The question repeat itself over and over in my mind. I fall asleep telling myself tomorrow is another day but in reality it’s another day without you.

LR