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Something To Lose

Rating: PG Genre: Hurt/Comfort, Fluff, Angst, Found Family Characters: Gorrik and the Commander (Guest Appearance from Petey. Taimi, Ankka and Blish are Mentioned) Words: ~ 2,000 Summary: Gorrik calls you in the middle of the night to seek counsel regarding a nightmare. (2nd Person; the Commander’s Race/Class/Gender is not specified) Timeline: Occurs during Janthir Wilds, at some point after the Tyrian Alliance

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Have you ever written the first fic in a fandom tag on Ao3?

Yes

No

Only in my head

Yes, but I didn't post it/someone posted a work before me

Don't write/post to Ao3

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Character Study: The Dragon's Watch Asura on their own future

A while ago I came across a post talking about a PTSD symptom called “foreshortened future” and it was a serious topic so I didn't wanna reblog and clog the tags with fandom (and I don't know if the described symptoms accurately apply here to make a case for this)

BUT I for sure couldn’t stop thinking about the Dragon's Watch Asura in this light because that sense of "I can't see myself in the future" applies to all three of them without exception.

We have…

Blish, who is the catalyst, the one who strove to fight for the time he has and wound up dying twice for it.

Taimi, who despite pushing through with a "rest is for the weak" mentality, knows since day one that she lives on borrowed time, knows that "there is an end" but "won't let that stop her".

And Gorrik, who despite being of health (to our knowledge, he might still be at risk if Blish’s sickness was genetic), has lived through multiple traumatic events - from surviving Thaumanova to the death of a loved one. 

Once Blish is gone, Gorrik throws himself from acute project into acute project because "he just wants to feel useful" and he needs to work in order to cope and keep himself distracted because the SECOND he's forced to sit still and can't apply himself... we get the Prison Journal.

It is truly harrowing. 

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There's... something to say about Anet's decision to pair him up with Taimi.

As far as I'm concerned, this ship did not have to happen. They vibed great enough as colleagues. From how I saw it, Taimi seemed to have a greater interest in Blish, definitely the closer connection for sharing a coleg, while Gorrik was "the weird little brother, being off doing who knows what (working at the Inquest)" while Taimi and Blish rivaled each other in educational notoriety. 

To Gorrik, Taimi was "what's left" after Blish; and to Taimi, initially and objectively, he was the one who'd executed Blish's procedure in the past, and her last remaining lifeline if she wanted to take this into consideration. It is mentioned that before EoD they have been tinkering on not further disclosed "Golem Mods".

After Blish's passing it was only natural Gorrik would focus all of his concerns on Taimi's wellbeing (whether she approves or NOT) now that he could no longer fuss over his brother. Both, because it's in his nature to do so from growing up with Blish, and because no one would want to see a friend suffer that same misery if you KNOW you can help it.

As that, their partnership works as a very organic platonic relationship.

That being said, I can understand though why they would gravitate to one another under the light of shared trauma bonding.

As much as I want to say they deserve to be happy with each other, I can't help but think of all that must be bubbling under the surface considering the circumstances. 

None of them can truly plan further than their current projects, but they make up for that by giving them their all. 

What that means in terms of their relationship is something I have yet to wrap my mind around. 

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On the one side, we have Taimi who seems to have been happy enough with their arrangement. Then along comes Ankka and sparks what Taimi winds up calling "jealousy" but I perceived as Taimi's deep-rooted resentment for the Inquest. 

Throughout the story, Gorrik holds a bigger resentment towards Ankka for her betrayal, than Taimi holds for her as a person. I believe that to her, the larger threat was that she represented and challenged everything that she wished for Gorrik to be "better than".

And that fear IS warranted!

When Gorrik does refer to his days with the Inquest to the Commander (like working with Ankka or living at Thaumanova before it blew) it is exclusively with fondness. And when his hurt for Ankka boils over he goes on a "Forgiveness is for the weak" vengeance crusade that bears no compromise and has both Taimi and Marjory express concern for him. 

On the other side, we have Gorrik - who is followed by Death. From the almost poetic nature of the tiny lifespan of bugs, to the losses he has already faced, and is still bound to face at an uncertain point in an uncertain future.

He's so used to it that upon slaying Ankka - someone who despite everything, he also cared about once upon a time - that he outright claims that he's "tired of feeling like this."

…and if watching Ankka die is having that effect on him, someone who betrayed and hurt him and in his words “had to pay”, then I fear for his reaction the inevitable day he outlives Taimi.

It's like everything he cares about is fleeting and or fragile. And yet, Gorrik truly flourishes in the fields that challenge that. From executing his brother's golem procedure, to repopulating both the Rollerbeetle AND saving the Skyscale from extinction.

And that might just be what Taimi sees in him. 

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~ via mignonettetakespictures ~

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I call upon the fan fic writing gods to bless you with the perseverance to finish one of your unfinished drafts. 

May your fingers dance along the letters upon your device with ease, may the devil of distraction stay far from you, and may your work not need much editing.

I pass this blessing upon every fan fic writer out there.

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I think "discomfort =/= harm" is something everyone needs to internalize. Being uncomfortable because of something does not mean it's harmed you or is inherently bad. Sometimes discomfort is caused by shitty internalized feelings and beliefs that you need to acknowledge and work through. Sometimes you just have to remove yourself from a situation. Sometimes discomfort just a feeling that you need to live with as part of living in a society and a world.

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Cover art for El libro de las Aventuras Gráficas (2020) by Glen Fernández (glenfx) on Twitter

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all debates abt the artistic merits of fanfiction fail to recognize the purpose of fic. you don’t write fic to be published or to learn how to construct a narrative although you can use it to develop style. you write it so that your friends will message you “bestie you’re utterly deranged for this one im eating dirt” 

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i feel like this is important enough to put on here.

if you have any videos on youtube make sure this is unchecked

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In this house we love and respect Petey. Remember to tell your beetle mount you're proud of him today and feed him a snack! :)

Gorrik: "Noooo my specimens! Don't hurt them!"

Gorrik: goes through the trouble to escort his trained bugs out of a burning building

Gorrik: bawls his eyes out at the Inquest "liquidating a few dozen specimens"

Gorrik: breeds beetles in his body and mourns spiders trying to eat the crew

Also Gorrik:

"Oh, you're interested in my thousands of detailed drawings of dead spiders?" :D

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Gorrik: "Noooo my specimens! Don't hurt them!"

Gorrik: goes through the trouble to escort his trained bugs out of a burning building

Gorrik: bawls his eyes out at the Inquest "liquidating a few dozen specimens"

Gorrik: breeds beetles in his body and mourns spiders trying to eat the crew

Also Gorrik:

"Oh, you're interested in my thousands of detailed drawings of dead spiders?" :D

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Oh _lovely_. Everyone go turn this off:

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I didn't know Taimi was answering Phlunt???

Unfortunately, I can't say in what part of the story it's on because it's a long time since I unselected story part and I was maybe doing achi' from "old" story one─

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I think if you put someone from 2005 onto a website from 2025 without the slow creep we've lived through, they'd think they had malware