letmeflow

[letmeflow]

Hey i say. To the girl who came up to me. Is this me i reckon. Do you come here often she says. I wonder what the answer must be. Do i come here often. I do come in my dreams, but not in the real world. But me being here now is that actually real. I say, i do. I love the peace and quiet here, she says. Its dark with just the yellow street lamp falling over us and making us seem more beautiful than we really are. Thats just how nostalgia works too. I know you, i say. She turns to me perplexed, from where, she says. From my consciousness, i say. She is intrigued i can tell. Well i have never seen you before yet you feel familiar, she says. I tell her she is right. I tell her she knows me, may be not the whole of me but a part of me. And how do you know me, she says. I have been you, i reply. She smiles, to my surprise. She seems way more philosophical than i remember her to be. Did you come here then, she asks. I smile and say, i used to a lot. Alone and with people, i continue reading her next question. She smiles wider, i dont know if i can trust you... No no... I know i can trust you, but dont know why i can. You should always trust yourself i say. She seems relaxed. We watch the dark river that wasn't visible but we knew was ever present. What did you study when you were a student here, like me she asks. I did my mbbs and md. Then you actually have been me she says. Thats what i said, i say. Do you have a lesson for me she asks. Trust yourself and believe in yourself, life is going to bring a lot to you hold on to them and believe in them i say. There are things i dont know about like where i am going and what i should be doing she say. Go with your gut she tells you everything thats right i say. How do i know what's right she say. Whatever happens is what is the best that could happen, there is no right and wrong, i Say. She looked at me astonished, shocked for the first time after we met. I smiled and she looked closer. Everything is going to be alright i said. Tears were rolling out of her eyes and i was proud of her or myself for that smartness. Enjoy the life you get because it has been a gift i say. She suddenly had a lot of questions in her mind, but wasnt asking afraid of what i may say. I assured her she was doing good held her hand and squeezed. Lets meet when its time i say and get up. She was still staring at me disbelieving and wanted to stop me but didnt dare. I turn her way before walking away and say, last night was not the last time you say that about right and wrong. You are going to say that a lot to others and to yourself. You may learn new things to say but that is going to be something you ll always be proud of, and not just because of today.

[letmeflow]

soulmates

I know you like i have known you

This isnt the first time i have seen you

You were with me before, even before this time

I can sense that love coming from far behind

From a life i have lived long back

I know i have loved you longer than that

You are the puzzle piece that completes 

You set the soul on fire

You reset me format me erase me and renew me

You are the mother board to all my desires

I know you like i have known you

We have met before kissed before loved before

Before this life before this time

There was longing in me till i met you

You are the wave to my sea

The flow to my river

Beauty to my nature

You colored my life

And made me a kite

I fly like a bird in the wind of your love

I own the world with you by my side

I do doubt sometimes if you feel the same

But there was no one else who loved my insane

You make me feel safe, i wish i do too

I know you like i have known you 

you know me like you have known me

[letmeflow]

Birthday

What is there to celebrate 

This was the day i was born with not much of my effort

I was pushed into this space from a void with no parachute on the aircraft

There was a leash at my centre to be cut away when i was out

And the cry for help started even before i was totally out

There was slime all over me

Cleaned and vaccinated in another room

I could not see clearly the void i came out through

I longed for something i didnt know 

i had no sense of knowing the unknown

Yet when they brought me to her

It was like my tether was pulled back to where it was

I locked my sight to the thing i saw in front

I held her eyes for long and steady

to give me answers i knew not the questions for

I didn't get them i was confused 

I cried and cried not knowing what for

But when i looked up she was their always and whenever 

I started to let her in, made her part of my world 

She fed me and gave me warmth so i started trusting her

Slowly my vision unblurred and my world got bigger

But there she was holding onto me like i was her dear

She kept me safe and loved me like i didn't know i needed

Spoiling me with the love i wouldn't get anywhere ever

The eyes grew in number 

As my head became bigger

There were many who came and went

But she was always near

She held onto me even when i was big ugly unlovable

Like i was the same slimy baby out of her the day i came into this world

This day needs to be celebrated not for the birth of myself 

For It is the day i met her who loved me beyond world.