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Every once in a while, i think about you. Then i cry because i still don't know what the fuck happened at the end. Yes it will always bother me until my last breath. And to think, had you at least been honest, i might still hate you, but i wouldn't wish you harm everytime i think of you. I knew it wasn't going to be forever, all i asked was to talk to me and let me know what's up. You ghosted. Well worse than ghosted, half hints at answers that you never intended to fill out. anything that comes after, that's why. You nuked that bridge. I'd have walked away happy had you been a man about it. But guess that's my own dumb fault for fucking a cheater.

I hope it was your wife or kid who found the painting i mailed to you.

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This is my best friend. At the moment she’s being kept alive by tubes and needles because her eating disorder is currently stronger than she is.

Does she weigh 90lbs? No, she doesn’t. Does it look like her eating disorder is “less severe” because she’s not “that thin”? Do you think her situation sounds “less severe” because she’s not “that thin”?

Tubes and needles. Constant supervision. Pain, anger, agony. Hunger, thirst, suffering. Dizziness, constipation, freezing cold. Passing out in front of other patients and staff. Painful injections of vitamins and whatnot. Nurses who’re force feeding her, who’re forcing fluids into her body because her eating disorder is currently stronger than she is.

90lbs or not, without treatment - my best friend will die.

Would you have walked past her on the street and thought she even had an eating disorder at all? Probably not, because people keep believing you can measure or estimate a persons physical and mental health state based on the silhouette of someone’s body.

You can’t.

Never underestimate someone’s eating disorder just because they don’t look “that thin” to you. Being “thin” is just one of MANY symptoms of an eating disorder and it’s far, far from the most important one. Anyone can struggle and if someone you know struggles: don’t assume they’re alright just because they don’t look “that thin”.

Eating disorders come in one size; MISERABLE.

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Keyboard, mouse, monster, green tea, switch controller, tv remote, headset. (Its technically an adjustable tv tray/table, but its the place i do my work from as well)

i think what’s on a person’s nightstand is very telling so reblog this and put in the tags the things you have on your nightstand

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Today is the 14th of the month and you are all cordially invited by the fantastic @texasred43 and I to, @instructor144 's....

Free For All Glitter Day!

Have at it everyone! 😁

@auroradragon1 @naughtycurious1977 @babygirl-1972 @dinodaddy @i-am-dubs @daddyandhislittleprincess11102 @theshootingcyclist @sparkplug65 @EVERYONE!

14th April 2020

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Dear love

I want to be the skinniest angel you ever saw

                                                                          -me

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Be warned, my brand of chaos gets addictive way too easily. But come play anyway...you know you want to know what it feels like, tease your senses until all you know is want and lust. Come play with me...

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“It was the kind of library he had only read about in books.“ 

Alan Bennett

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