leoyasss

[leoyasss]

i like so much to spend my time like this, with you… a partner which company makes me feel so good… a love like ive never experienced.

i love you

[leoyasss]

idk actually

hey, how are things going? it’s been a while i know

i thought about writing for you but i didnt know what to say... guess im still not sure.

well, its 2022. soon you will be 23 and i dont have to explain how u feel when your birthday is comming 

you’ve been reflecting a lot about all your life again and i think its just nice to put it out here. maybe itll help clean the mess.

so lets see

now you live alone, next door to your mom, but still alone. and it has been pretty intense lately.

dont get me wrong, you are loving the experience. u finally got something you wish so bad and things are pretty easier but it is still intense. not in a bad way u know? its just so different that it kinda messes u up

you are not working w fashion at the moment. you quit the store (which was kinda of the best decision you made last year) and you are SO much more relaxed and balanced bc of it. you are studying something new which seems interisting and youre having a whole new professional experience.

its so new it actually hurts a bit, youre stiil adpating because its a fucking new world and youre figuring out how to handle and how to manage it

I know youre doing your best to grow and learn with it, repecting your own feelings and energy and being carefull to not get explored again. youre doing what you think its the best for you and your health and i feel happy for it.

Even though u r not sure about the future like youve been before youre living and finding it out and i guees thats perfectly fine right?

not sure if fashion is in the past, is still something that makes u emotional but i think only the future can tell how it turned up.

you are also in a new relationship. growing and learning and finding out how to experience something like this being an adult and conscious about all the little things it involves.

He is very calm and very peaceful and you apreciate it so much. its a new version of love and dare i say tht you are satisfied like youve never been before.

i guess its pretty it. all the main news about us. not sure why i wrote it

[leoyasss]

hey, how are things going?

so, it’s 2021, and actually for the first time i am writing here without a huge change in our lives to talk about.

we’re STILL in the middle of the pandemic, and it is definitely a frightening and really sad time...

thank god, everyone around us is okay and safe, and im believing it will stay like this.

It’s April 1st, and we are in lockdown again, just like last year.

But i must tell you the good things too.

We are back in Eskala as VM���s, and it feels great like we knew it would.

Your self acknowledgement is bigger than ever, and im so proud of us, you are really fine inside and out, and that’s because of the spirituality we finally found.

You just started developing in Umbanda, and your contact with religion and spirituality made a huge difference, and i know you didn’t forget about that.

So even the times are dark, we’re making our best to stay happy...

I’ll be back as soon as something changes.

[leoyasss]

hi! its february fifth, your birthday!

it just amazes me how you keep being yourself, it doesn’t matter where you go, and how you stick to your thoughts and feelings and is always honest about them.

your calm, your patience and your will to be the most helpful friend everyone could need.

i am so greatfull for meeting you

so lovely, soooooooo funny

a beautiful, beautiful, beautiful girl that amazes me with all of her gifts

amazing at doing makeup, at cooking, at taking good care of everyone’s health and knowing the most random shit you could imagine and helping you with it

thats just a little bit of the amazingness i see in you, but i KNOW there’s so much more and i hope you do too

i love all of our memories. our cfc classes, our visitis to terreiro, everytime i saw you in sp, everytime we met just to have a good time, that one time i went to your house cause i was feeling so sad and you made me so happy afterwards.

i just want to thank you for all of that, and hope that i am such a good thing in your life as you are in mine.

just love you and want to keep you always around.

miss seeing you more.

[leoyasss]

and soooooooo many selfies

[leoyasss]

2020 was definitely about self acknowledgement and friends.

[leoyasss]

hey! so, i decided to write here again and tell you where your life is at the moment

we are in the middle of the covid19 pandemic, and i am sure you won’t forget about that in the years that will come.

You are single, the lovely relationship you had with bruno ended.

There is not much sure about what happened, if he cheated on us or whatever. just like the whole relationship there is SO much miscommunication, but it doesn’t matter in the end. it is in the past.

i know you’re still happy for the before. We were happy with him, and we only wish him happiness and love. People make mistakes and that’s just life.

At least now you know to NEVER trust boys again, but i know we will again some day...

You lost your job at eskala bc of the pandemic, and it is the worst thing in this year so far. Honestly i am not over that yet and i hope hope hope i go work there again soon. or somewhere better.

We are doing some freelance and at the same time i am happy that it is with vm and happy with the money, im still kinda of miserable. I hope i changes soon...

We finally finished everything about college and now i am just stressing about the graduation. But i am sure i won’t take long and soon it all will be over.

Raissa left bbbllg, and its a bittersweet feeling. I really feel like she wasnt happy with us and that we weren’t happy with her too. She did so much shit for us all and was so selfish that i think it’s for the best like this. But we never know the future.

So now, we call ourselves caguililovers (which is a mix of all of our lastnames) and it’s me, renan, duda, dmitria and larissa. and my feelings for them hasn’t changed, i love them SO much and they are my chosen family. and my biggest happiness is that we are still together.

Everything else is fine. Our family is happy, Julia is getting better every day and i feel everything is only going to get better from now. I really hope so.

This quarantine time made us reflect so much about everything and our life and we understand our soul and our feelings like never before, i know myself more than ever before and i enjoy my solitude like once i did. even tho i get sad sometimes i know it’s temporary. I am happy indeed and whenever i feel like not, i know its just a thing i have to get over.

God have blessed us and i hope you didn’t forget about that. God will never leave us alone. So even if you want to, you will never be by yourself.

[leoyasss]

one of the best things about being alive

[leoyasss]

so, its been a while since i wrote here... actually a whole year and a few months,a LOT changed in our life and everything is kinda of different now, but everything’s alright i guess

some left, but the ones that we most care stayed and thats amazing, also w some new ones...

i could write here what happened in 2019 but i dont feel like right now, maybe someday

[leoyasss]

leaving 2018 in the best way i could. satisfied, healed and happy.

[leoyasss]

it feels crazy that this happened. everything i ever wanted was to belong, to be included in something, to be part of something special. and after looking for that for many years and being hurt for so many people i gave up. i was sure that this would never happen and that i would walk alone forever. that's what people always told me.

but i am so grateful to know that i was wrong, and so grateful that these guys have found me. they are the best, and i couldn't see myself hanging with anyone else. we are the same even being so different. and i am happy to say that we are a family and this is just the beginning of us.

bbblg is the revolution.

[leoyasss]

at azealia banks concert w this crazy bitch! i am so grateful to her for taking us there, and making one of my dreams come true. one of my favorite moments from this year. raissa ily!

16/11/2018

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my first kpop event, it was really fun like it always is.

06/10/2018

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the day i learned about boombayah, iconic

07/2018

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another beginning of something amazing

05/2018

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09/2018

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dmitria came, and our group is finally complete! No MoRe AdDiCtIoNs

09/2018