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I got my heart broken and I survived, I failed 3 courses in university and graduated, I got rejected in the very first job I applied for and got promoted yesterday, I went through hard times with my family but then two years later, we laughed our hearts out over lunch, The closest friends disappointed me several times but I made new friends and loved them with all my heart. I did it once, I can do it again.

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I just want for one person, just one, to really understand. To call for me late at night, only me, especially me. I want to be the first person they think to call. I want for just one person to truly understand me, understand where I have come from and where I am now and where I plan to go. And I them. For one person to listen, to really listen; to want to listen. Not to listen just for the sake of listening. To listen because they care. And lastly, for them to stay. If not forever, for a long time. I’m not even asking for forever. Not anymore. I know now forever is too much to ask for. Forever is a beautiful concept but I know better than to ask for something that is simply not possible. Forever is not real.

M.O.W (via imwritingpoems)

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But you see, you can’t move on from someone when you still look for a piece of them in every person you meet.

so why do I still look for you? | a.m (via nolimitwords)

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How do you do it? Being okay without me in your day?

Late night thoughts #29 // it’s been 2 years and I still can’t get over you (via hereliesmybrokenheart)

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It often ends like this: He leaves, and you feel like he takes a piece of you along with him. But you can choose to either fill the empty space he once occupied with someone else, or use it as room for yourself to grow into something more.

A Story A Day #97 (k.m.)

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I know you are with her and please understand that I am not asking you to choose between me and her because I know you will always choose her. It’s just that from this moment, I am choosing myself and because of that I have to stop being your friend. I just can’t be your friends right now. It hurts too much to be around you. Goodbye.

Excerpt from the book I’ll never write #22 // i choose myself (via hereliesmybrokenheart)

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Titik ini, titik dimana saya merasa sangat membutuhkan orang lain namun juga menyadari bahwa saya harus bisa menghadapinya sendiri.

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My Mom's Story

Me : mom, do you feel sad? Mom : no, why would I? Me : do you still have any optimism at me? Mom : Of course. If ikhtiar and pray has been done, we should just rely on Allah's decision. We are wrong if we just stop moving. But if we keep trying, Allah will give us His best decision.

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Siang tadi, aku terpejam tapi tidak tertidur. Merasa tapi tidak mengucap.

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I did love you. I loved you so much I couldn’t breathe. You consumed my entire being, and thats why I let you treat me the way you did. I don’t know what you got out of destroying me time after time, but I hope you don’t put anyone else through that. I waited for you. I gave you chance after chance and I left you with every last goddamn thing I had. And you took it all without a care in the world. I tried to hang on, because I thought you were worth it. But one day I just stopped waiting. I didn’t want to hear “I miss you” anymore. Although I hope you fucking miss me. Once I would have given my last breath for you to say that. I hope you see me so fucking happy that I look like I’m about to explode, and I hope it kills you. I hope you drop to the floor and feel like the breath is being sucked out of you and you realise what you gave up. Because I gave you the world and I kept fighting long after I should have stopped. You don’t deserve that. Fuck you.

curiovsly // (via lucidtrips)

Seriously fuck you.

(via wildest-dreamer)

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What past is past

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Berhenti untuk menceritakan suatu hal tentang seseorang yang diam-diam kamu taruh harap padanya. Jadikanlah bagian cerita itu menjadi doa yang paling sederhana dan yang paling lirih kau pinta. Jika kamu masih mempercayakan do'a sebagai kekuatan yang paling utama, maka bijaksanalah kamu sebagai sebaik-baik manusia yang masih terus yakin akan kuasaNya.

tulislah ia dihatimu sebagai pacuan untuk memperbaiki diri dan membenahi hati. Apa yang salah, lekaslah kamu perbaiki. Apa yang kurang, lekaslah sisanya kamu lengkapi. Penantian itu berharga, dan pasrah itulah caranya. Waktu akan memberikan jawaban tepat pada waktunya.

Kepada : diri sendiri yang kerap lupa pada apa yang dinamakan MENJAGA.

(via sitimasruroh)

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Kurasa, aku tak masalah menunggu sedikit lebih lama jika pada akhirnya yang terbaik memang hadir terakhir. Dan jika aku boleh meminta, rasanya akan terasa jauh lebih baik jika kau yang datang di akhir ceritaku nanti.

(via mbeeer)

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Tidak ada orang yang benar-benar siap dengan perpisahan.

Apalagi jika kamu yang ditinggalkan. (via surat-pendek)

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Education, work and social activity for a person like me is not for money. It's about self actualisation and contribution.

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Sabar duhai hati, sebentar lagi

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Kita hanya kalah oleh kekhawatiran dan ketakutan kita sendiri, sesuatu yang membatasi antara diri kita dan impian yang sering kita teriakan.

KG (via kurniawangunadi)