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To add on, he had 'attempt' to drop from the competition too many times : styling his hair like he just finished showering, trying to sneak away with the leaving contestants, not bother to be the centre person, not wanting to dance to their title song etc. The only time he properly dance (considered) was during the finals when he know he could finally leave.

And he did all of this just because he wanted to use his phone (following an interview)

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So today, my mom talked about how anti social I am. Like I've gone through 18 years in life and I still only talk to one friend.

Mom: You know, if you joke more often and be more open minded, your circle of friends will increase.

Me: Well, even if I am open minded and joke more often, none will take it for granted.

Mom: See, this is the problem you have. Your mindset.

Me: After what happen in highschool, I rather have a small and barely there circle.

Mom: That was once. You met the wrong people. Look at me, I have so many good friends.

Me: Well, probably because you are from a village and they have a more purer mindset then city people.

So basically for a better and wider understanding, I did have friends. A class of them in highschool. Call me dumb. I treated them whole heartedly. They need help I would always help as much as possible. Forget a printout, I brought extras and they would thank me. Was it real? Unfortunately no. It was pure business. Pure benefit and not friendship.

I was in math class, lying on the teachers desk at the front (lights off, totally silent) my classmates (few girls) walked in saw my bag and started speaking loudly.

Classmate A: Let's put (friends girl) bag next to ( l= me) since she hates her.

Classmate B: Yeah, let's do it. None of us like her so let's place (friends girl) there, since she hate her the most.

Let me tell you, this was the first time I had my view of my class mates changed.

Then the next time, we head to Vietnam for a class work. I was chosen. So I shared a room with that friend B. During the trip, she snatch my money saying she didn't bring (she brought more than me in fact.) Then don't know what she spread to her friend (one of them is from Dubai) and another (chinese), they gave me a mocking gaze and then shared it with the rest of the class mates.

What did it result? Them looking at me with a strange, pitiful gaze. Later on when we took our plane tickets to depart. One of the B' friend, the Chinese shouted.

Chinese: I'm sitting at 13D

Me: *Took my ticket and smile at her* Looks like were neighbors

Chinese: *Mocking smile and glance* Who even wants to be neighbors with you!?

That was truly when I actually felt that none of them are real.

I honestly don't know maybe its my luck or what. First year in highschool, barely even pass the first day I already receive disdainful looks from the class.

Three months pass the first day, I was backstab by friends who decided to join another few boys in a project and only plan to inform me after they submit

Another few months later, they framed me from lying to them. Saying that they had called me but they did not calling me a liar.

Last year before graduation, sports carnival. They frame me for being a ruthless senior when they were the ones who force me to speak up. They call me a monster, devil for making the marching team of 50 to only appear with 12. They called me a benefit eater, not paying the marching fee and skipping practice.

Then college. I've been betrayed twice In two years.

Forget race discrimination.

If you are friends with different race where they do not understand your mother tongue, shouldn't you speak in a language where you all understand?

I'm Chinese, other than speaking with someone privately I speak English with others regardless you're Indian, Malay, Japanese, Korean and even Chinese. Cause to me that's basic respect.

So how do you feel if I speak loudly, laughing loudly in your own mother tongue when you invite me for lunch?

Horrible.

Moving to teachers day. Two faced bitch.

Personally disregard your own teacher, saying there's no need to pay respect cause he didn't teach you anything but later? You told me to leave first saying you need to get something. So what did you get? A fucking teacher's day card and gave it in front of me while giving me a sly smug glance.

Then later, I thought you were different. But in fact, you are the same like all the others. Lied to me, encourage me to skip classes, encoyrage me to tick your attendance because you need to date. And then in the end? Backstab me. Saying it was me who abandoned you.

Honestly, with all these shit do I still need a bigger circle of friends? Probably I do. But can I? Impossible. It's like that song - last Christmas I gave you my heart but the very next day you gave it away.

Indeed, you can say its for my own good to have a wider friendship. But history may repeat Itself, just different people playing the same role. You said that people change. They do, for the better. You call everyone, friend. But how many treat you equally or better? How many of them appear when you are in your lowest moments, how many look at you with a loyal, friendship gaze that is not in reality pure benefits?

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Jane Austen’s “Emma” Meta-analysis

The first time I read “Emma,” I had only one critique. I sincerely hoped that, by the end of the novel, Mr. Woodhouse would grow from a caricature to a character. And I thought Austen had the perfect opportunity- Emma’s fear to leave her invalid father for her new husband- and then ignored it. 

I was wrong. Mr. Woodhouse’s eccentricity allows Jane Austen to slip in a sucker punch against the patriarchy. At this point, it’s either rant to Tumblr or bother my hot Brit Lit professor.

Let’s recap slightly. Emma and Knightley acknowledge their love for each other, but Emma can’t bear to leave her father. To make their marriage possible, Knightley agrees to move to Hartfield for the foreseeable future.

Does anyone notice how radical that is? 

Under typical norms, Emma gives up her name, home, and identity. Moving into her husband’s house is just one facet of becoming legally and emotionally subservient.  But Mr. Knightley moves in with them. He takes on the feminine gender role. Knightley leaves his home for his wife’s domain.

This isn’t just a single subversive act, it’s a way for Austin to demonstrate a critique of marriage at large. For the rest of the novel, the side characters tut about poor Knightley, losing his own personal space, facing horrid in-laws. The problems of marriage are considered inconsequential when faced by powerless young women. However, by subjecting an independent older bachelor to them, Austen shows the flaws in the marital contract. 

- Wait, but isn’t the marriage plot the entire point of Jane Austen?-

This is where things get cool.

Austen gets away with it because she puts the impetus back on Mr. Woodhouse. Emma isn’t being subversive or feminist, she’s just a devoted daughter. For a conservative readership, this just plays into a different set of gender norms. The attack on marriage is veiled under a defense of paternal piety. Austen challenges the patriarchy…. under the cover of patriarchy!!!!

You knew she was a badass.

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the phrase “curiosity killed the cat” is actually not the full phrase it actually is “curiosity killed the cat but satisfaction brought it back” so don’t let anyone tell you not to be a curious little baby okay go and be interested in the world uwu

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Snow Leopards Love Nomming On Their Fluffy Tails.

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hc: eisuke’s favorite sound in the world is mc calling him by his name

i could just be overthinking, but he really does like it when mc refers to him by his first name :’)

this is such a small detail, but i love it nonetheless

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Incredibles/Incredibles 2

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this is the money dog, repost in the next 24 hours and money will come your way!!

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Cats with expressive little faces… reblog if you agree….

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Is there like any specific ones for just depression or anxiety? I feel like I scored all without knowing.

As someone who has suffered with depression and anxiety for as long as I remember I noticed this particular traits in me:

•Obsessing over something or someone in particular

•Overanalyzed and overthinking everything people say or do

•Luck of trust

•Wanting something or someone so badly but not taking any action

•Fear of rejection, but over multiplied

•Being very careful with my words choice when asking for something or when I am asked something (especially if the person needs advice)

•Lack of confidence

•Envy (Why people are happy and I’m not?)

•Feeling guilt for saying “no” to something or someone

•Being creeped out if people just met want to pay lunch or dinner for me when out on a date (like, is there any ulterior motive?)

•Absolute refusal of any kind of help (I can do everything alone attitude)

•Feeling impatient when asked to repeat something more than twice

•Caring too much about friends but then wonder if they actually feel the same way

•Trying to do everything all at once

•Start crying and breaking down out of nowhere

•Low self esteem (Thinking others are better than me (socially, morally or whatever)

•Thinking I’m a loser in general

•Overeating

•Fantasizing about what it could be if I had done this and that

•Thinking I’ll never be happy

•Caring too much about anything

•Thinking I’m ok but having this feeling of constriction and emptiness like everything is gonna burst in an istant

•Thinking only bad things can happen to me and being utterly surprised when something good happens to me bc hey, that ain’t normal

•Thinking there’s something wrong with me if someone has been staring at me

•Thinking that maybe I’m a bad person and deserve everything bad that happens to me

There’s more but that’s much about it, I don’t know if that’s just me. Today I just felt to write this down and share it. In a way, it feels nice freeing your mind even thou this took all of my courage, so please don’t judge me. Share your opinions instead! If you suffer from this ugly beast called depression let’s share how we feel. I don’t know, I guess I feel a tiny little better now.

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Voltage…can we keep this up please? The MC is extremely cute with eyes! 

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you ever see girls that are so pretty that you don’t know what to do with yourself