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“FRIENDZONED”

synopsis: falling for your best friend, one of the most cliche things to do. good thing you fell for his roommate instead, but the boy was just as dense as you were. Jake was head over heals, watching as you make your aim for Heeseung. In the end, being friendzoned was a lot harder than straight up rejection, right?

pairing: heeseung x reader, Jake x reader w/ mentions of aespa members, enhypen members and itzy members

genre: fluff, slight angst, best friends to lovers

warnings: swearing, mentions of drinking

6.4k wc

It was obvious that you were head over heels for Lee Heeseung. Who wasn’t honestly? He was the ace of the campus, the pretty boy of the school. He looked like an angel sent from the sky above and he blessed you with his pretty smile every time you went to his apartment, but he didn’t live alone, oh no no. He shared his apartment with 3 other boys. They each all had polar opposite personalities and yet they all seemed to blend well together. Heeseung was the oldest, he stayed to himself most of the time and he always had headphones in. Jay was second in age, he cooked for you each time you came over.

The fashion major in him would always critique your outfit for the ‘dates’ you’d go on. Sunghoon was the youngest, the prince of the apartment. He was very loud for someone who was always quiet, but that was his elegance. Then we have Jake, he was the third in age and he was your best friend. The puppy-eyed boy was always by your side. He had some weird 6th sense when it came to you, he always knew what you wanted before you knew yourself. What you wanted to eat, where you wanted to go, he could read you like the books on his shelf.

He was your stability, your safety blanket, your everything. His biggest mistake, according to him, was introducing you to his friends. Even though he always knew what you had a taste for, he didn’t think Heeseung would be on that list. Your crush on the senior was like a snowfall, it started out soft and pretty and gradually grew over time. Jake convinced himself you’d grow out of it like you did with your other crushes. You’d fall for someone, go on a date and come back to their apartment upset because they weren’t what you expected.

Sounds shallow, but you weren’t going to waste your time if the first impression was not impressive. He was used to this, he liked being the only guy in your life. It’s selfish, but he had to be when it came to you.

So when the news broke that you liked Heeseung, immediately Jake turned to his other roommates seeking comfort in the storm that was brewing. “Dude, it’s probably just a small crush.” Jay said, reassuring his panicked friend. Jay and Sunghoon both knew Jake's worry behind your sudden attention for Heeseung, but they didn’t have the heart to tell him before he found out himself. “I agree, she’ll be over him in a week, maybe two at most.” Sunghoon replied, watching Jake attempt to ease his nerves. He wanted his friends to be right, he hoped they’d be right, but they were wrong. 4 months later, you’re sitting on Jake’s bed with his favorite book in your hands.

A small habit he has was marking his favorite part of the book he’s reading, sparking your curiosity with each word on the page. He doesn’t ever say why it’s his favorite, so you don’t ask. Instead, you read it yourself and find yourself picking apart the text in hopes to see what he sees. You’ll never see what he sees, he’s told you that before. A perfect example is just now, he walks into his room and finds you laid out on his bed with the literature raking your attention.

He stands there, smiling at you ever so fondly. There’s something so simple yet so beautiful to him when he finds you waiting for him. His heart races, beating against his ribs in a rhythm to your name. When you feel his presence, you shoot up and set his book aside. “JAKEE!“ you scream, scurrying off his bed and springing across his room. He smiles at you, like a kid in a candy store and engulfs you into his arms. Your bodies mold together like two pieces of the same puzzle. “Miss me?” He asked in a teasing tone. You mentally rolled your eyes as you took a step back from his hug.

“Don’t be so cocky, I could’ve scared you if I wanted to.” “Yea yea, whatever you say.” He says, smoothing the back of your hair with his palm. Silence falls between you two, something that’s become a comforting thing. You decide to break it this time when you heard a particular boy leave his room. Headphones in each ear, he blasts his favorite songs to drown out the rest of the world. You slipped out of Jake’s embrace, moving around him and peeking your head out the hallway.

Heeseung looks up from his phone, smiling at your beaming expression. “Oh hey y/n, when did you get here?” He asked, turning down the volume on his phone so he can hear you properly while pulling a headphone out. You were practically drooling by him just standing there, but to avoid being awkward, you stammer out of Jake’s room. “I was here earlier, but I was waiting for Jake.” Jake doesn’t know whether to be happy you were waiting for him or upset you ditched him for a few minutes of acknowledgement from his roommate.

“Oh cool, wanna join me for a bowl of noodles?” You practically tripped as you tried to rush out of Jake’s room. Embarrassed, you’re covering your face as Heeseung laughs behind you. Jealousy settles over Jake as he watches the two of you walk to the kitchen. He wants to be the one who makes you blush, no other guy, but him. He’ll never admit it, but he hates the way your crush on Heeseung stuck around longer than expected.

After you and Heeseung shared a cup of noodles, he cleaned the kitchen while you went searching for Jake. He wasn’t in his room, maybe he was doing laundry? You couldn’t hear the washer spinning, maybe it already stopped. You made the rash decision to go check the bathroom, a mistake you’d later feel the consequences of. Just as you’re about to reach for the knob, Jake steps out the bathroom in all glory. He had loose sweatpants on, his shirt hanging over his arm and a towel around his neck while he used one hand to dry his hair.

You ran straight into his slightly wet chest, not only did it hurt a little to run into a solid man, but you were a blushing mess when you took in the situation. You didn’t look up, already knowing it was Jake by the way he smelt of fresh pine and mint. Jake was confused on why you stood there, frozen in your spot till it dawned on him he was half naked. “I’m so sorry y/n, I didn’t see you coming.” He said in a rushed sentence before running past you and into the safety of his room.

Sunghoon and Jay came home just in time, walking through the front door with a few bags of groceries. They were carrying on with their conversation till they spotted you standing in the middle of the hallway. “Y/n, are you okay?” Jay asked, setting a bag down by the door. Sunghoon walked toward the kitchen where Heeseung was drying dishes.

“Hey if you see Jake, tell him we bought snacks.” Sunghoon called out, grabbing your attention. You rushed down the hallway, making a b-line for the door. “Jake? See Jake? Why would I see Jake? It’s not like I just saw him, what? No I didn’t see Jake shirtless, oh I have to go bye!” You said, slipping your shoes on and rushing out the door. Your sudden outburst left the three boys dazed and confused as the began packing groceries away.

You couldn’t look at him the same, even when you would go over to the apartment to watch movies or play games with Heeseung, every time your eyes found Jake, you immediately looked away in embarrassment. Jake was also feeling the heat of the situation, unable to explain to Sunghoon and Jay why you were acting so weird. He was too embarrassed to admit it, his thoughts convincing himself that you’re repelled by the moment and avoiding him was your way of telling him to fuck off.

It was the complete opposite if you were honest. Seeing Jake in the way you’ve never seen him before has been imprinted into your mind. You’d be lying if you didn’t think he was insanely attractive, but this was the cherry on top. “Omg I can’t believe I’m acting like this!” You cried out to your friend, Winter. She was soothing your hair as you laid in her lap. The two of you were roommates, but more times than not, you’d end up in each other’s room until you fell asleep.

“Think of it this way, maybe Jake is more your type than you think.” You shot her a glance, scoffing while you covered your face. “Be serious please, I can’t even be in the same room with him alone anymore.” Winter giggled at your confession, “Y/n, he’s your best friend, I’m sure he misses you.” As stupid as it sounded to you, she was right.

He did miss you like crazy and neither one of you was willing to be the first to speak. “C’mon, just talk to him. What’s the worst that could happen?” What’s the worst that could happen? Seize the moment. Carpe diem. Just do it y/n, suck it up! You sat up, scooting to the edge of her bed. Winter followed you, leaving her room and entering yours. “What are you doing?” She asked, finding a seat in the beanbag you had near your desk.

You shhed her as you reached for your phone off your bed. Winter sat, watching you unlock your phone and dial Jake’s number. As the ringing began, the regret started to sink in. You were too nervous to FaceTime him, so you tried to hang up, but he answered before you could. “Y/n?” He said, staring at you through the phone. Oh god, there he is. You missed his chocolate eyes, the softness in his voice when he said your name. You missed him so much and seeing him through a screen was setting that into reality. “Hi Jake.” You said, smiling softly. Jake laughed a little, admiring you. He was down, down bad. “What are you doing?” He asked, shuffling in whatever he was doing.

“Oh I’m just-“ you stopped mid answer, turning to Winter in a panic. She shook her hands vigorously, trying to mimic a tv with her hands. “Uhh I’m just- watching tv?” You said, hoping he’d buy your badly put together lie. Jake shot you a weird glance before going back to what he was doing. “Anything good without me?” He asked, teasing you. You gasped dramatically, putting one hand over your chest and clutched your shirt. “How dare you! As if I’d watch our shows without you, shame on you mister.” You said as you relaxed on your bed.

You and Jake had got so caught up in conversation that you forgot Winter was sitting across from you. She was connecting the dots, when it suddenly hit her. She gasped loudly, covering her mouth almost immediately when she received a very angered look from you. “Is that Winter?” Jake asked. “Oh yea, she just got home and I think she forgot something.” You said, winking at her. She got your message, getting up as quietly as she could to exit your room. Jake was about to speak up, but a certain roommate beat him to it.

“Is that y/n?” Your heart did a somersault in your chest when Heeseung said your name. Jake hid his disappointment, turning his phone for the elder to see you through the screen. “Hey y/n! Where have you been?” He asked, showing off his pearly whites to the camera. “Hi sseungie, just spending more time with Win since she was lonely.” You said, lying through your teeth. Winter stood in your doorway, rolling her eyes. “Hey, why don’t you guys come over? We can have a few drinks and play some games!” Winter said, loud enough for the boys on the other end to hear. You shot her a worried look as she smirked evilly at you.

“Yea, sounds good. We’ll see you in a few hours.” Heeseung said as he left the room and went on to do what he needed. “I’m gonna go invite some friends.” Winter said, winking as she skipped down the hallway to her room. You didn’t notice it, but Jake was staring at you as you stared off at the doorway. “So I’ll see you soon?” He said, grabbing your attention. You nodded, waving goodbye before the two of you hung up.

After an hour and a half of not knowing what to wear, you, with the help of Yeji and Giselle, decided on something that would catch Heeseung’s attention, but not show off too much. The girls were snickering over whispers of Jake’s name when their car pulled up. You rolled your eyes at them as you heard the knock on the door. “He’s here, I wonder if he’ll drool.” Giselle said, teasing you till the very end. You blushed at the image of Heeseung in your head, but the girls were referring to a different roommate.

Each boy stepped in and showed off how good they looked. Sunghoon carried the drinks to the kitchen, followed by Heeseung. Jay walked over to greet your roommate while Jake was the last to come through the door. Your heart and mind were at war, one telling you to go and earn his attention while the other said to go do what you’ve been waiting so long to do. Ultimately, you chose to follow your heart and it led you to the couch where Jake was seated. He was talking to Yeji, caught up in conversation.

The sight nearly made you sick, as if you just got punched in the gut. Backing up slowly, you turned to leave and found Heeseung, but Jake stopped you. He grabbed your wrist, pulling you to turn to him. “Not gonna say hello?“ he said, smiling at you. You bit your lip, eyes flickering to the way she had her hand on his knee. You muttered a quick ‘hi’ before pulling your arm from his grip. Jake was left confused and hurt, turning to catch Jay’s eyes. Jay knew what was going on, deciding to follow you to the kitchen.

Heeseung and Sunghoon were putting the drinks over ice so that they’ll stay cold when you walked in. You immediately went over and peered at what the two had brought, startling Sunghoon by your presence. “Shit y/n! You need a bell when you enter a room.” He said, gasping for air. You giggled as you playfully pushed his shoulder. “Get over it, ice prince.” You replied, earning a laugh from Heeseung. “Hey y/n, you look beautiful.” He said, leaning over to catch your eye. Your face lit up immediately as the blush crept along your cheeks.

“Likewise.” You said, trying to sound nonchalant. Jay walked in, joining you at the counter. “Hey y/n, I don’t get acknowledged? I’m hurt.” He said, frowning at you. You cupped his cheeks, squishing them together. “Aww Jay, you poor baby. I’ll have to remember you next time.” You said, cooing at him. He laughed, pulling your hands from his face.

Heeseung grabbed two drinks, handing one to you and Jay. You popped the top off, taking a long sip. You heard cheers from both Jay and Sunghoon, but it was Heeseung’s smile at your boldness that caught your attention. “Someone’s having a good time.” He said before taking a sip of his own. “Better enjoy it while I can.” You said, feeling the alcohol start to warm you up and loosen your tension. Jay wrapped his arm around your shoulder and led you back to the others.

The two boys followed, being welcomed by the music you assumed Winter put on. Immediately, Heeseung ran over to change the music, putting on one of his own. When Jake looked up, he saw you and Jay talking and jealousy was bubbling inside him. Yeji seemed to notice his disinterest in the conversation, watching where his eyes were. “Go talk to her.” She said, nudging his arm with a soft smile. He didn’t look back, getting up and walking toward you. You were leaning against the wall, Jay next to you as the two of you went on about some show coming soon. “Hey y/n.” Jake said, brushing some of his hair back. You took a sip of your drink before responding. “Oh hey Jake, what happened? Did Yeji bore you?”

You were drunk, he didn’t know how many drinks you had, but you were definitely not near sober. “Actually, you dissed me earlier and I just wanted to spend some time with you.” You were conflicted, staying downstairs and partying with your friends, most importantly your crush. Or going upstairs and having a talk with Jake, your best friend. You didn’t have the right mind to make a reasonable answer, so instead you handed your drink to Jay and grabbed Jake’s hand.

He didn’t protest, why would he? He was in love with you. Not that it’s any surprise, but he decided he might try and make a move before it was too late. And that’s what he did, or wanted to do. The two of you went into your room, shutting the for behind him. “How’ve you been?” He said, turning to you as he sat on your bed. “What’s wrong Jake?” You asked, slurring your words just a bit at his name. He shook his head, reaching out for your hands. “Come cuddle me for a second, yea?”

He knew you were a sucker for his cuddles, mainly because of how warm he was, but his body seemed to be perfect for yours. You grabbed his hands, sitting on your bed till he got in a comfortable position. He pulled you against him, holding you close as the room went quiet. Even with the music downstairs, the only thing you could hear was his breathing and the beating of his heart.

“It’s like we’re a couple.” You said, half jokingly. Jake didn’t respond, instead he just stared down at you with tender eyes. “Always cuddling, never leaving each other’s side. It’s almost like we have feelings for each other.” You said, no filter over your mouth. Jake didn’t know if you meant anything you were saying, but he took his chance to confess while he still had the confidence. “We could be.” He said, feeling your body tense up almost immediately.

You maybe had a little too much to drink, but you were starting to sober up. You sat up, staring down at him, searching his face for any sign that this was a joke. All you found was tender love as he stared back at you. So much time passed, yet you felt like the world went still. The sound of your door opened, turning your attention to the source. “Hey y/n, oh am I interrupting?” He asked as he looked between you two. “Uh, no.” You said, getting out of Jake’s grip and off your bed.

You turned back to see Jake propped up on his elbows, eyes begging for you to stay, but you took the chance and left your room. Heeseung grabs your hand, walking you through the party and onto the patio. The cool air hits your fiery skin, yet you feel almost numb to the wind. “Some party you got there.” He said, looking at you with a smile. You nod, staring out at the view. “So y/n, I’ve been missing to ask you something all night.” You turn towards him, straightening up as you feel your cheeks begin to heat up. “Go ahead, ask me anything.” You replied, fiddling with your hands.

“I think you’re really cute and I have for a few weeks now..so I guess I’m asking if I can take you on a date?” He said, rubbing the back of his neck nervously as he stared at you. You stood there, thinking that you were so drunk that you passed out and now you’re dreaming. Only, this was real. Lee Heeseung is asking you out, on your patio in the midst of night. You were in shock, staring at him as if he was speaking another language. “I-If you’re not interested..I’m so sorry I even brought it up.” He said, defeat written across his face.

You reached out, fingers barely touching his arm. His eyes locked with yours, sparkling in the moonlight. “Let me get back to you on that?” You said, smiling widely. He nods, gently grabbing your hand to bring it to his lips. Softly, he kisses the back of your hand. “I hope I’ll get that chance.” He said right before he left the patio. You leaned against the rails, mind going back and forth on how you didn’t jump for joy when he asked you. Part of it was because of Jake, well it was all because of Jake. He’s completely sober and he practically admitted his feelings for you just moments ago.

Now you’re standing here, wanting to go to him. Share the news with him, see what he thinks. So that’s what you did, you left the patio and went down to search for Jake. You looked all throughout the living area where most were still seated and chatting away. You spotted Sunghoon, making a direct b line to him. “Hey, have you seen Jake?” You said, loud enough so he’ll hear you. Sunghoon’s face went white at the mention of his friend's name. Nervous, he tried to direct your attention elsewhere. “Uhh, I don’t know. Jay brought some new drinks out not too long ago, you should go try those.” He said, nudging you slightly to the kitchen.

You gave him a weird look before making your way to the kitchen. Jay was by the counter, snacking on some chips. “Hey y/n, where’d you go earlier? We couldn’t find you or He-“ You cut him off, “Do you know where Jake is?“ Jay choked on his chips, reaching for his drink beside him as he struggled to get his snack down. You gave him a side eye, “Are you okay?” He cleared his throat after a long sip of whatever was in his cup.

“I think you should go enjoy the party y/n.” He said, voice laced with concern. You sighed, grabbing a drink from the cooler and left the kitchen. Jay was no help, Sunghoon was no help and Jake was nowhere to be seen. You gave up, deciding to try and find Winter. As you trailed down the ball towards her room, you heard Yeji and Jake giggling. Your heart felt heavy, but your feet carried on despite the warning from your brain. When your hand reached the knob, you heard shuffling. You should’ve turned back, already knowing what to expect, but you needed to see it in order to believe it. You opened the door, standing in the hallway as you watched Jake and Yeji make out feverishly on your roommates bed.

When the two heard the creak of the door, they pulled away instantly. Your heart couldn’t take it, it tried to hold on, but it shattered. Jake’s eyes went wide at the sight of your doe eyes. He couldn’t see clearly, but he could tell there were tears swelling in the corner. He called out your name, but you ran. You ran to your room and locked the door as quickly as you could. You hated yourself for going to him.

You hated that you hoped he’d be looking for you, alone. You hated how it was her he was with. Most of all, you hated how bad it hurt. Climbing into bed, you heard him outside your door. “Y/n, please open up!” He begged as he wiggled your doorknob. You turned to the wall, tears falling down your face. “Y-Y/n..it’s not what you think.” He pleaded, hoping to get you to let him in. His heart was hurting, you were shutting him out and he was to blame. “Please..let me in.” He said, voice cracking. You couldn’t hold it in, letting out a choked sob into your pillow.

Jake could hear you, over all the music and people talking, he heard your cries and he could only listen. Defeated, he sat against your door, head in his hands as he waited for you to come out.

By morning, you felt the events of the previous night. Like a bad movie, it played in your head over and over till you decided to check your phone. Scanning through your notifications, you saw that none were from Jake. You felt disappointed, hoping there was something from him, but you got nothing. Maybe the next move wasn’t the best, but you did it because you felt like you deserved it. Clicking on Heeseung’s contact, you sent him a quick text.

[10:22am] y/n: about that date..when and where?

Your heart was begging you not to, but you had already hit send. A heavy feeling fell over you, settling in the pit of your stomach when you got a notification.

[10:25am] heeseung <3: it’s a surprise ;)

You giggled, tossing your phone beside you and decided to conquer the day. You were gonna forget about Jake and Yeji, focus on yourself and make the most of the day. This was gonna be it, you didn’t need Jake. You got out of bed, walking to your door. When you unlocked it and pulled it open, Jake fell at your feet. He groaned loudly, waking up almost immediately when his head hit the floor. You stood there, stunned. Had he been out there all night? Why? “Fuck- y/n?” He said, staring up at you with worry. Quickly, he scrambled to get up. He rubbed the back of his head, throbbing pain being accompanied by his aching heart.

“What are you doing here?” You said, looking at your feet. You wanted to run, hide or even push him away, but you couldn’t. “I was waiting for you to come out..but I think I fell asleep.” He said, voice sounding hoarse. You shook your head, he could be so dumb. “Can we talk? Please..?” He pleads, gently grabbing both of your hands and taking them into his. “Only if you freshen up, you look awful.” You said, lifting your head up. He laughed, softly. He did look bad, but he had also never looked so good.

After a quick shower, Jake came back to your room. He saw you sitting on the edge, typing away on your phone. When he set down his shoes, you looked at him. The clothes he left over surprisingly still fit since he started working out when he left them here. You glanced up, nearly choking on spit at the sight. Your heart was racing, but your mind was rejecting. He was with Yuki and you were going on a date with Heeseung, don’t be so naive. “So uhm, about last night-“ Your long sigh cut him off. “Jake, last night was a mistake. I shouldn’t have walked in on you and Yuki.”

His heart hurt at the way you spoke to him. He wanted to beg and scream for you to listen, but he knew how stubborn you were. “I mean about the talk we had while lying down.” He said, a little lower than usual. He had hope, not a lot and not too high, but he had hope. “Oh that? Don’t worry, we’re just friends Jake. It’s different because of how close we are, like how Heeseung and I are going on a date soon.” Oh, a date? When did that happen? His entire world came crashing down at the mental image of you and his roommate on a date.

What if there was more than one? What if Heeseung kissed you? So many what if’s and little answers to soothe his aching heart. Defeated, Jake tightens his fists to try and hold himself together. “Yea, friends.” Friends, that’s all he was to you. He’s been friend zoned before, but it never hurt so bad. Letting out the breath he didn’t know he was holding, Jake hung his head down as he left your room. Your eyes followed him out, swelling at the sadness written across him. You got off your bed, followed him down the hall and watched him gather his things. “You’re leaving? I thought you wanted to talk?” He didn’t look up, he didn’t look back, all he did was grip the door handle. “There’s nothing to say anymore, have fun on your date.” And he was gone.

You thought you’d feel better, but somehow you felt even worse than before. Winter watched from the kitchen, holding plates of pancakes she made. When she locked eyes with you, she saw the tear roll down your cheek. “Oh baby.” She said softly, setting the plates on the counter and quickly made her way to you.

This was it, your date with Heeseung. You had dreamt of this day many times, never actually thinking it would come true. You were sitting in front of your closet, staring at the clothes on hangers. All he told you was, ‘wear something comfortable.’ As if that’s so helpful. Winter was in the bathroom, gathering her makeup for you to put on. Yes, you didn’t own your own makeup. It wasn’t really your style, but you wanted to try it for Heeseung.

When she came into your room, she noticed how still you were. Setting the bags on your bed, she crouched down and sat next to you. “What are we thinking about?” She asked, staring into your closet. “I don’t know.” You replied, playing with the sleeve of your sweatshirt. His sweatshirt, Jake’s. That’s what you were thinking about and it was killing you. You two had never gone so long without talking and it was eating at you badly. Even his sweatshirt felt comforting, yet dense when you put it on last night. “Do you miss him?” She asked, pulling you out of your thoughts. You turned to her, confused. “Who? Heeseung?” She knew you knew who she was talking about, but she played along. “No, silly, Jake.”

Hearing his name after three weeks was like hearing a rocket launch up close. It was loud to your ears, even though she spoke softly. Yes, you did miss him. You wouldn’t admit it out loud, but you missed him so badly. It was evident on your face when she would see you trying to do things you used to do with him, but you couldn’t because he wasn’t there. “Wanna help me pick out my clothes?” You said, swerving away from talking about Jake. Winter sighed, hoping you’d just open up and see how much he truly meant to you. Baby steps she thought, baby steps. Jumping up, she grabbed your hands and pulled you up with her. “Let’s get you date ready.”

Winter spent about an hour working on your fit for the date, finally deciding on something cute, yet comfortable. She told you to wear your hair down and applied as little makeup as she could. When you checked the time, you chewed on your inner cheek. Winter was going on about some catalogue she read and trying to give you tips to not be nervous, but all you could do was stare at the picture of you and Jake from spring break the previous year. “Y/n!” She said, particularly loud. You flinched, rubbing your ear. “He’s here.” She said, grabbing both of your hands. “Please enjoy yourself.” You rolled your eyes, bringing her in for a hug. “Yes mom, I promise.” She gave you a right squeeze before letting go. She looked at you, eyes telling you what her mouth can’t. Don’t think about Jake. Harder said than done.

You left your room, meeting Heeseung at the door. When it swung open, he was holding flowers. “Wow, you look beautiful.” He said, smiling at your mere presence. Holding the flowers out for you, you grabbed them and smiled. “Thank you, not so bad yourself.” You replied, setting the flowers on the coffee table. “Winter will make sure they’re taken care of, that’s kinda her thing.” He nodded, taking your hand in his and led you to his car. Heeseung holding your hand, you assumed sparks would be flying or maybe fireworks going off.

Nothing, you felt nothing. It was like holding your roommate's hand, just another hand to hold. Being the gentleman he is, Heeseung held the passenger door open for you. You got in, waiting for him to join you. What was wrong with you? Why weren’t you excited? You were excited, but not to the full extent you should’ve been. He is your crush, he was the boy you dreamt of and here you are in his car wishing he was someone else.

When Heeseung got in, he noticed how spaced out you were. “Are you okay?” He asked, looking at you with concern. “Oh uhm, yea.” You replied, faking a smile. Heeseung bought it, surprisingly, and put on one of his playlists as he drove you to your date. The entire ride was silent, letting the music fill the car. Heeseung would hum to the music, but you were looking out the window. Too lost in thought, you didn’t realize the car had stopped. When you came back down to reality, you looked over at Heeseung who was staring at you.

“We’re here, it’s this little ramen shop on the corner where they have the best ramen-“ Your head turned, immediately knowing where it was. “Oh I know this shop! Jake and I came here after it opened.” You said, smiling back at the memories. Heeseung saw how you light up at the thought of his roommate, reading the vibe almost instantly. “It’s him, isn’t it?” His words cut you in half, turning your attention to his sad smile. “What’s who?” You asked, hoping he wouldn’t say the name you had been thinking of. “Jake, you’re thinking of Jake.”

Guilt was flooding through you like an overflow. You wanted to cry because there was so much unsaid, but you held yourself together. “It’s okay y/n, I kinda knew a while ago at the party, but I thought I had a chance.” You reached out, gently grabbing his hand. “I liked you, I really did Heeseung.” His face went blank, then super flushed. “Really? I had no clue.” He said, laughing at his own embarrassment. The two of you sat in silence, listening to the music before he pulled his hand from yours and started driving. “Where are we going?” You asked, looking back at the noodle shop. “To make things right.” He said, smiling.

That was one of the many things that pulled you to have a crush on him in the beginning, his reason to have a balance in lives around him. Midway drive, you saw the clouds darken before the rain began to pour down. It was heavy, as if the clouds were clashing within each other. When he pulled up to his apartment, the two of you ran out of the car and up to the door. Heeseung’s cold, numb fingers fiddled with his keys. Thankfully, Sunghoon heard the commotion and opened the door. The both of you walked in, shivering from the weather. “What’s going on? I thought you were on a date.” He asked, getting Jay’s attention who was on the couch playing games.

You looked all around the living room, frowning when you didn’t spot him. “Is he here?” You asked, rubbing your arms to try and wake yourself up. Sunghoon turned to Jay who looked at you with confusion. “No, he left about 10 minutes ago for your place.” A spark of adrenaline ran through you, immediately reaching for the door. The three boys were shouting in protest, wanting to drive you back. “I can’t wait any longer, I love him!” You shouted as you ran down the steps and off into the city. It took longer than you’d hope, but you just kept running.

When you got close to your apartment, you saw him. He was sitting against your door, soaked from the weather. By now, he had dried a bit. When you got close, he looked up and saw you standing there, staring at him. “Y/n, you’re soaked! Why are you soaked?” He asked, getting up as quick as he could and ran over to grab your hands. You stood, frozen in place as he rubbed your fingers within his in attempts to warm them. “Are you crazy? Who walks in this kind of weather? And where is Heeseung?” He had a million questions and needed answers. “I’m in love with you.”

Time had stopped, the world around the two of you went silent and his aching heart was now mended. Staring at you through thick lashes, he took a deep breath. “A-Are you sure? Because it’s cold and you’re wet and I think you might be sic-“ Your smile made him lose his train of thought. “Just kiss me.” You said, staring into his sweet, brown eyes and that’s exactly what he did. Dropping one of your hands, he came up to cup the side of your cheek. He leaned in, taking your head into his hand and heart into his.

His lips were soft, just how you imagined they’d be. Soft and perfect, like he was to you. He kissed you with such passion, yet he was so gentle. You were engulfed in the love of his kiss, making you forget how cold your body was. Pulling back some, you smiled as he rested his forehead against yours. “Does this mean I’m out the friend zone?” He asked, getting a laugh from you. “You were never truly ‘frienzoned’.” You replied as he returned the laugh. The two of you went inside, trying to warm up as quickly as possible.

When you found yourself in your bed, cuddled up next to him as he read you a book, you asked the dying question. “Why do you mark parts of the book that are your favorite?” He stopped reading, turning to give you a smile. “Because they remind me of you.”

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