lee-grayson

[lee-grayson]

darling i held you as close and cold as i could

For The Sea

You’re So Much More

I hope your legs get better

I’ve cared and held them so close

You’re more than just a pair of tired hips

Your shaking hands hold my frail heart

Firm and cold

That’s how I’ll remember you

I knew you were hurting

I tried so hard to hold you all together

You’ve only seen so little of this world

I’d do absolutely anything for you

To make this pain go away

These shaky hands of mine can’t hold the sea

While you don’t need a body

To be loved by me

Holding you sure was nice

[lee-grayson]

Goodbye Darling

For My Darling

Sorry Nan

[1/4]

I knew that face

That my grandmother gave when she asked

And spoke your name on my birthday

That time doesn’t heal all wounds

With a loving smile

A glint in her eye, she asked

How’s our [redacted]?

I wanted to cry

As words gushed out

In a babbling spree

I told her that you were gone

With a laugh so fake and a smile so wide

I thanked her for my card

I’ll see you soon, I say

Knowing I won’t see her till Christmas

With a smile on my face

She ends the call

I’m sorry Nan

I’m not your happy boy anymore

[lee-grayson]

Goodbye Darling

For Moonface

I Loved You

[2/4]

I’m sorry that I’m so quiet

That words don’t come naturally to me

Unlike you

Words flow with rhythm and care

Only you can make

I love hearing your voice

Even when venomous words are spat at me

I would gladly listen, even when they cut me so deep

I’m sorry that I’m not perfect

Heaven knows you deserve better

I would gladly change every piece of me to make you happy

I would gladly get on my hands and knees

If I wasn’t enough

I’d destroy myself

I’m sorry I’m so quiet

[lee-grayson]

Goodbye Darling

For My Bestfriend

The Very Last Dance

[3/4]

I hated the feeling

Of holding you so close and knowing that I’d lost you

This final dance

Were you mocking me?

In this moment of pity and misplaced care

This overwhelming pain surges through me

I do try

Isn’t it enough?

Playing a song that meant so much to me

Were you mocking me

Dancing and celebrating

This triumph over falling out of love with me

[lee-grayson]

Goodbye Darling

For Sunshine

22

[4/4]

You’d probably bought another house plant

Gave it a cute name and put it in your app

That reminds you to water them

I still hope you learn the cello

Maybe get a dog with your house mates

Get a bed that fits you all

As not to lose one another

I’m now 22 and I go to the library in the rain

And I’ll come home with a book or two and a cold face

And you won’t be there to tell me how cold

But I’ll try to keep myself warm

In my too big a bed

I’m now 22 and I’m no better at driving

But I still drive to the beach

And get sunburnt and salty

As I drive home alone listening to all the same songs

I lay awake in my too big a bed

With the cat

I’m 22 and my plants haven’t been watered in ages

Because you’re no longer here to remind me

Then I smile as I pack your things away

I hope you learn the cello

Because I know you’ll be very good

But I’ll be 23

One year away from 24

[lee-grayson]

You Wonder Why I Don’t Go Home

For Trina

The Rain Followed Me Nowhere

[1/3]

I moved to the big city

This stone coffin

Houses a lost soul

As the acidic sky mirrored

The bitter grin

Upon this lonely soul

The rain slowly swallowed the road

Leaving nothing more

Than that smell

The rain followed me

Am I the… Problem?

[lee-grayson]

You Wonder Why I Don’t Go Home

For Trina

I’ll Return… Maybe

[2/3]

I sit lonely upon a steel bench

As the rows and rows

Of the drunk and lonely

Wonder the forgotten streets

As acid rain falls

Leaving the city drenched

In that familiar scent

Of why I left home

[lee-grayson]

You Wonder Why I Don’t Go Home

For Trina

A Burning Kiss From The Sky

[3/3]

It always seems to be the days

Where absolutely nothing happens

The calm before the storm

That’s what they say

When the acid rain

Would lay its familiar scent

I don’t share this with anyone

That familiar smell of death

As the rain falls

Like bullets from a smoking gun

No souls were lost on these days

It always seems to be the days

After

[lee-grayson]

Man To Man

For Matthew

A Hero No Less

[1/3]

A true rebel

With your spiked hair

And ripped jeans

Bloodied fist

After a bar fight

A cider in one hand

A cigarette in the other

You look like a movie star

Everyone knew your name

I wanna be just like you

[lee-grayson]

Man To Man

For Matthew

Mind The Step, Dad

[2/3]

As I get older

The more I worry

Seeing how the drink

Has withered you down

You’re not the rockstar

I knew

Just a man that no one truly knew

But this town has ruined you

Broken and unable to move

You’re not the man

I once knew

[lee-grayson]

Man To Man

For Matthew

Son Like Father

[3/3]

I’m sorry that I’m nothing like you

You’re this hero in my eyes

I wish I had your strength

Your charisma

Your charm

Your happiness

Your style

At least I have your nose

And your funny laugh

And a last name that will never pass

I’m your son after all

I just hope I make you proud dad

[lee-grayson]

The World’s Worst Prescription

For Jordan

Part To Play

[3/3]

Flickers of rooms

Filled with memories

That aren’t mine

How could I not see this coming?

I have no part to play within

This cobblestone jungle

Was the leap off a rooftop

That many don’t know

Worth the tears?

[lee-grayson]

The World’s Worst Prescription

For Jordan

The Starving City

[2/3]

I do hate this city

That suffocates me

Draining everything I have

The blur of orange tints

And police sirens playing their tunes

What a beautiful view

From a rooftop

That no one knew

[lee-grayson]

The World’s Worst Prescription

For Jordan

An I For An I

[1/3]

I cannot love myself

This world made me blind

As these burning lights

Played my optic nerves

As if strings on a lyre

Never allowing me to see

True beauty

Changing its tone

To match the death grip

That this city has upon my frail body

I cannot love myself

[lee-grayson]

Stories of The Nameless

Bury Your Bouquets

[1/3]

A bunch of flowers

Withered and grey

Lay so elegantly

Upon this lonely platform

Welcome to the silent station

The forgotten battlefield

A bunch of flowers

Wiry and dark

Lying splayed and glass eyed

Upon this stained ground

Never to be held by longing hands

Never to grow

Never to be remembered

[lee-grayson]

Stories of The Nameless

Death Is A Man Wearing Green

[2/3]

This is how it ends

Beautiful green eyes

Burning red with rage

Killing faceless enemies

Without a single penny

Living this horrible life

Never knowing the true line

A face of a young boy

Begging for his life

Blood seeping out

Along with his last words

This is what I see

As those sunken eyes

Soullessly looking back at me

The hint of green stood proud

Just like he once did

With nothing more than a smile

A moment of peace

Presents itself

As death is no thief

Death

Was this poor boy’s

Release

[lee-grayson]

Stories of The Nameless

Hollow Solider

[3/3]

A lonely building

Soulless and barren

Loomed over the misty battlefield

Mocking the soldiers that once inhabited

This city of blood

As these shattered eyes

Yell for help

Not a word was heard

As I am a solider

And I’ll be remembered

As the last

The one who never fell