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baby, I'm a sociopath

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We are all going to die.

Maybe of boredom.

Maybe of other things.

Instagram - iampoorlydrawn

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me? both avoiding and craving attention? you bet

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I roll my eyes at you,

boy

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Me: trying to sleep

My brain: esos son reebok o son nike

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i wonder what its like to be attractive enough to have random people have crushes on you 

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fuck nudes, send me your playlist

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Handwriting is so cool cause it’s like the written equivalent of the sound of someone’s voice.

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I dream about you and hope you’re happy.

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2018 can go straight to hell. It's been one of the worst years of my life, no doubt about that.

Things that happened to me:

* finished my internship on Lanzarote, came back home, discovered I was absolutely useless there, then came back to Lanzarote where I've lived for six months now

* went to a psychiatrist to get pills, then discovered I have problems with my theroid and since I started taking meds for that my mood has improved a lot (still need therapy though!)

* I think I learnt Spanish and forgot how to speak Russian

* gained weight, then lost weight, and now I'm trying not to gain it again, I'm eating more healthy now

* spent my two-week holidays in hospital with my mom who is luckily getting better

* dyed my hair red then black and I'm currently trying to grow it back and go back to my natural colour

* fell in love with a person who doesn't love me back and who happens to be one of my best friends and I still haven't managed to stop feeling things

* stopped talking to a lot of toxic people and it feels great

* on Lanzarote, I lived with my bff and one crazy bitch in one flat but luckily in December me and the bff moved out to a BEAUTIFUL place

* I met @wednesdayangeline who is an absolutely beautiful, talented soul (your drawings!!!)

* spent very little time with my friends due to me living abroad (but we're still talking lots via net)

* started working in the same hotel I had my internship in and I don't like this job but a girl gotta make her money

* have been missing @samrull more than ever because of me living abroad and discovered yet again that she's my friend for life™

* got seriously scared when my mom had a stroke but then found out she's the strongest person I know and I love her the most and she's gonna be okay

* took many booty pics and nudes and I actually sent them to people wow

* got reunited with my friend whom I've known since we were thirteen after not talking to her for around two years or more

* went fishing with C. for the first time in my life

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I hope whatever there is to come is better than 2018 because this year truly sucked and I haven't felt that bad in a long time.