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12/08/23: my little dog lays right next to me.

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11/16/23: felix is suspicious of this magnesium cocktail…

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11/08/23: he enjoy da wind.

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9/23/23: made it to seaside with my love.

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8/9/23: no edits. no thoughts. just felix at the top of the stairs in my dad’s house which i have moved into.

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7/7/23: goin’ shopping for shoes (and a slingshot…) today with my baby.

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05/27/23: had a boat day with my baby and some fun friends, plus some leinenkugels and pineapple.

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05/22/23: lil recap of the weekend! i went to nori steakhouse with brayten, nadia, chase, and crae on friday… it was awful (respectfully). i didn’t know you could fuck up thai noodles like that.

afterward, we went to mamaw’s for her birthday! aunt tt and papaw were there too, of course. we had cake and took a little tour of the new house. it’s lovely; the boys did an amazing job renovating it. they still have the golf cart and little miss oreo.

sammy and i went out to silver spoon later that night and went hard until around 4 in the morning. some people introduced themselves and we all played darts together until i decided wendy’s was a necessity. we came back after i downed some nuggets and fries.

saturday night, we went to the brick room comedy club. stewart huff headlined and was amazing! the other three comics killed it too.

sunday was really chilled out; it was mainly zelda and napping. one of my favorite weekends in awhile. <3

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05/16/23: i got a shitty pedicure. i took a walk. my legs work. felix stopped at every fire hydrant. the smells were good. the sky was one big cloud. i saw clovers and dandelions. there was a mom with a stroller, with a smile. i am loved from every direction. i am grateful when my heart is full; i am grateful when it hurts.

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05/09/23: little man is proud of himself for washing his face first thing this morning. his dedication to his skincare routine is admirable.

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05/08/23: my allergies (still) have me in a full nelson. (it hurts a little to swallow too… if i’m getting sick, i’ll beat my own ass.)

spring is tough on my nose, and i’ve been super numb mentally. but i saw some lil ant butts in a dandelion and listened to the birds sing. also, i know the third pic is just of a chimney clean-out door, but i like to imagine it leads to a super small speakeasy for mice or something.

felix had a visit to the vet to check his teeth again. he took a treat from the tech but just held it in his mouth instead of eating it. i think that was his way of making a point.

song of the day: i’d rather go blind by etta james

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05/07/23: i want to hide under the bed with felix and never come back out.

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05/06/23: almost three in the morning. i’m trying to interrupt a cycle of obsessive thoughts by watching tv with the little man. shout-out to naked and afraid for being on prime video.

i could wish for a lot right now, but mainly, i wish i were back in my body and able to feel things. i wish my best friend hadn’t moved 4,000 miles away. and i wish i had never heard of fatal familial insomnia. that shit is perfect ocd bait.

update (now that’s it’s not three in the morning): finally got the other side of my nose pierced again. shout-out to andrew for his work. got the fuckin’ trifecta back. you can see how annoyed my nose is.

also had another intense episode today. definitely mentally fine and well and good. definitely feel like a whole person, just one. no worries.

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05/05/23: felix put brows on again today. no clue how he manages that spectacular shape every time or even what he uses, but…

…it didn’t smell like dog shit (celebrate the little things)! still, my dad and i washed them off, and little man was visibly disappointed to see his work go to waste.

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05/04/23: not gonna lie, the leg pain was through the roof today. shit kept me up most of the night. turns out a bottle of bourbon from hotel tango is good for icing the bottom of your spine and numbing everything from the pelvis down.

got drunken chicken from yats and toño the infallible by evelio rosero from a local bookstore called tomorrow. also bought a tote bag that sparked immense joy (we need to fund research into why bisexuals fuckin’ love tote bags). i also got to cuddle this cute henchman before he left for ohio with his dad.

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04/20/23: chillin’ in the backyard with little man. i used to be all about winter, but recently, i’ve been able to appreciate the warmer weather (still get pissed the second it reaches above 75 degrees though).

anyway, i’m thinkin’ we’re gonna celebrate weed day with some hiatus kaiyote and a bowl.

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04/19/23: we finally went to the park by our old crack house. felix is used to me having pain flare-ups and not being able to walk for a long time, so i think he was surprised we hit the trail and got a good three miles in. little man was so tuckered out that he couldn’t even muster the energy to bark at passerby.

(that’s not entirely true. he did bark at another dog. to be fair, the mf was giving him the eye.)