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please I need more Deacon requests!!! if you have any ideas/requests my ask box is open!!!

(please I am literally begging I want to write for him so so so badly😞)

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Could you do David 'Deacon' Kay with wife reader? They always knew what to do if Deac died but they didn't prepare for her. Kinda like Annie when she was sick. Angst but ending with fluff. Thanks!! :))

Title : "in sickness & in health"

Warnings : hospitals, Reader gets sick, worried Deac, angst with a happy ending,

Summary : You both prepared for what would happen if Deacon died or got sick- but you never planned for what would happen if you were the one to get sick.

A/n : I originally planned for this to have more angst, but I changed my mind halfway 😭 anyway I hope this is what you had in mind and thank you for the request !!

Word count : 616

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It was just a normal day. Deacon went to work, the kids went to school & preschool. So you were all alone at home.

You cleaned the house up a little since the kids left a mess in the living room after playing with Legos the previous night. You felt slightly off when you woke up but you just brushed it off thinking it was just the nerves at the thought of your husband getting hurt on the job.

After a while you decided to go visit David at work, since you had nothing else to do. That feeling of something being wrong never went away…

Maybe something was seriously wrong.

After parking in front of the SWAT HQ you got out grabbing your bag and walking towards the front entrance. Even if Deacon was probably out somewhere on call you thought it would maybe be nice if you just popped in to say hello. Walking past security the feeling got much much worse. Something was really wrong.

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And then it all went black, you collapsed onto the floor unconscious. The next thing you could remember was waking up in the hospital with David sitting next to you. He was holding his head in his hand and he was crying. Slowly reaching out, you grabbed his hand squeezing it twice. He immediately looked up in relief since you were finally awake.

“You’re finally awake.” He muttered while standing up and brushing the hair out of your face. “How do you feel?” Deacon questioned you with a worried look on his face. “I feel fine, just a bit tired.” You replied with a tired smile.

Just as Deacon was about to speak the door opened and your three kids ran into the hospital room screaming “MOM!” You just smiled at them while your middle child - Lila ran up to the bed and immediately grabbed your hand while asking you a million questions at once. “Easy Lila, your mom just woke up. So let’s calm down and give her some space okay?”

You just smiled at her while patting the bed next to you, inviting her to sit down next to you. As soon as Lila had climbed onto the bed you pulled her into your lap squeezing her tightly and kissing her forehead. Then your boys slowly approached the hospital bed, upon seeing them you invited them to sit next to you and Lila. Matthew & Samuel immediately took you up on your offer and clambered up onto the bed and sat down next to you, snuggling up to you.

Deacon smiled at the sight of you laying in the hospital bed, with your kids curled up next to you. “I love you mom.” Matthew stated softly while clinging onto you tightly, despite being the oldest Matthew was still very clingy to you. Not that he’d ever admit it outright but it was very obvious.

Everyone knew a health scare like this could lead to serious consequences but it turned out to just be a bad case of the flu. So you had to stay in the hospital for a few days and Deacon never left your side. Your kids would go to school as normal despite their protests that they want to stay with you.

Deacon had made a deal with all three of them that if they went to school as normal he’d buy them ice cream and then they could come visit you in the hospital until it was bedtime and they had to go home and sleep. The kids would always light up as soon as they saw you, while telling you about their days at school and if they had made any new friends.

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sorry for not posting but my mental health got so so so much worse over the last few weeks bc of some family stuff & health issues. (which I will not be elaborating on bc it's too personal.)

so my posting schedule might be a little more chaotic & complicated bc I barely have the energy/inspo to write anything :(

I promise I didn't forget about this account & I'm working on those few requests I still have in my ask box !! I just might be a little slower when it comes to responding & posting :/

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I Know The End - Jessica Cortez x Fem!Reader (apocalypse AU)

Inspired by the song “I Know The End.” - Phoebe Bridgers

Pairing : Jessica Cortez x Fem!Reader (apocalypse AU)

Summary : Even if the world would fall apart, you still had each other, you both knew that you'd do it again in a heartbeat despite the end being near.

Warnings : angst, sad ending (they both die), apocalypse AU, crying, death, violence, hurt/no comfort. Once again angst with NO happy ending. This may be a little hard to read for some people so be cautious while reading.

A/n : This is based on my interpretation of the song. :) not beta read so sorry for any mistakes I might've missed

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The world was ending.

That was one thing everyone was sure of since the national notice about the apocalypse was sent out. Being in SWAT made it a tad bit easier to survive the apocalypse since you were both highly trained and skilled in combat and shooting. Everyone you loved and cared for was gone. Except for Jess. She stayed by your side the whole time. It was just the two of you against the world after all. You had no one left…

You had ran out of food rations. After having raided the last store you saw on your way to the safe house for food there was nothing left. All you both had was the rest of some water from a stream you passed by days ago. LA was now ruined. Any resemblance of the city you used to know was now gone and in ruin.

Seeing the safe house in the distance you sighed in relief and looked over at Jessica with a sad smile. You both knew the end was near. So you decided to make the best of what you had. Walking slightly faster Jess caught up to you and grabbed your hand squeezing it three times, wordlessly saying “I love you.” You smiled and squeezed her hand three times in return.

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You were thinking back to how it all started… It was supposed to be a normal day at SWAT HQ. Until there suddenly was a government notice that some virus started spreading through LA & the whole world. It alerted everyone to take cover and find somewhere safe to stay till it was all over. Everyone headed home after that to check on their families and friends. Work was forgotten since everyone needed to make sure their families were safe. You and Jessica headed back to your shared apartment to pack some essentials since Jess said she knew a safe place where you could hide and stay until it was safe again.

Three weeks later radio contact with your team went silent. Dead silent.

You both knew what that meant. Your family and team were now missing or even worse- But you didn’t have the time to turn around. Not when you had to get to the safe house before it was too late.

Heading up the creaky stairs to the safe house you winced at the noise. Jessica quickly followed you, pulling out her weapon and the keys to the safe house. Wordlessly you both glanced at each other and nodded. If this was the end, you were ready to face it. You had no clue if someone or something was hiding in the safe house.

Luckily there was no one inside, so it was safe. Stepping inside behind Jess you quietly closed the door and sighed in relief when you locked the final hinge. “We made it.” Jessica whispered with teary eyes while rushing up to you and grabbing your face and kissing you. You immediately kissed her back, holding onto her tightly. “We made it.” You whispered back. “C’mon let’s go to the safe room, since there should be some food there.” Jess offered while leading you down the hallway of the old abandoned safe house. Reaching the basement door she quietly undid the hatch, the “safe room” was just a simple room with two small beds, a kitchen and pantry. But to your utter shock and horror there was no food.

Exchanging a panic look with Jessica you finally understood what was happening.

This was the end.

There’s no way out.

Nothing can change the ending.

No matter what you or Jess did.

There is no other ending.

THE END WAS HERE.

You had both accepted your fate. There was nothing you could do. Jessica reached over grabbing your hand and pulling you into her side. Sighing softly you wiped away some tears from your cheeks and looked over at her. “Thank you.” You whispered to Jess, she nodded in response and squeezed your hand three times again while tears slowly poured down her cheeks.

The military pager in your pocket buzzed twice, to which you and Jessica exchanged slightly panicked looks with each other. Who could it be? There was no sign of civilization or people nearby. Hicks had given everyone at HQ such pagers to stay in contact with each other and be able to get the latest news from the government. Pulling out the pager with shaky hands you glanced at it in terror before handing it to Jessica to read. She looked equally scared and terrified but she put on a brave smile for you and hugged you tightly to her chest blocking your ears so that you wouldn't hear the noises of what was going above.

Tears poured down both of your cheeks and in one last effort you squeezed her wrist three times to say “I love you.” One last time. Then there was a loud bang from above and everything went black. You and Jess stayed curled up in each other's arms, holding hands.

There was no other ending to this. It would always end like this.

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Ghost of you - Deacon Kay x Fem!Reader

Inspired by the song “Ghost of you” by 5SOS

Pairing : Deacon Kay x Fem!Reader

Summary : After your death Deacon is truly haunted by the ghost of you.

Warnings : angst, hurt/no comfort, no happy ending (as always tbh), death & grief, implied car accident,

A/n : I sobbed while writing this. This is super short but I hope you'll enjoy reading💗

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It all happened so suddenly.

It wasn’t supposed to end like this…

You were supposed to marry Deacon and live a long and happy life. But fate was cruel and Deacon was soon left with nothing but the ghost of you.

The half finished cup of coffee you had left behind that morning and your favourite blanket laying on the couch, the same way you left it. If only you had known…

Deacon was at work when he got the call, you were DOA. You hadn't even made it to the hospital. Hearing that he felt like he was about to puke. You were so happy that morning, you both had plans to grab dinner after his shift and discuss the wedding plans. No one saw it coming. No one could have known. Despite having seen and heard horrible things Deacon felt his heart drop even more hearing what the nurse was saying. He hadn’t even noticed but Hondo took the phone from him and talked to the person on the other line. Deacon just stood there in silent shock staring at the floor. He was still as a statue while trying to come to terms that you were gone so soon.

After that everything was a blur for Deacon. The funeral and everything that followed later on. He could see everyone's looks of pity and he hated it. He tried to be strong knowing that was what you would’ve wanted. But it was so hard to stay strong after such a tragedy of losing someone you loved. Deacon couldn't bear to move your things or even sleep in the bed you used to share. He hoped it was all some bad nightmare and that he would wake up soon with you curled up in arms sleeping soundly. But that never happened.

He felt like your ghost was haunting him. He saw you everywhere he looked. Whether it was your favourite coffee shop or favourite brand of cereal. He saw you everywhere. He could swear that one night he dreamt of you. You were safe in his arms laughing at some sort of joke or story he was telling. If only life wasn’t as cruel to take you away so soon. He truly planned on marrying you and having kids with you and growing old together. Deacon would never forget the sound of your laughter and voice which haunted him like a ghost.

THE END

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THIS FIC WILL BE NOTHING BUT PURE ANGST & EMOTIONAL DAMAGE

here is a small snippet from a new Deacon Kay fic for my song fic series 🫶

I will post this soon I promise 🫡

(yes I cried the whole time I was writing) my fav line is the last one btw :)

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David 'Deacon' Kay with wife reader. Their kids want to give their parents a surprise after the hard days the couple had. You decide how it goes. Fluff and sweet . Thanks!! :))

Title : Bad days, kids & surprises 

Summary : After a few too many bad days at SWAT HQ, yours and Deacon’s kids decided to throw you both a surprise. But it didn’t work out like expected, since it led to a mini disaster. 

Warnings : none I think? Just pure fluff  & comfort, might be slightly OOC :)

A/n : ahh I love this idea sm! Anon you are amazing for this!!!! I genuinely enjoyed writing this. If anyone has any ideas/requests then my ask box is open :) BTW Annie doesn’t exist in this fic, so Deacon and Y/n have kids of their own, if that makes sense. Sorry for how short this is but I genuinely don’t have the energy to write anything longer atm 😕🥲

Word count : 638

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The last few days at SWAT HQ were chaotic to say the least. With many suspects to catch and missions to complete, you and Deacon barely got to spend time with each other and with your kids.

Noticing how busy you both were, your kids decided to throw you a tiny celebration, since they recently overheard that Hicks was going to give everyone on 20 Squad a few days off to relax and spend time with their families.

It was around 7pm when the both of you finally got home. The kids were already supposed to be sound asleep, but to both of yours and Deacon’s surprise the lights in the house were still on. Deacon wrapped an arm around your shoulders, leading you towards the front door. “Let’s see what the little rascals are up to now.” He smiled while trying to find his keys. 

But before he could even open the door one of your kids - Lila. Appeared with a massive grin on her face. “C'mon we made you both something!” She exclaimed while grabbing Deacon’s and yours hands and tugging you both towards the kitchen.

Deacon shared a worried look with you. That sparkle in Lila’s eyes meant that they were probably up to no good while they were alone. The kitchen was dark until Matthew and Samuel jumped up from behind the kitchen island yelling. “SURPRISE!” While gesturing to a small cake on the table. 

The cake looked delicious and it had pink icing on it with white letters saying “WE LOVE YOU MOM & DAD!” Lila then said that she was the one who picked out the frosting colour while the boys wrote the lettering on the top. Seeing the cake and the excited looks on your kids faces, you could feel your heart melt at their sweet gesture.

Looking around the kitchen you finally saw the mess… They hadn’t had the time to clean up so the kitchen looked like a tornado went through it, with dishes and baking pans and pink frosting on the counter tops & walls. How was that possible? You didn’t truły know, but you figured it would be best if you didn’t know how. 

“Thank you, you're all so amazing and sweet.” Deacon smiled while crouching down to Lila's height and hugging her tightly, while holding out his other arm so the boys could join the hug. Samuel tugged on your T-shirt so that you’d also join the hug. You kissed all of your kids foreheads with a grateful smile. You and Deacon shared a small look over their heads that said “What did we do to deserve these amazing kids?”

Lila soon pulled away and so did Matthew. “C’mon let’s try the cake! It took us so many tries to get it right.” He said excitedly, Lila and Samuel agreed and Lila even jumped up and down excitedly. Standing up straight Deacon said “Kids, go wash your hands first and then we can have some cake!” While looking over at you with a grin. 

You truly didn’t deserve such sweet kids, they knew that work was hard recently so they decided to make you both a cake. Eying the state the kitchen was currently in you shook your head fondly with a small smile. You’d deal with the mess later but for now, you just decided to enjoy some time with your husband & kids after the recent week. 

Deacon reached over and grabbed your waist pulling you into a hug before kissing you on the lips while muttering “What did we do to deserve such sweet and amazing kids?” Pulling away you whispered “I don’t know honestly,  but we are so lucky to have three amazing angels. And I’m so lucky to have such an amazing and supportive husband.” You smiled at him, while Deacon kissed you again.

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lol someone pls stop me before I make ANOTHER new tumblr & ao3 account 😃

(yes i had a different tumblr & ao3 account for a while but i ended up deleting both bc i didn't like what i wrote/posted 🫠)

can someone genuinely talk me out of making a new account? since it's SOOO tempting like 👹👹

I kinda wanna restart (as in delete all of my posts & change everything like my theme, pfp and overall style) 😭

it's also tempting to just make a new acc & start from new but I'm waaaay to emotionally attached to this account 🧍‍♀️(& my username since I love JJ sm)

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so I just wanted to say- OH MY GOD???!!!!

I've never received this many kudos & hits on a fic 😭🥹

THANK YOU SMMMM!!!! (pls im gonna go cry rn)

(ik it may seem silly or weird or whatever but to me it's a big deal since I didn't know so many people would be interested in reading my writing 🫶🫶🫶)

AHHH THANK YOU ALL SM!!!!!

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The final farewell & stuffed animals - Task Force 141 x MacTavish!Reader

Based on this idea :)

Task Force 141 x MacTavish!Reader (Y/n is Soap’s 8 year old sister)

summary : After Soap’s death the 141 met his baby sister Y/n. If only they could've met her in a different place and at a different time…

warnings : very angsty, Soap dies, no happy endings, crying, funerals, not beta read 

a/n : hi so this is my first time writing anything for Call of Duty so please go easy on me, since I know this isn't the best but I just thought that this prompt would fit :)

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After Soap died, the 141 found out that he had a family. Since Soap never really mentioned anyone they were surprised to find out that he had an eight year old sister. They never met her- they only saw a picture of her after they looked through Soaps things after his death. He kept a small photo of her smiling while sitting on a small cliff in the middle of his notebook. The photo was probably taken somewhere in Scotland when he took some time off from the military.

It was Price’s idea to have a small funeral for Soap instead of just spreading his ashes like they originally wanted too. They thought it would be best if they allowed his sister and mother to say a final farewell and see him one last time. Contacting Soap's mother was the hardest thing that they ever had to do.

Fighting Makarov and seeing the horrors they saw on the daily was awful- but seeing how Johnny’s mother collapsed onto the floor sobbing after finding out she lost her oldest child. It was soon arranged to have Soap’s funeral at a small church in the town he grew up in.

They never saw Soap’s sister Y/n until the funeral. She was wearing a black dress and hugging a small teddy bear who was wearing an army uniform. Johnny’s mom soon explained that Y/n had gotten the teddy bear from her brother right before he joined the military so she would always remember him.

Upon seeing Soaps open casket Y/n ran up to the steps and leaned over it. Tears were pouring down her cheeks upon seeing her brother laying there so still and motionless. He had a bandage around his head to cover up the wound from where Makarov had shot him. “Johnny- you have to wake up! You have to wake up!” His sister cried hoping this was all some sick prank and that her brother would wake up and yell that it was all a prank and that he was okay. 

But he never did.

Soap was gone. 

Upon seeing Y/n sob over Soap’s casket her mother rushed up trying to pull away the little girl. Before she managed to pull the Y/n away, she stood up on her tippy toes and reached over to place her beloved teddy bear in the casket with Johnny.

When Y/n’s mother tried to take the bear back and give it to her, Y/n just cried out. “No! Please- he needs it. He’ll be scared all alone, he hates the dark. He hates the dark, I don’t want him to be alone.” She just cried uncontrollably.

Ghost could feel the tear gathering in his eyes, he was usually an emotionless man but upon seeing his best friend's little sister cry like that he could feel his heart snap into tiny pieces. Price even wiped away a few tears upon watching Soap’s mother pull Y/n away from the casket and into her arms gently reassuring the little girl that Soap was now safe and that he was okay.

After the short service Johnny’s mom insisted on the 141 coming over to at least rest for a bit before they went back to where they were staying. Y/n was sitting in front of the dark fireplace silently, she was hugging her knees to her chest while tears poured down her cheeks. Gaz looked over at Soap’s mother silently asking if it was okay if he tried to talk to Y/n, she just nodded and whispered “Go ahead.” with a sad smile.

Gaz sighed and after looking over at Ghost and Price he took a deep breath and approached Y/n sitting down on the floor next to her. “You’re Gaz right?” She sniffled while looking over at him with red teary eyes. “Yes, that’s me. I’m guessing your brother told you a little about us huh?” He questioned her gently. 

“He’d talk about you a lot. All of you. He even promised me that when I got a little older he’d take me to the 141 base and show me around. He promised…” Y/n whispered to which Gaz nodded sadly while looking around the small but cosy living room. “You’re really brave y’know that right?” He asked while gently reaching for a box of tissues and handing them to her. “I was scared. But I tried to be brave for Johnny.” Y/n says while grabbing a tissue and wiping away some tears. “Well you did an amazing job sweetheart. I know that he’s very very proud of you” Gaz said with a gentle smile.

“I gave him my teddy bear. Before he was deployed for the first time, Johnny took me out to the city and we went to the build-a-bear store and he allowed me to pick a teddy and some clothes for it. I still remember it since I’ve carried that bear with me ever since. I gave it to him since I know that now he needs it more than me. He hates being alone in the dark and I don’t want him to be scared.” She sniffled to which Gaz nodded sadly.

Ghost and Price were listening in from the kitchen and their hearts broke hearing what Soap’s baby sister was saying. She gave him his favourite toy since he felt like now he would need it more than her.

“Gaz? Do you think that he’s proud of me?” Y/n asked him curiously while wiping away some tears. Gaz nodded in response. “I know that he’s very very proud of you Y/n. You were very very brave.” He reassured her while hugging her tightly. 

THE END.

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Alarm - Jennifer 'JJ' Jareau x Fem!Reader

Prompt : waking up their partner when they sleep through the alarm.

Warnings : none ig?

A/n : ahhhh I haven't written for JJ in ages 😭 if anyone has any requests for JJ, please send them in! 

word count : 415

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It was no secret that you were an early bird. Always up early, which would sometimes irritate JJ since she wanted to sleep in but you had a million things to do and had to get up early. 

Until one day you decided to stay in bed a little longer while holding a sleeping JJ in your arms. Smiling down at her sleeply face you kissed her forehead while your finger absentmindedly traced shapes onto her shoulder.

Then her alarm started to go off buzzing loudly but JJ didn't even move. She just mumbles something under her breath and cuddles into you even further. Gently poking her shoulder, you said. “Jayje it's time to wake up. Honey, your alarm is going off.” JJ just shook her head and mumbled something inaudible again.

Grinning to yourself you held her tightly while whispering into her ear. “I know you don't want to get up JJ but you have to. Your alarm has been going off for a good 15 minutes.” In return she just grumbled “Five more minutes.” Before pulling the covers over her head and falling back asleep again. Seeing how sleepy she was you couldn't help but let out a soft giggle at her behaviour. 

JJ just pouted under the covers hearing you laugh. “You're mean.” She glared at you jokingly while sitting up to pout at you. “You're so adorable when sleepy.” You gently kissed her cheek making her lean in to kiss you on the lips. “Now c'mon let's get up- it's 9am on a Saturday and I'm not about to let you lay all day in bed on your only day off.” You kissed her forehead before getting out of bed and heading to get ready. In protest JJ groaned and fell back onto the pillows dramatically, even if she knew you were right she couldn't help but be a little dramatic. “Cmon I'll make you pancakes! Your favourite- with Nutella and strawberries.” You called while heading to the kitchen.

Before you knew it you could hear JJ getting out of bed and rushing to the bathroom to get ready. “I love you honey.” She shouted while changing and brushing her teeth quickly. You just called back “I love you too Jayje now hurry up or else I'll let Henry lick the bowl after the batter.” You threatened jokingly, knowing you'd never do that since JJ would be pouting for the whole week if you did so.

Mornings like this were perfect. 

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Bad Omens - Deacon Kay x Fem!Reader

Based on the song “Bad Omens” by 5SOS

This is part of my ‘song fics’ series :)

Summary : You'd always come in second place to Annie. Maybe you were right. This relationship was a mistake and you should've listened to the warnings. Since he'll always love somebody else..

Warnings : angst, angst, angst & once again angst. no happy ending, breakups, (Deacon gets back w Annie), in this fic Annie & Deacon don't have kids !!!, heart break, talks/mentions of cheating?

NOT BETA READ!

A/n : the fanfic writer curse has really been kicking my ass recently :’) so I wasn’t posting any fics for a while bc of it. But anyways enjoy and as always this is just based on my interpretation of the song/lyrics :) (yes I am incapable of writing a happy ending currently🥲) I might rewrite this someday since I'm not 100% happy with how this has turned out.

word count : 672

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Honestly you should've seen it coming. You always knew you'd come second place to Annie. Deacon's high school sweetheart and “one true love”

Deacon always talked about her a lot since they were still good “friends” Even his coworkers would talk about her a lot. You knew you could never compare to Annie, since she was prettier and smarter and just- more Deacon’s type….

You tried your best to get along with Deacon’s friends, since you loved him so much and you wanted this relationship to work out. 

One day you decided to visit Deacon at the SWAT HQ and bring the team some cookies. Walking towards the HQ kitchen you overheard Deacon talking about you. Pausing you stood still listening in to what was being said. 

“I mean I love Y/n but- she's just not Annie yknow? Annie was always so happy and sweet while I feel like recently Y/n has been pulling away from me. What if she's cheating on me?” Deacon said aloud. He had no idea you heard him. You could feel like crying and your heart dropped to your stomach hearing his words. The man you loved so deeply just accused you of cheating on him.

Quickly turning on your heel you rushed out of HQ still holding the plate with cookies you brought. Getting into your car you drove away towards a nearby beach to sit and think.

You always felt like you were in second place in David's life, but hearing him accuse you of cheating just made you feel even worse. Maybe agreeing to this relationship knowing how much he still liked Annie was a mistake...

Deciding to pull out your phone you sent him a quick text saying “We need to talk. It's important.” Before putting your phone on ‘do not disturb’ and driving home. 

Deacon was already waiting at home for you with a worried look on his face and upon seeing you he started asking a million questions as to where you were. 

“I think we should break up.”

You interrupted him, Deacon's face fell and he looked hurt and confused. “But I thought-” You just shook your head no. “This isn't working. I'll never be first place for you. It'll always be Annie since she's your first and only true love. I overheard what you said at the station and I just can't keep doing this. I can't keep on feeling like I'm less important to you.” You said while wiping away a few tears. 

“Y/n sweetheart….that's not true. I love you and you're my number one girl. Annie is just a friend to me. I've known her for so long it wouldn't make sense for me to just cut her off suddenly.” Deacon said while frowning. 

“I'm done. I'm sorry Deac, I'll go pack my things now. I'll come grab the rest of my stuff tomorrow.” You said while heading further into the house and towards your shared bedroom before grabbing a bag and packing some essentials while Deacon just watched with pure heartbreak and anguish written all over his face. “But we can still be friends right?” He asked nervously to which you shook your head. 

“I think it's for the best if for now we don't contact or see each other for some time.” You replied while zipping up your bag. “I'm sorry David.” You said softly while kissing his cheek one last time before heading out of the door. 

It wasn't fair to either you or Deacon. You knew he always loved Annie more. I mean she's perfect…

-

A few weeks later Deacon and Annie started to date again and seeing their new photos on the social media platforms you were still following Deacon on, you felt like crying. You always knew it would probably end up like this. You'd get your heart broken and Deacon would end up with Annie. But at least you broke the cycle of constantly getting your heart broken every time Deacon sang praises about Annie right…?

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Get ready for some new angsty fics 💪💪💪

I have a ton of ideas (most of them are for my song fic series, but some are just normal fics that aren't from my series)

I'll try and post smth tonight since I do have some (currently unfinished ones) 🫶

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I kinda wanna restart (as in delete all of my posts & change everything like my theme, pfp and overall style) 😭

it's also tempting to just make a new acc & start from new but I'm waaaay to emotionally attached to this account 🧍‍♀️(& my username since I love JJ sm)

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All I see on my fyp is angst🥲

But same here bc as soon as I open the app I begin to cry over some random mcu edit (it doesn't even have to be a sad edit I just rlly miss them ☹️🥲)

I just saw an edit of Natasha & Yelena to "forwards beckon rebound" By Adrianne Lenker :((

And all I can say is that I'm crying- it's beautiful but so sad :( (especially with the lyrics "villain and violent, infant & innocent. Baby both arms cradle you now.") SINCE IT IS SO THEM!!!

Please stop this absolute madness /j (pls don't since I love sad edits shhdhdhd)

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I just saw an edit of Natasha & Yelena to "forwards beckon rebound" By Adrianne Lenker :((

And all I can say is that I'm crying- it's beautiful but so sad :( (especially with the lyrics "villain and violent, infant & innocent. Baby both arms cradle you now.") SINCE IT IS SO THEM!!!

Please stop this absolute madness /j (pls don't since I love sad edits shhdhdhd)

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you write for Natasha too?? 😭😭 oh my, i remember last year when i was sending you CPD/Erin requests. I would've never guessed you also like marvel. 🥹🫶🏻

yesss I do!!! (I still need to add her to my "who I write for post") but I do also write for her!

omg I remember that 🥹🫶 and I've been obsessed with marvel for years but I haven't posted anything marvel related in ages 😭😭

I love Natasha sm and she was actually one of the reasons I started writing fanfiction. ❤️🥹