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Summer left and you did too

[lbellefemme]

I miss you so much

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[lbellefemme]

This world scares me

Im so broken

Inside

I don’t think I can give dating another shot ever again

I don’t think I can do it again

I’m so disappointed and it fails me

I don’t want to fall in love ever again

I don’t wanna talk to someone ever again

I can feel it in my bones

Im traumatized

Im unpure

I’m not me

I wanted love and found something evil

I’m never going back to that

I hate it

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I’ve gotten so good at masking my emotions, i don’t know how I truly feel anymore.

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I woke up at 4 am

at war

just to cry over you

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we just stoppdtalking one day

I felt free

deep down, i just wanted him to be better and treat me better

I deserved a better goodbye

[lbellefemme]

i lost him

he chose to move on and not fight for me

😔

not my true love after all

[lbellefemme]

Im afraid im broken

Im afraid i might never fall in love again

[lbellefemme]

bruh, just wanted to end things in good terms 🙄

[lbellefemme]

So, I fell inlove with this guy. I wrote so much about him. It’s over between us now and I feel lighter not staying in a confusing situation. It was a horrible experience but not really. That era felt like war and love and unrequited love, words left unsaid, and feelings unarticulated. Quiet humorous to think about it. His name was Robin; like the bird, like the villain. We met each other when we were 23 and never met again when we were both 25. I learned so much staying in that situationship. I’m proud of myself for leaving. Some part of me still feels glued to him hoping he leaves me for good yet longing for him. It’s weird but it takes 2 to tango. I hope he mans up. I pray he finds the woman worth loving. I hope he heals. I hope love flows within him. I pray that gentleness comes in him. I pray he forgives himself and forgive those who’ve hurt him. As my last act of love, I love him from a distance.

As a woman, i learned that I have it in me to love unconditionally. All the people i’ve loved remain in my heart and it’s my happiness to see them happy. As a woman, i also learned that my love for my lovers are conditional, I can’t lead a relationship. I can only reciprocate and I only am a reflection. No matter how much love I want to give I always tend to put myself first. I’m good at letting go but sometimes i do tend to overthink my own words and actions and question myself if I did enough. But that’s not a 1 person job.

Cheers to better tomorrows.

Stay kind, stay pure, stay flowing in love.

With love,

Cleo

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dear robin,

I may not be your person and you may not be mine, but thank you. You were my getaway person, i felt happy when im with you… you make the air seems cleaner when i breathe it in the moment i get home.

Kissing you was nice especially last time where i felt like you missed me the way i missed you. I don’t trust your words and your actions - you can’t blame me, you’re a fuckboy. But i also didn’t care; i just liked every second with you.

It was an ick when you said you loved me three times but i liked it when you called me baby before i left your car. I loved your scent , bleu de Chanel; i loved how you liked the bracelet I gave you although i know you won’t wear it though you said you would. I liked how you wish i told you when i bought plan b after the first time we met.

It was all fake love and sex but i didn’t feel empty.

You’re not my person and i’m not yours but it’s okay, honestly. My memories with you were great and would be nice to look back at. Let’s keep it that way.

I wish you well

🫶🏻

[lbellefemme]

[lbellefemme]

we were each other’s maybe,

maybe before we find the people right for us

It was whatever

But i really liked you tho

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…

goodbye my sweet boy

[lbellefemme]

I broke up with him today

I was crying for weeks before i had the guts to do it

To accept the fact that i might never see him again

My love

My oh so love

I loved you so much

You have no idea

That im scared i might never fall inlove with anybody ever again

I love you Robin

Goodbye

Happy Birthday 🎈

[lbellefemme]

casi algo

almost something