lazylonelygirl

[lazylonelygirl]

I want to spread love & positivity 

I wish I could

( this gif is so me btw)

[lazylonelygirl]

I want to look in his eyes for hours and not even getting tired of it

I want him to look me in the eyes like i was the only woman on this earth

i wanna be loved & i wanna love

[lazylonelygirl]

Life Report at 12am :

I used to hang out with people, nice people, too nice.

i kinda liked them i guess but i didnt loveee them.

i was too different 

But there was this other group of people that were more like me,  more crazy, likely to do fun, crazy & stupid things, like smoking weed. haha though i didn’t mind

So I slowly started to hang out with them at school and they are really nice, however i don’t feel completely part of them, they often throw parties but never invite me.

Maybe I am too weird, maybe i’m trying too hard to be liked, maybe i’m not being myself with them, i want them to like me.

I am stupid, i tried too hard, i’m not good enough.

I am so lonely

pathetic

i hate myself so much, i understand why they don’t like me,

i am an horrible, worthless, disgusting, ugly, stupid, mean girl.

I was stupid.

I am stupid.

I will always be stupid

[lazylonelygirl]

they say be strong

like it was easy

i can’t go through this alone 

i need help

but I’m too shy to ask for it

Didn’t you notice ?

You always said that you will be here for me

you never showed me the love i needed 

i am so lonely 

i need you, i want you, i miss you

i guess i was just a meaningless friend among others

When you asked me if i wanted to talk about my depression, i told you that it was fine and that i didnt need to, but my eyes were telling the opposite.

Didn’t you notice ? I hoped you would insist

iamsorry

[lazylonelygirl]

looking at myself on this mirror, i wanna break it

i don’t like myself

why can’t i be like anybody else

i am different

and people don’t seem to appreciate it

so why would i ?

[lazylonelygirl]

Eye contact : how souls catch on fire.

[lazylonelygirl]

That feeling, after a long period of depression, when everything is fine...

But you end up ruining everything.

[lazylonelygirl]

Sope needs more appreciation.

[lazylonelygirl]

‘’ I trusted you, I confided in you... And you, you played with my heart, destroyed it and abandoned it.

You made my paranoia grow

You knew... you knew how much I've been hurt in the past

You acted like you cared while in fact you didn’t.’’

[lazylonelygirl]

Introducing

Aloha everyone

On this blog, idk yet what will be on it but it will probably be related to bts, music, etc. 

This will be a ‘’cosy’’ blog.

Hope that you’ll all enjoy it 

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