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I had a whole whopper of a bad dream where I had to go to jays place to get some of Amy's stuff and also had to explain to their ghost that they were dead and my amygdala is ON NOTICE.

I am going to make some fancy cocoa and toast. Merr cridmus.

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Hahaha! KIDDING!

I am genuinely ready to cry about this.

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I'll be damned

2. I do not want to be at work I want to be progging the alliance raid :(

3. I was too lazy to get water last night and scraped the hell out of my throat taking my pm meds :(

4. work should be quiet enough that I brought in my Switch and might start a new farm in Stardew? I have it on my phone too but the controls are HELLA awkward

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Meg: like I know they can't control the post office and all that but also I'm sort of deflecting all the /gestures around at festive holiday trauma/ to not getting the pen tomorrow and I feel a bit clown.jpg about it

Meg: isn't it fun to be nuts AND self aware 🤡

I'm also a bit mad about it because I ordered the pen on the 15th before their cut off for cridmus delivery and now it's gonna take a festivus miracule.

On a less objectively insane note I don't really think my sleep has improved a hell of a lot but I took a shower and washed my hair this am and made dumplings and some rice and pork belly for lunches so I GUESS???? And I've been keeping up my dumb symptom log and walking a bit more. So I guess things are doing a little better?

bro don't lie to me bro come on (*꒦ິ⌓꒦ີ)

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bro don't lie to me bro come on (*꒦ິ⌓꒦ີ)

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ITS SOLSTICE

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WORK EARBUDS MOMMY DOESNT WANT TO DEAL WITH U POOPING OUT THE WEEK BEFORE CRIDMUS

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who has 20$ to spare for an idiot who left their keys at work

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I thought I slept okay last night but considering the amount of time I've spent trying not to doze off today MAYBE NOT. I worked the rest of the cuff on my sock and I'm still mad I'm hitting sock gauge on a 3.75mm needle.

Why are the last two days before Solstice so -- well I would say long but I suppose it's the nights that are long technically. But it does feel like pushing the gas to get up a steep hill and wondering if you're going to make it before suddenly: you're at the top. I don't know what I'm trying to express but like, the problem is not that the darkest hour is before dawn, but that the hour before dawn feels so damn long. I'm tired mostly, I think. I miss telling stories.

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Coworker called out again and I'm very tempted to just like accidentally forget to take out the trash with my delicious stinky kimchi container (I splurged on odeng soup from the Korean place by campus for lunch because it's so grey and rainy, and their kimchi is home made, super tasty, and fermented as it can get) but I guess I'll be nice.

Still not sleeping GREAT but at least I'm sleeping

OKAMI SEQUEL means the original game is on sale for five dollars so if you like ink painting, Japanese mythology, dogs, and whacking things gleefully this is the game for you

and then ff12 went on sale again AND they put graha tias outfit on the cash shop AND level skips to 90 are on sale (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻

of the three I'll probably get a skip to Paladin because it's still sitting sadly at 16 since I hate the job NPCs so much, and Grahas stuff isnt on sale so I'll probably get it next month but it IS rude to have the level skip and FF12 on sale on steam at the same time. I have it on Switch but they definitely assumed you'd be playing it hooked up to a TV

I started a sock because I'm waiting for a 16 in circ to work on a hat and as far as I can tell I'm gonna get gauge on a US 5 needle. No, I don't want to talk about it.

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Obviously if you have something better to do with your money do it but if you wanna chuck me a fiver so I'm not entirely buying my own gift from Amy it would improve my day. (They got me my jetpens cart with the LAMY dark lilac and some planner stuff i want. [Mom is chipping in for the hello kitty kaweco sport, but that dumbassery is on me] but I'm not worried about that cause--

Meg: hey if you're gonna call out again let me know before seven am okay

Troy: I'm not gonna call out don't worry

boss, at four am: Troy called out

Meg, to their phone: fortunately for you turkeys I've been up since two thirty staring into the void anyway.)

(I am not enjoying this lmao )

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HAPPY BOOB REMOVE ANNIVERSARY TO MEEEEE

haven't regretted it for a minute even on week three of Drains while I was having what you might call a festive seasonal meltdown at my parents house.

cake:

On this blessed day i would like to shill for @heulevescant's gofundme so they can also join us blessed to only wear one fucking shirt in August:

https://www.gofundme.com/f/airy-get-top-surgery

🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

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excuse me Facebook messenger I realize you are a piece of shit but why are you a piece of shit when I'm extorting cake money from Older Sis???? Tomorrow is one year of booblessness and I gotta make my own damn party

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Meg: I NEED EIGHTY DOLLARS IMMEDIARELY

Meg:

there's a pearl pink one too 😭

Neveth: NO. DONT DO THIS TO ME. Meg: bitch if mommy suffers you all suffer with me

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This sounds like a joke but I just remembered the digimon Christmas album and got really sad.

LIKE, this would be endurable if it was simply regular ass entropy but when you realize it's because at least two people have died stupid young that every year the amount of people who know why it's funny to slam into a group chat and scream "BABY! 😏KURISUMASU DA ZE👉🏻👉🏻" drops, you really do start crying about it on the bus lmao.

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among many many MANY things I do not enjoy about my brain is how, if someone points out a symptom I've gotten used to as background noise, suddenly that's all I hear