lavenderbythelune

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i cannot hate myself into a version of me i will love.

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PSA:

1. If you are not silly, it is vital you become silly

2. If you are silly, you must stay silly

2. If you used to be silly but have stopped, you must make all efforts to return to silliness

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adhd paralysis sucks bcuz im just sitting there and my brain is like

YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME YOU ARE WASTING TIME

no work done no rest gained. literally no point of this at all

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Hi!

Im your star wish festival person :3! I do have a few questions for you if you don't mind.

-What are your favorite tropes?

-Is there a particular characterization you want to see cross and nm as?

-would crossmare still be allowed if it's a uncorrupted person of nm (not passive/a child) but just him with no powers? Wanted to know if I can possible to something with that.

-when you mean bsp, do you want all of them? Or like killer, Horror, Dust. Or is it plus cross and nm??

Ty uwu

Hi!

I put bsp as an option if you didn't want to focus on crossmare. I like basically any ship within the bad sanses (Error can be included), so you can use any configuration of dating/just friends/found family

One of my favourite tropes is fighting against fate/ what they've been told they need to do. So maybe Cross is a hero that has to kill NM but they end up falling in love/ Cross realises who the real problem is. Or fighting a curse or a seemingly inevitable outcome. Obvs your story doesn't have to follow this if this doesn't spark any ideas.

Nightmare can totally be uncorrupted if you want him to be! I would prefer he considers himself 'evil' in some way (either for his own actions or bc of what hes been told), but definitely not his canon 'personification of pure evil'. With Cross you can do want you want!

I hope this was enough info!

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Random Bad Sanses rambles/headcanons cause te horrors are horroring and I need a positive outlet! :D

(If I've said some of these before sorry not sorry?)

I like to think Nightmare's corruption goop is perpetually cold and by that he himself is always cold. He can be found sitting by the fireplace a lot and bundled up in blankets with a hot drink

Killer would make sure Nightmare is always warm, whether that be through supplying him with blankets or cuddling with him (which Nightmare would take some getting used to that)

I think him being perpetually cold is a good show of him being the moon brother, and maybe then Dream is always warm?

Dust and Horror don't travel outside of the castle much unless they're on a mission, with the only exception being when Dust wants to visit Fell and when Horror wants to visit Saejun

Killer is ALWAYS out doing something. He can't stay cooped up in the castle for too long or he'll get antsy and start picking fights with people just to entertain himself

Aside from visiting his friends in the Omega Timeline (Passion, Plum, Fresh, Ink, Color etc.) he likes to just drop in random AUs and try to blend in. He's definitely the people watching type

Hed just sit on a park bench and watch, maybe even feed the ducks while he's there. I think he'd like the park ducks :3

I like the idea of Killer just being a general animal lover, cats just happen to be his favorite

Killer at first would be an absolute asshole to any new recruits to Nightmare's team (minus Horror cause even he knows better than to fuck around with him) but once he gets to know somebody well and cares for them he'd do anything for them

I think all of Nightmare's crew would have a strong sense of loyalty, if you mess with one of them you mess with all of them type deal

Even when Cross goes off to do his own thing, they'd still be there if he needed something

When Horror is unable to cook, Cross takes his place. He and Horror are equally good cooks

Nightmare's room is probably elegant but still cozy feeling. He loves the drama but also loves having his place feeling lived in. His bed would be a canopy bed (obviously) and he'd have a thick af comforter with a big fluffy black blanket on top, probably with pillows to match <3

Cross's would be simple, but he'd go insane if he had to live in monochrome again. His room would be warm toned but not much occupying it other than his closet, a plain bed and maybe a desk. He probably has some dirty clothes lying around but not nearly as bad as the others (he has an actual laundry hamper in his room so that's a plus lmao)

Horror's isnt that bad, he just forgets to clean a lot. He tries to keep a system tho, like labeling drawers to tell him where things are and keeping a calender and a whiteboard to help remind him of things. His bed would be more like a nest of blankets and pillows he aranges in a way that's comfortable, and then just flops himself down onto when he's ready to sleep

I've shown what I think Killer's bed looks like before. For one, he sleeps on a mattress on the floor (by choice, Nightmare gave him a bedframe but he didn't want it) and his bed is covered in pillows and plushes and probably a shit ton of cat hair. He does however try to keep to floor and things clean for his cats, he doesn't want them getting ahold of anything dangerous. Probably has a knife collection in a case somewhere safe in his room and also has one of those huge ass cat trees that's built like a little hotel lmao

Dust is the most uncaring about how his room looks. He doesn't see a point in keeping it tidy when he's the only one who goes in there (unless Killer sneaks in to steal his clothes) so Dust's room is your average Sans room. He DOES sleep on a bed frame tho! He's got fuckin back problems, bro can't sleep on the floor!

Error doesn't live in the castle but if he did stay there for a bit he'd probably just room with Nightmare since his room is the least revolting to him (Cross's wouldn't be bad but I feel like Error and Cross aren't really buddies lol)

Error also just enjoys Nightmare's company so there's that too

When Nightmare first finds his castle and it's just him and Killer, before his corruption even starts to fade, he'd make it feel threatening and cold. Dark cool toned colors over the entire thing and the place only lit by moonlight

But once he begins to be himself again, he'd remake the whole place to be more cozy and lived in. Warm reds and purples and magentas all over the castle and he actually turns the damn lights on lmao

Thats all I got for now, I'd honestly love to see what yall think or maybe if you have anything to add (I love seeing yalls input and headcanons jrnfnfnndn)

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“I don’t know what my goals are, no. Thanks for asking.”

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once i beat the depression and the burnout and the anxiety and the loneliness and the exhaustion and the guilt and the awkwardness and the apathy and the low income and the chronic illness and the impatience and the vulnerability and the creative block and the capitalism and the cruelty THEN you'll see

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Reblog if your blog is boopable-safe so you can get all the (probably new) achievements. I don’t care about notes I just want boops

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I love when cross gets put into weird situationships with complicated pining involved (aka, nearly every ship he has LMAOOOO)

(Okay well besides Clue,,,, clue is sweet and I love them, they’re just a little awkward /aff /pos)

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7 8 9?

They're so nerd, and I love so much both...

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Two years?! I’m in!

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picketing terf conferences is OUT, releasing 6000 live crickets into the audience of a terf conference and watching chaos erupt as everyone scrambles to evacuate is IN

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the human stress response seems so maladaptive!

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Important rules/tips I've learned as an adult that helped with anxiety

If people are mad at you, it's their responsibility to tell you, not your responsibility to guess

If they're mad at you in secret anyways, they're the ones in the wrong, not you

If people don't like what you're doing, it's their responsibility to tell you

If they say it's fine when it's really not, they're the ones in the wrong, not you

People are allowed to be wrong about you

If they are wrong about you, wait for them to bring it up, because if you try to, you will inevitably overcorrect

Some people are committed to misunderstanding you. You will not win arguments against them. Yes, even if you explain your point of view. They do not care. Drop it

The worst thing that will happen from a first-time offense is being told not to do it again. Maybe with a replacement if you broke something

You can improve relationships and gauge willingness to talk to you by giving compliments. It's like a daily log-in bonus and nobody thinks twice about it

Most things are better after you sleep on them

Most things are better after you have a meal

Most things are better after you shower

Your brain makes up consequences that are irrational. If the worst DOES come to pass and someone acts like they do in your head, they are overreacting, and you are entitled to say "what the fuck"

If your chest hurts after you feel like you've made a social error, that's called rejection-sensitive dysphoria. It means your anxiety is so bad that it's causing you physical pain, which is a good indicator that you're overreacting. Tense yourself, hold it for 20 seconds, let it go, then find a distraction

If you're suddenly angry at someone after you feel like you made a social error, that's also rejection-sensitive dysphoria. You are going to feel annoyed about it for awhile, but being genuinely pissed off is your anxiety trying to find something to blame to take the responsibility off your shoulders, and getting scared because it can't justify itself. Deep breaths, ask yourself how much you ACTUALLY want to be angry at that person, then find a distraction

"Sour grapes" is more healthy for you than stewing. Deciding you don't like someone who's perpetually annoyed with you, won't talk to you, etc. makes letting go of anxiety over them easier

If people don't like you, they will find reasons to be annoyed with you when they otherwise wouldn't. If people do like you, they will find reasons NOT to be annoyed with you when they otherwise would. People do not ping-pong between the two

You DO have to make a conscious choice not to think about something. If you're having trouble circling back to it, say out loud that you're done thinking about it and why. Then find a distraction

When you're upset, part of you is going to want to make false bids for attention (suddenly texting differently, heavy sighs, etc. but when someone asks you about it, you tell them it's nothing). Do not listen to it. You gain nothing from it except more misery

People like to help people they care about. It makes them feel good about themselves

If you think you're insufferable for needing help, see above. Yes, really. They get a serotonin kick from it

If you think you're insufferable for mannerisms you have, you either have to consciously choose not to do them, or accept that they're part of the package that comes with you. Being apologetic about existing does nothing except make you more miserable

If you do things you don't like when you feel meh about it, it makes it easier to do them when you hate it

If you avoid things you don't like when you feel meh about it, it reinforces and magnifies how bad it feels when you hate it

Seriously. Read those last two points again. If you can make yourself make a phone call when you've got nothing to lose, you will slowly lose that panic you get when you have to make a phone call you haven't prepared for. You do have to CONSCIOUSLY take that step

Hobbies that make you care for something get rid of that nagging feeling that you're not doing enough. Go grow some rosemary

If you don't engage with your hobbies regularly, you will feel miserable, and anxiety will spike

Hobbies are things that give you a bit of happiness. They do not have to be organized or named to do that. Go be creative in something. Play with coins. Make up lists. Start a new WIP

No one cares what you look like

If people point out things they don't like about how you look unprompted, they are being rude. You are entitled to say "what the fuck"

People who like you will find you pretty to some degree. Minor things about your appearance go completely unnoticed. Literally, scars and dots and blemishes do not register to someone who likes your company

You looking at yourself in the mirror is 10x more closely than anyone is going to look at you

If you're anxious about your body type, and you're creatively inclined, make/write an oc with that same shape. Give them nice things and make other characters love them. Put them on adventures. You'll start to see yourself in the mirror more kindly

You care about wording and perfect lines/colors way more than anyone who views your work ever will

Sometimes when you're upset, you're going to feel like not eating. Do not do that. Not eating makes you more miserable

Same with things you normally enjoy. Denying yourself helps no one. You are punishing yourself for being sad. Stop it

Both of these will take conscious decision to break the habit of. Make yourself do it anyways, and it will slowly get easier

And again, to reiterate: If someone is mad at you, it is THEIR responsibility to tell you, not your responsibility to guess

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Nowhere to go but down

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