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Leaving behind Skyhold had not been as difficult as Elliana had initially imagined it would be.

Yes, she worried about leaving everyone there without their symbol. As the Inquisitor, sometimes she wondered if she was better used as a beacon of hope than an actual leader. But she knew that between her advisors, Dorian, Cassandra, the others, they were in capable hands. She trusted that if something were to arise while she was gone, they could handle it.

Dorian had made a face at her when she’d said it would be her and Solas striking out on their own. She’d been vague about what it was they were looking for, wanting to keep Solas’ affairs as private as he wanted to keep them. However, even she knew that the two of them leaving the Inquisition together was bound to raise some rumors.

Not that she minded- she’d helped in all of her friends wishes. Dorian was still grateful for her help with his father. Everyone knew they’d be back.

Just do be careful. I’d hate for the Inquisitor to come back with a broken heart. Dorian had teased her the morning they’d left, but he’d made a point to squeeze her shoulder in support. She knew no matter what, he’d be there.

For now, she rode in comfortable silence beside Solas, occasionally patting her horse or looking out over the scenery around them.

The kiss still played on repeat in her mind, often. Their connection was undeniable, sometimes she swore she could feel it buzzing in her skin when she was near him. But she’d made a promise to him, to give him space and time. And searching for answers about Earl like this, she didn’t want to make it about anything other than what he needed to find.

“How far out are we?” She asked him finally, tilting her head towards him and offering a supportive, friendly smile.

@solas-enaste

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//OOC//: not me finding out that Solas’ voice actor has a cameo?? This is dangerous information. Might have to have him say some Lavellan happily ever after epilogue.

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It had been peaceful, this meadow. It reminded her of her childhood with her clan, having spent much of it wandering the Free Marches. There had been places like this, few and far between. She hadn’t been Arlathan Forest in ages— having gone shortly after Solas took her arm, needing some kind of release or peace after losing him that second time.

She’d been brushing her fingers over the tall grass, letting it curl around her good hand when he was there. All of a sudden, without warning. Without time for her to prepare.

Her breath caught, and for a startling moment she thought she might collapse to the ground.

And it hurt. Oh, it hurt more than she’d ever known to hear his voice. To hear him call her vhenan again. And yet there was joy too. So much joy, and love for this man who stood before her. It took her a second or two, but her choice was made up before she could even consider it.

“Solas…ma vhenan…” she whispered, taking a shaking step forward and shaping her palm to his cheek tenderly, cradling him. Yes she was angry, but there would be time. For now, she wanted to savor this moment.

The day has been long.

Bent over her desk, letters and ledgers spread out around her fingers, she tried to keep her aching eyes open. Elliana had finally received word from Harding…about him. After all this time, after all these rumors and whispers that she’d chased and clung to, her master scout had found him at long last.

She’d been searching for him for years. It had been a quiet hunt, similar to the time she’d spent growing up with her clan, hunting for them. She knew that patience always won out in the end, but after ten years she’d started to grow bitter. Resentful.

It wasn’t who she was.

Then she’d finally caught his trail, sending Varric, Harding, and his new companion after him, sure that this was when she’d get her chance to speak to him. Change his mind. Hell, maybe even yell at him. She wasn’t sure. Their reunion played out differently in her head depending on the day.

Then he was gone again. Locked in the Fade. Slipped from her grasp once again. The pressures of her lingering role as Inquisitor didn’t leave much time for her to process having lost Solas again. She had to keep moving forward. Her friends, the rest of the world, they all needed her to stop this. It seemed to be all she had left sometimes.

Elliana didn’t have much left in her that day. Better to try again tomorrow. She fell into her bed, eyes shut before she even hit the pillows. When they opened again, she was sitting in a meadow of what looked the be Arlathan forest.

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“There is nothing to amend for.” She meant that. Just because she felt the way she did didn’t mean Solas had to. She admired his wisdom, loved his stories, enjoyed his company. All of that could be done without the added aspect of feelings. It would take a while, but if he told her later he did not want this with her, she could push her feelings down. Appreciate the friendship they had.

Elliana would have stepped up for any of her friends. It was, perhaps, a weakness of hers. Always feeling the need to do anything necessary to prove her worth, to keep them. However, in this case with Solas, she was even more willing.

“I’ll be ready at first light.” She promised, slowly taking a step back from him and letting go of his hand.

“Don’t worry about sleep potions. I think falling asleep will not be a problem.” She chuckled softly, as she was so exhausted she figured the second her head hit her pillow she’d be dreaming.

Before she slept, she intended to put together a list of intentions for her advisors. Leliana, Josephine, and Cullen would all see it done, she was sure. She’d also lean on Dorian, no doubt he’d be willing to step up in her absence as well.

“Good night, Solas. Don’t worry. We’re going to find the answers you’re looking for, I promise.” She gave him one last sincere smile before turning and heading back to her room, already making a list in her head for the advisors.

Wherever they were going, she had no doubt this was going to be quite the journey.

Elliana remembered knowing she’d come to speak to Solas. It could have been about whatever mission they’d completed that day, or maybe she’d been looking for more stories to distract her, she wasn’t sure. All she knew was that she’d gone looking for him.

She’d found herself wandering up the steps towards the main castle of Skyhold, only to realize after a moment that she was following Solas. She blinked. She didn’t remember how she’d managed to get there, but if she was with him, surely everything was alright.

It had been several weeks since their evening in the tavern. Despite Elliana sensing that Solas had…reservations…about their close relationship, she couldn’t find it in herself to keep away. She craved his stories, his wisdom, his company. Though she’d been more focused on the missions of the Inquisition, there hadn’t been time for more quiet nights like the one weeks ago.

“So,” She asked Solas as she followed him. “Thank you for taking the time to speak with me.” She was staying somewhat professional. She knew he’d had a long day, he was never obligated to spend time with her, so she wanted to make sure she was appropriately grateful.

@solas-enaste

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Elliana had to fight everything in her being not to touch the corners of his eyes, showing the sincerity of his smile. Every smile he gave her, she felt like she’d managed to win somehow. It was…ridiculous. Or maybe, it was special. Instead, she smiled right back at him.

“Solas, it is my choice to go where I am needed. And the beauty of Skyhold is that I have three perfectly capable advisors and a whole gaggle of companions with opinions. Between all of them, I trust them to make the right decision. I’ll give them implicit instructions, they can take it from there. You are my friend.” She meant that sincerely. “You need me right now. And I choose to be there for you. The world won’t end in the time we’re gone. I assure you.”

She looked down at their hands and squeezed his in turn.

“No expectations. I’m going as your friend, as someone you can lean on while we find out more.” She would honor his wishes. “This is too important not to give it your full attention.”

Elliana remembered knowing she’d come to speak to Solas. It could have been about whatever mission they’d completed that day, or maybe she’d been looking for more stories to distract her, she wasn’t sure. All she knew was that she’d gone looking for him.

She’d found herself wandering up the steps towards the main castle of Skyhold, only to realize after a moment that she was following Solas. She blinked. She didn’t remember how she’d managed to get there, but if she was with him, surely everything was alright.

It had been several weeks since their evening in the tavern. Despite Elliana sensing that Solas had…reservations…about their close relationship, she couldn’t find it in herself to keep away. She craved his stories, his wisdom, his company. Though she’d been more focused on the missions of the Inquisition, there hadn’t been time for more quiet nights like the one weeks ago.

“So,” She asked Solas as she followed him. “Thank you for taking the time to speak with me.” She was staying somewhat professional. She knew he’d had a long day, he was never obligated to spend time with her, so she wanted to make sure she was appropriately grateful.

@solas-enaste

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USEFUL SITES FOR ROLEPLAYERS

Thought I'd make a list of some useful websites for those of us who enjoy roleplaying and what have you here on Tumblr and whatnot.

roleplay formatter: Made by the awesome @rpclefairy. I honestly can't recommend this one enough. Great for adding color, changing the font size, and the whole shebang with bold + italics + underline + strikethrough. 10/10 always use

fsymbols + emojipedia: These are both great for making your tags fancy and whatnot.

alt codes: This is genuinely great for teaching you how to make the symbols with your keyboard for everyday use so there's that. It's especially useful if you and/or your muses speak a second language so that's a bonus.

text color fader: *marge vc* I just think gradient effects on text is neat. *end marge vc*

list of colors (wikipedia): Has a list of an infinite number of colors and their hex codes. Very useful if I do say so, myself. But that's just me.

screencapped.net: Great for getting all sorts of screenshots for making icons, GFXs, promos, and whatnot.

fancaps.net: Also great for getting all sort of screencaps for making icons, GFXs, promos, and whatnot. My only complaint is that it's a little annoying to navigate so here's the proper links to movies, tv shows, and anime.

photopea: Great if you can't afford Photoshop and/or don't like using GIMP.

hakuneko: It's not so much a website as much as it is a program. You can download manga, comics, webtoons, doujinshi, etc. for making your icons, GFXs, promos, and whatnot. It's also just a great way to read stuff and catch up on everything.

Feel free to reblog and add more. <333

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I can’t imagine any of my other elven characters calling their paramour “vhenan”. That term is exclusively for Solas.

Merrill calls a romanced Hawke vhenan, and I’m just… nope nope nope.

Don’t do that.

That’s not your word, Daisy.

He owns it. Only he gets to call me it.

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when I GETCHA 👋

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✨Closure✨

[lies down- i finished it but my brain is still whirring I had to draw happy things]

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Friendly reminder Solas looks directly at the Inquisitor when he says "and seek atonement".

Image from Elf Botanist on Youtube

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I am going through the raw talk table of DA4. This is my (as best I can determine) reconstruction of a deleted scene that happens after the final scene with Solas.

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*weeps loudly*

crying in the data mines rn

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Solavellan Doodles.

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SOLAS || ending slides

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I drew this way back during the first gameplay preview. I’m at the point where I just need Solas and Lavellan to make eye contact in Veilguard. Just LOOK at each other. One more time. 🥲

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𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐢 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝: a little assortment of prompts revolving around painful, bottled up affection and endless yearning, as well as the possible result of finally taking action. remember to tag your dark themes. add +reverse to swap the roles.

[ 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐠 ] : receiver notices sender looking at them longingly. [ 𝐝𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐦 ] : receiver hears sender calling their name while asleep. [ 𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐦𝐭𝐡 ] : sender drapes a coat / cape / etc. around receiver's shoulders. [ 𝐬𝐜𝐞𝐧𝐭 ] : receiver is hugging a coat / cape / etc. that belongs to the sender. [ 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐦 ] : sender is helping the receiver through a panic attack / severe anxiety. [ 𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐝 ] : sender takes a hold of receiver's both hands. [ 𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐭 ] : sender and receiver are spooning for comfort and warmth. [ 𝐚𝐥𝐦𝐨𝐬𝐭 ] : sender and receiver are finally about to kiss, but are interrupted. [ 𝐭𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞 ] : sender and receiver are finally sharing a passionate kiss. [ 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 ] : sender has just found the receiver who's been missing for weeks. [ 𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐬 ] : after being misinformed that the sender has died, receiver is grieving. [ 𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐝 ] : sender is expressing anger over receiver's constant recklessness. [ 𝐣𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐬 ] : sender is voicing their negative opinion about a person who appears to be close with the receiver. [ 𝐦𝐢𝐧𝐞 ] : sender has just told receiver "you belong to me". [ 𝐰𝐡𝐲 ] : sender has just asked receiver "why don't you love me". [ 𝐯𝐢𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐭 ] : sender has harmed someone who threatened the receiver. [ 𝐠𝐫𝐢𝐦 ] : sender has killed someone who threatened the receiver. [ 𝐡𝐮𝐫𝐭 ] : sender has gotten injured protecting the receiver. [ 𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐞 ] : sender is getting frustrated with their repressed affection and asks receiver to leave them alone. [ 𝐜𝐫𝐮𝐞𝐥 ] : unable to handle their fondness towards receiver, the sender lashes out and they end up in a heated argument. [ 𝐚𝐩𝐨𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐲 ] : sender is apologising for appearing cold. [ 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐩 ] : sender is telling receiver they "deserve better than whatever this is".

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🐝  *  ―  𝑷𝑰𝑵𝑰𝑵𝑮 / 𝒀𝑬𝑨𝑹𝑵𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺.

❛  i can't stop thinking about you even when i try.  ❜ ❛  every time i see you, it's like my heart skips a beat.  ❜ ❛  i never realized how much i needed you until you weren't there.  ❜ ❛  do you ever feel like there's something missing ... like a piece of your heart is somewhere else?  ❜ ❛  i wish i had the courage to tell you how i feel.  ❜ ❛  if only you knew how much you truly mean to me.  ❜ ❛  do you ever wonder what it would be like if things were different between us?  ❜ ❛  sometimes i wonder if you ever think about me the way i think about you.  ❜ ❛  i had a lot of dreams about you recently.  ❜ ❛  somehow, you're always on my mind.  ❜ ❛  i think i've been in love with you since the day we met - scratch that, i know i've been in love with you since the day we met.  ❜ ❛  my biggest wish is to hold you close and never let you go.  ❜ ❛  all my life i've felt like a part of me was missing, but with you i've finally found it.  ❜ ❛  you deserve better than who i am right now, but i'm gonna keep trying to become someone you do deserve.  ❜ ❛  every time you smile at me, i get this flutter in my chest.  ❜ ❛  do you think i'll ever be worthy of your love?  ❜ ❛  i want to be the person to make you happy. the one person you can always come to with whatever you need.  ❜ ❛  will we ever get another chance together?  ❜ ❛  you were the best thing that's ever happened to me.  ❜ ❛  my biggest regret is ever letting you go.  ❜ ❛  i'm still in love with you ... and i honestly never stopped.  ❜ ❛  when i wake up in the morning, you're the first person i want to see.  ❜ ❛  every time i wake up, i check if you wrote me another message.  ❜ ❛  i wish i could be as important to you as you are to me.  ❜ ❛  it hurts when you don't talk to me like you used to.  ❜ ❛  i miss everything about you, your touch, your laugh, your smile. i wish i could have that back.  ❜ ❛  i want to fall asleep wrapped in your arms.  ❜ ❛  hold me closer; i always feel safer when you're with me.  ❜ ❛  there's so much i wish i was able to tell you.  ❜ ❛  i know things aren't easy right now, but i want to remain a fixture in your life. after all, you're one in mine.  ❜ ❛  i miss the way you always made me smile.  ❜ ❛  you're the reason i keep holding on.  ❜ ❛  maybe we're supposed so to remain a case of 'right person, wrong time' forever.  ❜ ❛  if only you knew how i feel about you.  ❜ ❛  i'm yearning to hold your hand in mine.  ❜ ❛  i think you are the one for me, and i hope one day i'll be the one for you, too.  ❜ ❛  do you think i'll ever become more than a friend to you?  ❜ ❛  my heart belongs to you, always and forever.  ❜ ❛  my first instinct is to protect you, no matter the cost.  ❜ ❛  i've been thinking about us a lot lately.  ❜