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oh so you want me

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Just had maybe the worst knock-down drag-out with my dad of all time. Some truly unforgivable things were said. I might go no contact. I'm putting this down here so I remember how this felt

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yeah we love the “the trans women gets to feel loved” sexual fantasy but i think we should talk more about the “the dominant trans woman is allowed to be dominant and outright about what she wants without being made to feel like a predator” sexual fantasy

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yes yes "made for each other" is technically more romantic but realistically i was 11 years old when you were born so you were made for me actually

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I miss my friends I miss my house I miss my friends I miss my bed I miss my lizards I miss my friends I miss my hot situationship I miss my friends I wanna go home

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Okay doing better. Really glad I have friends to talk to about this. Also remembering I have ways to soft reset my mental state once I get home (mushrooms, therapy, lesbian bdsm, washing my hair)

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At this point I'm more depressed about how long it's gonna take me to recover from this than anything else. I can feel myself backsliding Hard into my worst coping methods from a decade+ ago, and it's just the first day. Maybe it'll get better but idk. I feel so alienated

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Hard not to spiral. Fucked that for the first time in my life I'm actually feeling proud of myself but it's so obvious that my family sees me as a fucking burnout. They're talking to me about my job with undisguised pity on their faces like fuck off!!! I can literally hear my dad describing how disappointed he is in me from across the table. I want to die.

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4 hours since my family picked me up from the airport. So far:

•My dad is convinced he's gonna die

•He's brought up how disappointed he is in me, specifically how he wishes I would do something better with my life before he dies

•My brother keeps talking about eugenics

•My shitheel cousin is old enough to drink here and immediately got hammered and started shouting that he has herpes in the middle of the restaurant

All in all a million times better than last year

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GIRL I am not sure texting "I want you inside of me" first thing in the morning on valentine's day is friends with benefits behaviour

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HELPPP girl is coming over again with rope this time and I don't know any fucking bondage ties, I'm on whatever the trans lesbian version of seinfeld is

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you meet this poor stray puppy on the street-- do u take her home with you? >_<

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this belongs in an art museum

feat: @kittydollstuff

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it's kinda funny seeing that even on tumblr the vast balance of smut written involving transfems is just not for us. people talking about transfems having big massive girlcocks and huge virile loads to breed people who are always explicitly written as having wombs, and so forth. and sure, there definitely are transfems who fall into that category. most of the transfems i know are much more likely to want to be the ones being bred, by like a ratio of 10 to 1.

do your part: fold a transfem in half until her ankles are behind her ears and fuck her through the mattress today.

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HOLY SHIT I'LL NEVER BE MENTALLY ILL AGAIN

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ignore your responsibilites and fantasize about older women

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Gotta work on my rsd this shit is the pits