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i feel like i do 25% of what an average person does in a day and still it's too much

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It’s about wanting and not wanting: about needing people to pour themselves out into you and then needing them to stop, to restore the boundaries of the self, to maintain separation and control. It’s about having a personality that both longs for and fears being subsumed into another ego; being swamped or flooded, ingesting or being infected by the mess and drama of someone else’s life, as if their words were literally agents of transmission.

Olivia Laing, from The Lonely City: Adventures in the Art of Being Alone

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I've managed to fight my way out of many beliefs my parents instilled in me, but the 'I have to do everything alone and independently and if I fail then I don't deserve to survive' is not going anywhere.

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Hatred, I learned quickly, was the antidote to sadness. It was the only safe feeling. Hatred does not make you cry at school. It isn’t vulnerable. Hatred is efficient. It does not grovel. It is pure power. [...] Soon, my father and I found ourselves alone in this world, and our simmering hatred had nowhere to go but toward each other.

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Maya C. Popa, from Wound is the Origin of Wonder: Poems: “Duress”

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Angela Carter, The Company of Wolves The bloody chamber, and other stories

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I’m being selfish. I’ll be fine.

[latinavelma]

I have been holding on for dear life for weeks now, trying not to relapse. Everything keeps piling on, and my paranoia just keeps getting worst. Here I am, talking into the void, because I don’t feel real or genuine to anyone, and I don’t feel like anyone is real or genuine back. Everyone and everything, including myself, is an imposter.

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What’s the point of anything anymore?

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“I forgive people but that doesn’t mean I accept their behavior or trust them again. I forgive them for me, so I can let go and move on with my life.”

— Unknown

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i should wake up and automatically be restored to full health, that's how sleeping should work, what is this horseshit

[latinavelma]

People who call u without warning for non serious reasons are so scary like if you call me without texting me first im fully assuming you’re in a saw trap or something

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fake idgafer. i saw tht haunted look in ur eyes

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an under-appreciated view.

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i love the phrase "which could mean nothing" i think its my favorite thing to come out of the internet ever i love saying it. it could mean nothing but we all know better. we know the truth.