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♪ ♫ I’ll stay so deep inside your brain And take you somewhere far away

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# 𝚂𝙰𝚅𝙰𝙶𝚁𝚈 .       𝚃𝙷𝙸𝚂   𝚂𝙸𝙻𝙴𝙽𝙲𝙴   𝙸𝚂   𝙼𝙸𝙽𝙴   .    a private and selective roleplay blog for zero from 𝗱𝗿𝗮𝗸𝗲𝗻𝗴𝗮𝗿𝗱 𝟯 ／ 𝗱𝗿𝗮𝗴-𝗼𝗻 𝗱𝗿𝗮𝗴𝗼𝗼𝗻 𝟯, written by lili. writing with mutuals only, 18+ only. dark and triggering themes abound. please read rules before proceeding.

mun: lili, 26 years old, she / her. likes coffee a little too much. abysmal sleeping schedule. chronically ill. please have no expectations of me being consistently active. og drakengard 3 / nier rpc writer, formerly wrote two under the url hatestragedies !

i don’t own drakengard / dod or nier, i don’t own zero, how i write her is how i write her.

i won’t interact with writers who are minors.

i’m down to write a lot of stuff and explore fleshing out all sorts of different types of bonds + relationships for zero, whether that be decided from the start of plotting or by feeling stuff out through threads. duplicates of a character will always be handled differently from one another.

stuff that’s ought to be tagged will be tagged. if you need me to tag something for you, gimme a ping. i’ll never write rape, incest, pedophilia, etc. i have no desire to write any smut. sexual themes are likely to be mentioned considering zero’s sexual libido from her condition as an intoner and her former occupation as an enslaved sex worker. the world of drakengard is extremely dark, even more dark than nier (which it precedes), so please bear in mind that a lot of disturbing themes regarding death, (mass) murder, religion, and a bunch of other triggering themes are within the realm of dod. a google search will make it obvious what else dod entails.

please understand that in-character actions, thoughts, and feelings do not reflect my own thoughts or feelings, and please do not project your feelings about zero towards me (the writer), use your muse to enact your own desires towards my muse, or cross any boundaries with me beyond platonic. no weirdness, please. even if we’re okay with shipping our muses, i have a serious line between what’s in-character and what’s out-of-character, and i will never place my personal investment to that degree. shipping our muses is only between the characters. this may sound just like common sense, and i’m sure plenty of you decent folk are just here for the enjoyment of collaborative imaginary writing as i am, but personal experiences make it necessary for me to explicitly state this.

i do not base my characterization for zero off of how zero is portrayed through the official western localization of the game, and instead on how uchida maaya portrays her. i’m in the camp that the eng localization made tweaks to her that don’t translate well to the source, like making her vulgar and spewing curses in every sentence. i understand and respect if that’s how people enjoy her, but i disagree with the liberties taken in framing her differently, though i am certainly a fan of tara platt!

zero is very problematic, i don’t intend to sanitize it. however, that doesn’t make it impossible for her to be soft or have good things. she is not familiar with it, in giving or receiving, and her affections are often hidden after a life of being taken advantage of and exploited, and in turn, doing wrong against others for what she considers best for her survival. she has the self-awareness to do better but generally has the lack of care to change. given her mission in the story, it’s understandable since by no means is zero a good person or a hero, but she is most definitely not in any realm of black and white “evil”. do with that what you will.

don't steal my shit. everything i've made on my blog thus far is all made by me, gift edits from a friend, or commissioned for this blog, as referenced at the very bottom of my page.

i’m super crossover friendly, i’m down for oc’s, and i love writing with castmates. i will not be interacting with duplicates.

i do use icons and a lil bit of fancy formatting in my writing but you don’t have to, i don’t really care. i’ll turn replies to an ask into a separate post though.

due to chronic illness, work, and other life circumstances, my well-being takes precedence over my hobby. please understand that as i extend the same courtesy to you! i will be putting up announcements if i'll be on low activity, so as to not raise expectations too high of fast replies. i'm always happy to chat in im or dm, or to plot, but writing takes more spoons. never hesitate to ping me for inquiries, plot discussions, dynamic stuffs.

CREDIT TO @poetryrph for my header and pinned banner, and @floragfx for my blog theme, icon psd, pinned divider, post dividers, and promo.

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a creepy and atmospheric audio edit i made of evelynn, was meant to be my pinned audio but i didn’t feel satisfied so all i have is this draft !

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   DO YOU SMELL BLOOD IN THE WATER ?   ―    those who dare to stare in the gaping maw of the beast, enraptured by a gorgon's glow, are never too far from willingly presenting their neck for the slaughter. this delicacy before evelynn, stained with oil-slick darkness as if in an effort to conceal her own bright, venomous spots, instead stares back and begins to bare her fangs. taking the rebuff in good humor, poisoned plum-rouged lips curl to reveal rows of perfect, dangerous teeth, voice carrying clear and sweet despite the noise around them:

   " that may be true, " and it is, because there's little challenge in beckoning any other hot-blooded fool here with the crook of her finger and tilt of her chin to insinuate a good way to end her night, " but i don't want anybody else here. i want you. "

   she leans hard into the role of maiden more than monster, holding her gaze a touch wanton; her posture is slow, subtle, to present itself malleable to her intentions. a hand that snakes to caress her own pale throat, stark even in the bar's dim light, as she angles her head to peer brazenly at the champion still; silken hair gliding like gloss down her neck, framing this devilish face. the sultry curve of her hips, contrast striking intentionally against the small of her waist, are to die for. many have died to touch them and more . . .

   " though you never seem to notice me, so i thought to say hello . . . to introduce myself. i'm evelynn. "

   . . . but not before she had plenty of time to play.

you're in your element: the beaten hound that won the dogfight, washing the blood off your canines with one two three drinks of choice. fuck the maybe broken rib, fuck the fans and opportunists you already snarled at for getting too close, fuck everything but the bottom of a bottle. it's lonely there, but you know that; self-punishment and self-soothing are lovers to you. someone else seems to sense it too, is the thing, or else it's one hell of a coincidence that she approaches you when you're barely one drink in, the lilt of her voice earning your glance and everything else about her in turn holding your stare. ❛ yeah? well, sorry to keep you waiting; i don't dance. ❜

should look away now, but it's something about the intensity in her eyes. it rubs at something raw within you, something you can't place. or maybe you just take everything as a challenge nowadays. press the back of your hand across your mouth to wipe off what remains of your first drink without breaking eye contact. ❛ bet you could pick anybody else here and they'd fold for you, anyway. ❜

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𝐀𝐅𝐅𝐈𝐋𝐈𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 @godled !

mun: lili, 26 years old, she / her. likes coffee a little too much. abysmal sleeping schedule. still relatively a baby to the world of runeterra and league of legends. support main, let's queue together!

i don’t own league, i don’t own evelynn, how i write her is how i write her. 

i won’t interact with writers who are minors.

i’m down to write a lot of stuff and many different types of bonds + relationships for evelynn, and i won’t ever want to force a ship. duplicates of a character will always be handled differently from one another.

stuff that’s ought to be tagged will be tagged. if you need me to tag something for you, gimme a ping. i’ll never write rape, incest, pedophilia, etc. evelynn is a very sexually-charged character in her design beyond just appearance, but i have no desire to write any smut. sexual themes are abound however, as are the evelynn-appropriate triggers and themes of death and murder, blood and gore, sadism, and other themes associated with her brand of horror.

please understand that in-character actions, thoughts, and feelings do not reflect my own thoughts or feelings, and please do not project your feelings about evelynn towards me (the writer), use your muse to enact your own desires towards my muse, or cross any boundaries with me beyond platonic. no weirdness, please. even if we’re okay with shipping our muses, i have a serious line between what’s in-character and what’s out-of-character, and i will never place my personal investment to that degree. shipping our muses is only between the characters. this may sound just like common sense, and i’m sure plenty of you decent folk are just here for the enjoyment of collaborative imaginary writing as i am, but personal experiences make it necessary for me to explicitly state this.

while i will use k/da content as a resource, as it pleases me, my evelynn is mainly based as she is within main canon in runeterra. i may utilize her appearances in other skinlines for multiple purposes, and expand her appearances in those skinlines as well or utilize them for crossovers. eve is very adjustable to other canons and au's; as such,i will be developing my own headcanons and personal meta. don't steal my shit. everything i've made on my blog thus far is all made by me, gift edits from a friend, or commissioned for this blog, as referenced at the very bottom of my page.

borne from the collective suffering of the rune wars and having been nourished by the pain and agony, evelynn stalks, shapeshifts, and seduces her prey with the goal of bringing them to the highest peak of ecstasy and joy before bringing them to their lowest; all to feed on their suffering. evelynn is a master at seduction and luring victims in, but she does not have sex with them and sees no merit in it since she's pretty obsessed with just feasting on their agony. NOW: that doesn't mean she couldn't be shipped with another muse, but keep in mind that i don't write smut and it's situational to the dynamic and what we plotted. evelynn takes the form of what would most attract her victims. her most femme-appearing form takes preference since it's made hunting easier, and is referred to in official material as 'she', but she can look however as she pleases. as such, evelynn is genderfluid and will be referred to on the blog as she/they.

i’m super crossover friendly, i’m down for oc’s, and i love writing with castmates. i will not be interacting with duplicates but for those who write evelynn, i love you and tip my hat to you in our solidarity of worshipping her. <3

i do use icons and a lil bit of fancy formatting in my writing but you don’t have to, i don’t really care. i’ll turn replies to an ask into a separate post though.

due to chronic illness, work, and other life circumstances, my well-being takes precedence over my hobby. please understand that as i extend the same courtesy to you! i will be putting up announcements if i'll be on low activity, so as to not raise expectations too high of fast replies. i'm always happy to chat in im or dm, or to plot, but writing takes more spoons. never hesitate to ping me for inquiries, plot discussions, dynamic stuffs.

CREDIT TO @godled for my icon psd, header, pinned, dividers, and pinned audio art edit. pinned audio art drawn by shmiony. pinned audio edit mix by @riotcommissions.

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there's a camera rolling on her back, on her back and i sense a rhythm humming in a frenzy, all the way down her spine

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Pass the test, taste the flesh Hold me up against the wall Give it till I beg, give me some more Make me bleed, I like it raw

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“…the curious lament of pleasure which sounded as if she were being exquisitely tortured,…”

— Anaïs Nin, from Auletris: Erotica; “Life in Provincetown,” (via violentwavesofemotion)

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All I’ll ever know is life up on a throne

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K/DA RAMBLING .

evelynn is, arguably, the most " human " in her k/da skinline ( among all skinlines yet as of 01/2025 ) but i offer this . . . i imagine she's, in some ways, not too different of a person than who she is in runeterra canon. or, at the very least, she had done some shitty things in the past and still deals with those tendencies / traits . . . all the while we acknowledge how shitty the industry is, of course. colored text will have links to sources.

as referenced in information HERE and HERE: what evelynn is willing to share is how early on, whether in early career or generally throughout her life, she initially shapeshifted without a true connection to herself to fit other people's expectations and secure her place in the world. eventually, evelynn grew resentful of this and used the expectations of her image and beauty against them.

PURE SPECULATION as a writer and eve enjoyer . . . knowing evelynn, she likely harmed and trampled on the backs of people who didn't deserve it and not just the people who contributed to her problems actively. i think a lot of canon resources for the characterizations for k/da intentionally soften evelynn up ( like PR ! ) because k/da isn't here to explore actual compelling, realistic character drama behind the veneer of an empowering girl group.

they're here to sell skins.

so please allow me to analyze what we have so far and expand on what i think is less talked about and emphasize a bit more on what i think k/da sanitizes a bit.

evelynn recognizes her own personal power in being able to be whoever she wants to be, whenever she feels like it, and she has come to terms with her dark side that drives her artistry. she has come to redefine her relationship with herself, and that means accepting her demon, which is herself. but we know what kind of demon evelynn is in canon, so it's not hard to imagine and hypothesize. she's known in the industry to be demanding and not at all a people-pleaser which puts her under the spotlight of controversy often, but she benefits from that too since she has a fanbase of her own called " deeva ". unlike the original evelynn of runeterra, evelynn does value the friendships she ended up making ( even allowing herself to make balanced friendships is a surprise ) and weighs how those very people she is so protective of against her own reflection and motivations. it may very well be those bonds alone that keep her from being worse, or at least have caused her to reflect on who she wants to be now.

the ahri issue of the k/da: harmonies comic confirm that evelynn and ahri have been friends before 2016, at least good enough friends to have private meals together despite tight schedules; this is what led to their formation of k/da. i imagine the constrictions of the industry are what brought them to bond, and it explains evelynn's softness with ahri. as shown in a few other moments in the k/da comic, evelynn is not easy to reach for bonding and can sound more harsh due to her high standards, so it's clear she recognizes and believes in ahri's vision as much as ahri does. she also likely didn't have as much to lose as ahri did by straying from the path set for her despite still building a rising career, as evelynn had mentioned there, but evelynn clearly approved of betraying convention and doing what sounded right for the both of them. all of k/da ( plus seraphine, in their collaboration and tour for all out ) share the common goal of taking their art to the next level and earnestly pursuing their passions the way they want to, even if it means turning heel in different directions.

which, as made obvious in evelynn's message video and the text described above, is exactly up evelynn's alley and it’s the sole message of positivity that she encourages in others, like the moment she had with a fan who stalked her in the comic.

villain, i think, makes sure to remind the audience of who evelynn really is. not because it's what we expect evelynn to be like, as much as we think we do know her, but because it's what evelynn is choosing to focus on regarding her identity and uniqueness ( as akali had mentioned in the behind the scenes interview that the five songs were intended to reflect each respective member ) and as such, evelynn is intentionally presenting herself this way to the audience. the parallel and captivation of beauty and horror embodied in the visuals, harkening to imagery reminiscent of the gorgon / medusa; the shifting and paradoxical, almost claustrophobic scenery, the cold, dusty and desolate world of evelynn’s mindscape where she roams free in leisure and caresses her own claws, and the many lights that never seem to quite reach her in full illumination. only in eery flashes.

evelynn relishes in her confessions that she will always seek being in control, to take risks despite what great danger is ahead. she plays mind games for the fun of it and cares little for the consequences, only for what she will benefit from it. in fact, she even derives enjoyment and pleasure from other's agony and torment . . . just like her runeterra counterpart. this is the part of herself that evelynn tried to hide, which she learned to do with an alluring vision, but denies no longer. she knows who she is at every moment because it’s what she wills herself to be out of nobody’s desire of her own, even if that’s a villain. and she knows her fans love her for it.

evelynn’s music may be the truest form of her expression, in honesty and identity, and it’s why she’s so uncompromising about it.

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   𝐎𝐇, 𝐒𝐎 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐂𝐀𝐍 𝐅𝐄𝐄𝐋 𝐀𝐅𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐀𝐋𝐋 !   ―   in truth, every whisker of sensation she spurns against him from her fingertips are as harmless as a kitten's lick. or, at least, as harmless as any flat, cutting edge is. like most vampir, she stares right at the precipice of his soul. studying this statue that housed his pain, mysterious and tumultuous like a storm at sea; far beyond any other she's sensed yet. she must be let in by one's own will, lest evelynn starves.

     " not your heart, sweetling . . . something else. " cold and dangerous, just like her. beneath blades for lashes, the widowmaker peers at him with a coquettish smile that threatens to burst at the seams with pretty, daggered teeth. good thing that evelynn did understand the virtues of patience, as well as the fruits to feast from it. " if there's something else you're offering, i'll make it worth your while. strange to see such a handsome man all alone . . . "

an unnamable force majeure has his instincts vaulting upon the brusque sensation of beastly talons raking upon nonexistent apical pulse-point—the sinful drag of daggered fingertips emitting a lowly growl from the cavern of his maw, musculature stiffening like a corpse in mortis. a wrinkle of displeasure mars viego’s otherwise faultless complexion as he begins to deduce the gravity of this predicament, ensnared within the she-demon’s clutches—digging sharp enough to present a threat.

“ if you hunger for my heart, i’m afraid there is nothing left of it. ” he does not thaw his movements, remaining still as the seductress roams the bareness of his chest—cold as death itself, without any implication of life nor light, almost as if encrusted with a thin layer of ice. he is a king half-slain by horror and by gloom, swept away from the world of the living by the depths of his own grief and mourning.

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looks at @ninpospell . should i bring her back 🥺

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𝖎'𝖑𝖑 𝖘𝖙𝖆𝖞 𝖘𝖔 𝖉𝖊𝖊𝖕 𝖎𝖓𝖘𝖎𝖉𝖊 𝖞𝖔𝖚𝖗 𝖇𝖗𝖆𝖎𝖓 KDA Evelynn patreon . twitter

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@zauneyed, 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥 .     /     𝘢𝘤𝘤𝘦𝘱𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 !

   𝐀𝐋𝐖𝐀𝐘𝐒 𝐖𝐇𝐈𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆, 𝐀𝐋𝐖𝐀𝐘𝐒 𝐖𝐇𝐈𝐌𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆 !   ―   since sol was bound to her, the lesser demon had been an active eye and ear for her master. there was no shortage of fodder to feed from zaun, but expecting evelynn to not rove the realm of runeterra far and wide in search of the richest delicacies that pain could offer was nothing but a flight of fancy . . . which is why she wasn't terribly interested in returning so soon, not till the king piece had switched hands, as according to sol.

   getting close to the kingpin wasn't an option without provoking his commander and rousing the rabble, but his babysitter didn't keep him company at all hands of the clock. it wasn't difficult to seep beneath / between doorframes like smoke, waiting for the moment to release wanton breath . . . and, now:

   " just a neighborly visit, big man. it's long overdue. "