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This show absolutely broke my heart. I'm so grateful to everyone who has fought for queer rights so that we don't have to live in shame and self-hatred and waste our lives being untrue to ourselves.

he wasn't my friend. he was the man i loved.

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Joy Sullivan, from Instructions for Traveling West: Poems; “Instructions for Traveling West”

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sunkissed

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the crushing weight of one manageable task

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Today, I received an email confirming that I am officially graduating from my double degree in December. I can hardly comprehend that my four years of study are over. It doesn't feel real.

My tentative plan for 2025 is to find a part-time job relevant to what I've studied (public relations/creative and professional writing) and spend my free time working on my manuscript. Not a great plan for my personal finances, but I know I've got to give my dreams of being a published author a proper chance.

I'm completely exhausted after flying back to Brisbane from Edinburgh (30+ hours of travel). I had such an incredible time away with my partner; we explored all over Scotland. It really sucks that Australia is so far away from so much of the rest of the world, but I'm very grateful that we were able to save up and properly enjoy this experience.

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give me 10 years and maybe I'll finish a thing or two

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I feel like I have so much to process right now and I really have no clue how to. I finished my entire university degree last week on a random Tuesday. Submitted my final assessment and it's over. Next week I'm going to Scotland with my boyfriend, which is a huge trip from Australia. I think I'm both nervous and excited but sometimes I just feel like I'm in denial about how soon it is.

Liam Payne's death has been a confusing blow to my psyche. I was never a hardcore One Direction fan - more of a casual enjoyer of their music and their chemistry as a band - but in the last few weeks since he died I've watched about a million One Direction videos and I think I'm all in now. The timing is awful and every time I smile or laugh I feel this kind of strange sadness tug at my heart.

And as if all of that wasn't enough, I'm anxiously waiting to find out if the US will have its first female president. Nothing good can come from that man winning.

Listening: Faith in the Future by Louis Tomlinson

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“You don’t have a soul. You are a soul. You have a body.”

— C.S. Lewis

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If something bad happened to me tomorrow, Louis would be there for me 100 percent.

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Some nights I wake and everything hurts a little. It is amazing how long a ruined thing will burn.

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LIAM PAYNE · 1993 - 2024

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heartstopper - 3.01

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sometimes being out of the loop is self preservation

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𝔤𝔯𝔢𝔢𝔫 𝔞𝔠𝔞𝔡𝔢𝔪𝔦𝔞

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Ssshh I know it's September, but this is my pretty pink July spread.

I'm having a wonderful time at my editing internship - this week is my last week, sadly. I asked to stay on editing (unpaid), just for a few hours a week, until I find a permanent full-time or part-time position, and the director enthusiastically agreed. While of course I'd prefer to be paid, I value the experience, and I need something else to focus on beside my often draining childcare job.

Uni is going fairly well. I'm in my final semester, and I'm aiming for distinctions and high distinctions, but I've really missed the mark on one assessment, unfortunately. Still, I'm determined to go out on a high note.

I'm experiencing unhealthy levels of excitement in anticipation for Heartstopper Season 3, which comes out next week on the 3rd of October. There are lots of spoilers around because it leaked a little while ago, which is unfortunate and difficult to avoid when you're as interested in it as I am. I have read all the graphic novels, but the Netflix series often differs slightly, and generally paints a more detailed picture.

I hope everyone is doing well!