lankeylacey

[lankeylacey]

🤍No Binge November🤍

No Binging No Binging No Binging

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No Binging in November No Binging in November

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No Binging In November

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[lankeylacey]

i miss the days where i was literally addicted to exrecising

[lankeylacey]

so ive gained 50 lbs

never forgiving myself

[lankeylacey]

help i need to relapse so bad im not even underweight anymore

i had it all and i threw it away for what? to be able to binge? i actually was doing so good and then i ate and i ate and i ate and i need so bad to lose it again

going to start a competition with myself on how fast i can lose this shit. took me 6 months last time to get from 115 to 90 and i threw it all away i have to get skinny again and i have to do it as fast as i can

[lankeylacey]

i’ve been eating like a pig i need to STOPPP

[lankeylacey]

unfortunately i do infact miss when i felt like i was gonna collapse from malnutrition

i’ll be back soon though, trust

[lankeylacey]

guys i fucked up so bad i got down to 83 lbs and since then have binged every single day and im back up to 114 i cant belive i let it get this bad i need to lock in so bad but i cant stop eating im not even hungry my brain just wants to eat and eat

i wasted my entire summer getting skinny only to waste it to a couple cravings. its gonna take so long to get back down fuckk

any advice to lock back in please i miss my body so much

[lankeylacey]

just forced myself to have a mini binge bc i could feel my body giving out on me and now im so nausous

[lankeylacey]

mightve ana'd too close to the sun and i cant talk to anybody about it becuase all my friends have had ed's and i dont want to trigger them

MASSIVE TW VENT

another tw just to be safe i just really need to vent but i would feel awful if this triggered someone to get worse so please heed the warning

im 93 lbs at 5'6 and i dont think ill ever be skinny enough.. i think this is killing me but i cant recover i cant gain it all back i cant be fat again

my hair is falling out i cant remember when my last period was im not even hungry anymore just constantly nausous and i think i had a seizure (mightve hallucinated it? idk i was crossed) im having heart palpitations i have no sex drive i wake up with bruises from sleeping becuase theres no fat on my body (6% bf according to my waist) and im almost 20 lbs lighter to when i was in the hospital for this shit

i cant even tell whats fat and whats just the bucketloads of loose skin on my body

i dont know who i am anymore this has taken over my life

but for some reason i still dont feel sick enough

im so lost and so scared and i need to stop losing weight but i cant gain it all back im so scared of who this is making me

ive sacrificed relationships friendships jobs and dropped out of collage becuase of this.

im so scared

[lankeylacey]

having thinspo <<< becoming it

[lankeylacey]

100 days since miss flow has visited

[lankeylacey]

just learned i weigh less than my mom whos been my thinspo my entire life. shes a lot more muscular than me but its somthing 🙏🙏🙏

[lankeylacey]

counting today as a meta day and havent eaten over 200 cals in the past couple of weeks and i genuinley think my stomach shrunk or somthing i didnt binge or go crazy or anything and took super small portions and ate under what an avarage person would eat on a normal day and??? i am so unbelivably nausous oh my god it feels like my stomach is splitting

but at least that means i know i can restrict more now too esp since twoards the last couple of days i didnt feel an ounce of hunger AND my friendsgiving got cancelled which like boo but also it means i can restrict even moreeee

[lankeylacey]

ive been eating less than 200 cals a day (all prepackaged so i know im not counting wrong) and i GAINED weight what the acutal fuck is happening my metabolism is so fucked

[lankeylacey]

a “normal” sized meal to me feels like a binge.

[lankeylacey]

Is there a better feeling than seeing the number on the scale drop? NO 🤍

[lankeylacey]

my doctor said if i lost any more weight she was gonna put me on appitite stimulant i would literally rather die

(i know 120 isnt that low but i lost it really quickly and theyre concerned) (boo hiss)

fuck just remembered i have a doctors appointment next monday and am sapposed to be maintaining 120 but im literally only a couple days away from hitting 105 do you guys have any tips of how to make the scale say more at the doctors??? gonna drink like a gallon of water and not pee but idk if thatll do it im stressing so hard over this