landhinlove

[landhinlove]

You’re impossibly cruel. You are cruel for making everything else seem dull. You are cruel for imprisoning me in your very touch, for freeing me with your every word, and for bestowing upon me the most painful sense of longing I’ve ever had the pleasure to suffer at the hands of. You have shown me color in a world of grey, and you are cruel, my love, because you take the color with you every moment you are not beside me. You are cruel because I will gladly suffer until the world has returned.

[landhinlove]

i’ll never forget how hard I sighed when I heard “stay green a little while, you bring blue lights to dreams” for the first time

[landhinlove]

HE MOVED

[landhinlove]

rest in peace liam ❤️

[landhinlove]

[landhinlove]

I’ll never get over these parallels

[landhinlove]

like everyone else in America with a brain right now I don’t even know what to say

[landhinlove]

the fact that he had such an influence that it sent the whole world back into their One Direction phases with such reverence is beautiful and a fantastic legacy to leave behind

this is not to say he was without faults at all, and I don’t want to diminish any of them, but this is coming from the perspective of 11 year old me watching all 5 of them start to build a legacy. Seeing how the world has reacted, even though it’s devastating, is amazing to watch. It brought millions and millions of people back together and has everyone reminiscing over their accomplishments, seeing their difficulties in a new light, and having a new look on their music and the memories with them all. It’s a horrible way to prove it, but it shows just how much what he has done meant and how much they all mean to so many people

[landhinlove]

i can't move past Louis' "A message to you Liam if you’re listening" and Zayn's "Liam, I have found myself talking out loud to you, hoping you can hear me" because there was STILL SO MUCH left unsaid.

[landhinlove]

one direction will always be so so so bittersweet to me like they were such a foundation of my teenage years while at the same time those boys were spending most of their days trapped in hotel rooms or waking up at 2 am to record an album and non stop touring and working so much more than anyone let alone a bunch of teenage boys should work and its always been hard to reconcile those two realities especially on a day like today because god when they were good together, they were so good together.

and i just don't think anything like them will ever happen again. 5 boys from basically working class backgrounds thrust into a level of fame the height of which hadn't been seen for decades, all of them becoming the breadwinners of their families before the age of 18. the immense pressure but also the amount of fun they were. the tragedy and joy of it all intertwined. really impossible to put into words

[landhinlove]

that line in best song ever “i hope you’ll remember how we danced” hits me like a truck every time and it makes me so sad but also really happy because like we all know that one direction were always such terrible terrible dancers but despite that they always got up on stage and did their own thing and just had fun and tbh i’m going to remember every single moment i’ve shared with them for the rest of my life and like as trivial as that line seems it means the world to me

[landhinlove]

this made it feel real im not ok

[landhinlove]

he literally was posting on Snapchat like an hour ago how is this real

[landhinlove]

i have no idea how to process this. it’s not unfathomable and it’s something i’ve thought about many times but i don’t actually know how to process it. what do you mean he was such an integral part of me growing up and he did some fucked up things in part bc of the fucked up environment he grew up in and now he’s DEAD and can’t do anything to try and make amends. what do u mean the boys now means harry louis liam niall zayn. what do you mean he left behind a child less than 10 years old. what the fuck do you mean

[landhinlove]

im genuinely in shock

[landhinlove]

oh my god

[landhinlove]

holy fuck is this real