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Well that sounds oddly poetic, coming from you Wolfie.

Yeah, but I dunno, it isn't like I have a line of gentleman callers knocking at my door. And don't offer because I don't want a pity kiss.

Honestly, it’s not necessarily the actual contact it’s more or so the feeling of closeness, of being intimate. It’s nice.

You still have feelings right? I’m sure it’ll feel just the same.

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Over top one another

All by myself

I can lift a car up

All by myself

I can lift a car up

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I thought they would be all sweet and melty.

Well because I'm dead. I don't think it would be as nice or feel the same way.

Wet.

But if you’re curious why not do it? 

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Shut up! I'm sixteen, that is not unheard of! Plus I was saving myself for Jake Ryan or Ryan Gosling!

I guess that’s true. So you’ve really never been kissed before? That’s lame. How old are you?

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Well it isn't like there is really good timing when you are dead.

I think you just have bad timing.

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A little, but I dunno what to do about it. There is no way of looking into it without getting in trouble.

Just curious about him, that’s all. Aren’t you?

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Not really, I haven't been here very long. Why are you so interested in him? I mean all of us are but...are you a detective or something?

Did you ever see him around town? It’s a small town. 

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No, I just heard that he went missing, but people are saying something worse happened to him. I dunno though.

So… about that Robert Ashford fellow. You wouldn’t happen to have anything on him, would you?

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If you had only one day left in existence, what would you do in that last day?

I'd want to spend it with my daddy. I want to wake up and see him sitting at the edge of my bed with a bag from Lola's Bakery, that was always our favorite. He'd get a almond croissant for me and a coffee cake for himself. Then we'd go for a walk someplace, he'd take me to a bookstore where we'd hunt down a copy of his earlier novel, he'd sign it and put it back on the shelf.

Then we'd go see a movie, an old one, at the movie theater we loved. It only had three theaters and one of them was always showing and Audrey Hepburn movie, that is the one we would watch. I don't care which movie it is. Just as long as the theater is pretty empty. We'd share popcorn. Which he would end up eating most off.

Then we would go home. He'd pour himself a glass off wine and make me read poetry too him. He never liked when I read Sylvia Plath...he said it gave him nightmares. But he liked Poe, which I always thought was strange. Poe gave me nightmares, but I'd read it for him anyways. I'd read till late at night when he was on his third glass of wine. I'd tell him to go to sleep but he wouldn't. So I'd keep reading until he was fast asleep.

I'd take his glass. Cover him with a blanket and tell him I loved him.

I think that is what I'd want.

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I think a lot. I'm not clueless I'm just thinking about things...a lot of things, and then I say them out loud. Sorry if you think they are stupid or whatever.

Sorry, you just say such ridiculous things … it’s hard to ignore.

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If you don't get me then stop talking to me. I'm not clueless okay!

I just don’t get you. Are you not paying attention on purpose or are you really that clueless?

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..never mind. Forget I said anything.

People are dying and you’re asking about kisses?

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Can I ask you something...

What does kissing someone feel like? I never got to do that before I died. I don't think I want to now...but I'm curious.

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...yeah. -she frowns and looks down for a moment- It really sucks. H-has anyone...has anyone ever tried to leave? What happens?

Come on and dance with me!

-he shakes his head- But it’s the truth. This town tries to put up this facade that we can live again and lead normal lives but we can’t. 

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Do you have Benjamin Button Disease and you are aging in reverse, because you don't look 20 at all.

Twenty. But cute comeback

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Yeah well you being skeptical doesn't surprise me any. -she nodded and folded her arms across her chest- Not to mention the whole think about a future for us is pretty limited. Sorry, that was morbid.

Come on and dance with me!

Oh I know. Call me a skeptic but a little dice that rolls around in purple liquid isn’t fooling me. 

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I'm sixteen, and you are what fourteen?

That would be because you’re what, 12?