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I always wondered why I loved the rain, the cold, the cloudy and sad weather. And especially why I find it comforting and feels like home. It may be because this weather reflects how my heart, my mind and my soul are. I find myself in the rumble of the storm, the coldness of the rain, the strength of the destructive wind. There is a beauty that I find in chaos. A beauty that soothes, relieves and relaxes me. A form of peace, a sensation of freedom and even joy. It makes me feel less alone in my suffering to tell myself that in nature I can find the same mess and chaos that is in my mind. I know it’s my depression and anxiety that speaks and makes me love the darkness. Storms are mirrors of my soul. And my thoughts are like lightning that falls on a tree, unpredictable and often deadly.

My sister once said "clouds in the sky are softer than hearts on earth."

Please take care of yourself. And I hope that you and I will get out of the difficulties that affect us right now. We will win this war and find peace.

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To all my bitches in their 20s please do not waste this time thinking you're ugly. I'm begging you not to. Try not to speak unkindly of yourself, try to do things FOR YOU that are self care. If that's nails, if that's an at home spa day, if that's the full works shower where you shave everything, if that's a hair mask, if it's walking for fifteen minutes or just doing your makeup to wear around the house I don't care what it is do it.

If you continue to fall into bad habits of speaking rudely to yourself, of not believing in yourself it's only going to get harder the older you get. Society is not kind to women, especially not aging women, which we all do. Please I implore you to look in the mirror today and compliment yourself on at least one thing. It can be physical it can be a personality trait you have, anything but you have to look yourself in the eye and you have to mean it.

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Rain in anime appreciation post

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It's because you're a horrible person.

SMILE 2 (2024) dir. Parker Finn

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—Fyodor Dostoevsky

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be busy. busy not checking messages. busy reading those books you never started or finished. busy having a good night of sleep. busy taking care of yourself and your skin. busy moving your body. busy helping your community. busy reflecting on your life and what you can improve. busy doing things aside from the capitalistic viewpoint of “productivity.” busy slowing down.

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if i cannot be wanted

i will be needed

and if i cannot be needed

let me be used until there’s nothing left of me

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but i’m a cweep.. i’m a weiwdo.. what the heww am i doowing hewe. i don’t bewong hewe 

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Happy birthday to AO3 🎂🎉

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“I don’t know how to do this anymore. I don’t know how to get better. My head is a dark place and it only gets worse, day by day. and I have no idea how to stop the darkness from coming in. I have no idea how to save myself anymore.”

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