lady-illyria-the-magi

[lady-illyria-the-magi]

30.11.2024

Plans:

Apply for one scholarship/tuition

Deadline is today

Do it, bitch

Stop writing this damn list and do it

[lady-illyria-the-magi]

24.11.2024

Today's plans:

🪷 stretch, i got an ungodly back pain of slouching in front of the laptop studying

🪷 read "great philosophers 2" (spinoza section)

🪷 find out if there's any PhD student happenings next week

🪷 clean up !!

🪷 read something for fun, maybe dostoyevsky or some gothic horror

🪷 maybe go to library

[lady-illyria-the-magi]

22.11.2024

Today's plans:

start reading something from the references list

study for 2h

answer your damn emails

start forming the application letter for a paid sponsorship

[lady-illyria-the-magi]

20.11.2024

I have moved and settled to the new place. I got a lot to do.

notify the housing agency that they remove my name from the previous apartment's door

do korean homework (both the ones last week and the previous)

revise the said korean and try to understand what they went through last time (when i was moving and couldn't attend)

start reading some references for PhD articles

try to calm down

laundry, maybe?

sign up for the korean a1 pt 2 next spring

[lady-illyria-the-magi]

Update 16.11.2024

The move is done. Next up: organizing everything stuff wise, furniture wise and otherwise. Going to uni library and getting a lot of references. Repeating the process in the other library.

(Stress levels: very high

Mentally: compromised

Money wise: also compromised)

14.11.2024

Moving chaos has begun. Packing up and cleaning. Moving actually tomorrow.

Then i'll maybe think that i've become a PhD student for real.

[lady-illyria-the-magi]

14.11.2024

Moving chaos has begun. Packing up and cleaning. Moving actually tomorrow.

Then i'll maybe think that i've become a PhD student for real.

[lady-illyria-the-magi]

11.11.2024

Today begins my last week in this city. Moving on friday. Seems like all i do is clean and clean some more and think what to pack in which order.

Today's to-do, very little studying but a lot of moving spesific things, i'll start studying in the PhD program for real after the move when i can attend lectures and seminars and so on..

transfer housing insurance to new place

clean up in the kitchen and bathroom

there's gonna be a housing agent and some possible new tenants coming to see this place today (reason for all the cleaning)

take out the trash and clean the bins

read something so i won't go completely mad

answer emails if i get anything important

[lady-illyria-the-magi]

9.11.2024

I got my keys on thursday to the new dorm room. It's a bit more worn down that i expected but no sign of bugs or mold or anything nasty like that, thank the Gods.

There's a big fridge which is good and new shower and toilet which is also good. The kitchen is bigger than i expected (good also). View is across the street to the neighbouring houses (bleh i wanted to see a park or some green, a forest at best). There's a food store and library really close and 7 min walk to uni which is really good.

I'm gonna move next week. This weekend i'm just saying bye to my friends here and also cleaning this apartment.

I'm too tired to study today but i gotta sort some things on monday, so this post is just a little update.

[lady-illyria-the-magi]

7.11.2024

Okay so as the rest of the world i'm terrified of the news, seriously usa? Get your damn shit in order??? You want the handmaiden's tale to be real or what?

Anyways, today's plans:

Getting the keys to my new room

Studying on the train:

🪷 Korean for lecture later today

🪷 Spamming my professors so they could add me to the moodle area (pls do so i can't do anything about "introduction to phd studies" if i'm not added to the moodle list

🪷 Try to calm down..

[lady-illyria-the-magi]

5.11.2024

Okay so i've managed to pack up some things to survive one day in my new dorm room without any furniture and so on. I'm moving next week but i'll go get the keys this week.

Did one round of laundry and luckily the dorm has a laundry room too, so i don't need to buy a washing machine (all my apartments so far have had laundry rooms).

Today's plans

🪷 read elo ja anergia, with notes and get that posthumanist philosophy book done with

🌸 read another book for a Thing and write a quick summary/review

🪷 return some books to the library and take a little walk

🌸 pack up for the Keys Adventure

🪷 remind the student office about my question about the museology courses, can i take them or not

🌸 clean clean clean so when i move next week i got less to deep clean

[lady-illyria-the-magi]

4.11.2024

I've felt pretty odd the past days, realizing the move is happening really soon. Also it makes me terrified money wise, i'm leaving my current apartment so soon that i will not be getting my deposit back. Then paying the deposit for the new apartment. And paying two rents because the move is mid-month.

I gotta get the academic machine going again. Also i should see if there's any fun clubs or organizations in the new uni. I need to meet new people. Any people. I will know no one when i move there.

And see what courses i can take, i need to do that. This week i will be going there to get the keys and check the apartment, and bring the most crucial essentials in a suitcase, sleeping bag, trekking mattress, one pot, one mug.. and so on. It's just one night visit bc it's almost impossible to get to the keys office before 14.00, when driving takes 6h and we gotta clean and pack up on that morning too.

Today's plans

actually see what courses you can take, it's fun to look at the catalog

try to calm down, i know this is mentally draining and blabla but i can do this

read "elo ja anergia", it's posthumanist philosophy, and really interesting

When i see the room on thursday i also must remember to measure it. I should not be having problems, i've always lived with few furniture but lots of clothes and books. And my kitchen stuff will be in the shared kitchen, minus my teapot and few favourite mugs and one plate that i do not let around my roommate. Just in case. Idk what kind of person she is gonna be, i just know there's gonna be another student girl and we will be sharing the kitchen and the bathroom.

[lady-illyria-the-magi]

1.1.2024

Today's plans

Calm down please/nap

Finish reading postmoderni kirjallisuus

Look around in the closet if some clothes can be given away

See through the course catalog, what could i be interested in? Museology? Philosophy? Is there korean courses so i can continue that (for free)? History? Art history? What literature courses i should be doing, it's my major after all?

[lady-illyria-the-magi]

1.11.2024

I'm realizing i'm moving in 2 weeks. I'm gonna arrive with the snow and dark and a rental van full of my stuff, cheap secondhand furniture & kitchenware, books and clothes.

I haven't written anything creative in ages but my ramblings took this form so take it. Also note it sounds a bit pretentious, english is not my native language.

~

I feel i'm crossing an ocean of ice, it has started to spread out into all directions. The fog closes in the ice peaks getting taller and more sharp, growing like crystals out from the sea. Above me: invisible stars behind the clouds, below me: ice and underneath: seawater, many kilometres deep of seawater.

The november is one of my favourite months because of it's bleakness. I'm feeling free, i saw a road sign to the city i'm gonna move to. The same road that got me to this city will also take me away.

I'm scared and terrified and frozen in place most of the day but i felt joy looking at that sign. It's really happening. I've made it so far. Things will go fine 🖤

[lady-illyria-the-magi]

29.10.2024

Today's studying/other organizing:

🌸 sign tenancy agreement to New Place (a dorm room but it's cheap and will do) ✅️

🌸 sign off current housing ✅️

🌸 sign off power (new place has it included) ✅️

🌸 inform the magistrate that i'm moving soon ✅️

🌸 return a book to the library so i don't get the "book is late" -fine ✅️

🌸 read 200 pages of postmoderni kirjallisuus (postmodern literature ecyclopedia)

🌸 revise korean FOR REAL i got a lesson on thursday and i'm cooked i barely know how to read and i should read okay-ish by now

[lady-illyria-the-magi]

28.10.2024

Current reads + my loyal study friend, lip balm and a dark purple/red lipstick because i am a goth, after all.

Elo ja anergia (environmental/posthumanist philosophy)

Postmoderni kirjallisuus (literature history of postmodern literature in the broader time span sense)

Actually it's really interesting reading two post-isms on the same go. Same base problem: western modernism. Two different ways out or coping with it.

[lady-illyria-the-magi]

28.10.2024

I'm less stressed today (got the rental van situation sorted for the oncoming move) and i might go for a little walk in the forest to calm down.

Today's plans c:

🪷 read "postmoderni kirjallisuus" abt 200 pages

🪷 revise korean

🪷 think what little things i can part with so i got less stuff to move (like broken socks/clothes, candle holders i don't like, odd papers that have no relevance or use and throw those out or to the charity)

🪷 sign tenancy agreement when i get it (could be tomorrow too)

🪷 ask power company what should i do i've made a deal for 1 year but my new dorm room has power already included in the price, so i don't be needing that

🪷 sign off the current housing, inform the landlord

🪷 try to calm tf down, you got this, gal

[lady-illyria-the-magi]

Pt 2 today's plans

🪷 Calm the HELL DOWN

🪷 accept the dorm room offer (done)

🪷Pay korean course fee (done)

🪷Search different rental van options for 30 min

🪷Read postmodern literature encyclopedia

🪷Revise some korean (what we have gone through the previous lectures)

27.10.2024

Planning my move to the university city, 300km away and i'm having a mild panic attack bc of all the Stuff.. like renting a van (which i can barely afford) trying to organize everything else (which stresses me to the point where i'm staring at a wall like a deer in headlights)

I'll survive.. somehow.

I just wanna start crying, if i was richer i'd just hire some dudes to move all of my stuff. And that would be it. Well i gotta survive somehow.

Also it's a new move to a place where i know nothing and no one.

All of this is feeling like too much and i'm so exhausted.

I just wanna start my PhD life and be a classy goth academic xdd without feeling so stressed i feel my hair falling out