ladadydadin

[ladadydadin]

2023 update!

life’s been very well lately! and I am happy. you know I prayed for this. I just gave birth (Mind blown) hahaha I can’t believe it! 

Amelia Rose is the greatest. nothing compares to the happiness I have now. My husband John Paul is such a peace of mind. Couldn’t ask for more. 

This year is worth looking forward. 

talk to you later!!!! 

[ladadydadin]

I miss you, no not you

the old you

The one who dreamt about her own gallery

who will soon publish lots of books

Build her collection of shoes

The one who wanted to visit Singapore and take a tour just in the airport haha

The one who prints her own shirts

and never listened to anyone's opinion about her

I miss you, no not you

the old you

The unapologetic, what happened?

How many apologies a day just to keep that friend of yours from walking away?

How many dreams are put on hold?

I miss you, no not you.

Who are you? I don't know you anymore.

[ladadydadin]

shoulder down

[ladadydadin]

beachin’

unexpectedly you dipped your toes into my silver ocean i was sleeping when you arrived at my beach it was gloomy and calm and silent guarded by urchins so that you can't reach

but my urchins, they're tamed leashed and fallen to sleep you headed toward the gentle ridges forward, you swam and dove under the darkness into my cove to open my clams and steal my pearls

-smoke 'em seaweed💚

[ladadydadin]

march 22 @ 5am

there's a fine line between my ups and downs I have stayed there for too long now taming shivers and covering mouths I have smoked two sticks never have I imagined leaving I've been drunk and sobered up never have I imagined leaving maybe it's worth the wait maybe it's the wait that makes its worth or maybe not

-inday's 5am thoughts😪

[ladadydadin]

Bled

it doesn't feel the same it always rains and the sun sets differently i haven't seen the moon for a while i got cuts from paper planes and strangled by love strings now, as i lay here in the river bank letting the cold water wash off the dirt in my wounds i silently gaze at the barren sky with my heart in my hand wondering when will i see you again in my shoulders sleeping sound ...

-something just flowed-

-inday-

[ladadydadin]

carnivore

that cheap cigar and brewed barley lips cold fingers circling my shoulders waiting for the red light to turn green you slipped through my favorite sleep wear as my shaking flesh panicked two bodies against each other kneeding muscles and rising heat while the room temperature slowly drops down

cheap cigar and brewed barley lips warm palms around my hips the lights are now blinding and my sleep wear's on the floor shaking flesh now sleeping two bodies beside each other calm muscles and body heat while the dawn temperature slowly rises up

fetish

[ladadydadin]

october 3, 2018

sometimes i wish goodbyes and the rain are alike that it will come with dark skies giving you enough time to seek shelter that lightning comes first so that you'll close your eyes giving you enough time to hold your breath for the thunder that stars will fade and you will not look for the moon because you already knew why you can cry while it pours and dance the sadness away telling you that sometimes, leaving will bring joy and a bonus rainbow

only if you've prepared

[ladadydadin]

died in a strange manner

i died in a strange manner was poisoned by dishonesty and choked by jealousy drowned after swimming in the shallow water was stabbed by broken promises hung after my neck caught knotted lies

but you see, after death i am a cadaver tearing myself open letting you see what's inside so that you may find the cure

-orgy in the mortuary

[ladadydadin]

september 18, 2018

i am still holding my breath from that moment you said you will stay i am staying for i am still picking up the pieces of the broken promises i am still praying for longer nights so that we can stare at the moon and write about it i am still dreaming about those things we dreamt together i am still shouting and it is getting louder every time you stay silent i am still hearing echoes from the past haunting i am still asking the same questions but getting different answers i am still wondering why you took my hand and took my love for granted

verb-ing

[ladadydadin]

august 9, 2018

i scarred my knee a year ago when i accidentally fell in a rush to keep up with you gladly, never tore a tendon but ripped my jeans never broke a bone but broke my heart

#PitfallsInPrefixes

[ladadydadin]

happy because i’m sad

there will be moments of silence when stoping is not loud when everything else is in slow motion when getting something done means leaving behind when waving goodbye is unrequired but understood as never talking again

there will be moments of nothing nothing to live without nothing to talk about i am mute but i'm not blind this is just the happiest sad moment of my life.

[ladadydadin]

july 26, 2018

nag-udhak ang hubakon sa hilom nga kadlawon naghuwat kuyog bitoon ayaw sag puli kabuntagon

tabyog-tabyog sa duyan ang bukton mo akong unlan dili na unta ni mahuman dili unta ta mapul-an

ang panahon kay nagdagan may sinugdanang natapos ug katapusang sinugdanan pan bisan nagsugod ug mao pay paghuman sa uban unta kining kadlawon ta wala nay katapusan

-ProbPlemado- (tira'g Vicks)

[ladadydadin]

it just rained

let these last words reach you like the first rain in season may this last goodbye reminds you the first time we held our breaths unknowingly it was the last time to kiss this is the first and last for me to reach you and remind you to forget

[ladadydadin]

you have a choice indeed

you chose her candle over the fire i've kindled you chose her swamp over my ocean you chose her city lights over my constellations you chose her penny over my sand dollar you chose her clowns over my sarcasms replaced my crimson sunset with her neon sunrise

For the candle lit the dark swamp, overlooking the city lights, you've got the penny to pay the clowns and laugh until the neon sunrise comes.

But I had this fire I've kindled, to burn my ocean under tonight's constellations and I've got my sand dollars earned from my sarcasms as I cry out loud waiting for my crimson sunset to arrive.

-inday p

[ladadydadin]

this right here is a void always silent never laughs hums with music patiently waits for you to jump lay your rest soak in peace alone

lonely i.p.

[ladadydadin]

love

love, you are tonight's rain i never thought of coming though you warned me with your thunders and hid the stars lucky am i to forget about my umbrella

love, you are tonight's rain never thought that you'll stay for an hour now you left me drowning lucky am i not knowing how to swim

🙃