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I do love the monsterfucking & romance genre so so much, but I refuse to get into the monster shifting bullshit. So he's a werewolf or a dragon or a vampire or [insert any monster here], which is great, awesome even - but you only find him hot when he shifts to his human form?? weak. pathetic. you need to open your mind I don't want no oiled up, dehydrated, tiktok thirst trap looking ass dude with the most generic haircut you can possibly imagine. when I say I want to fuck the monster I mean THE MONSTER

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kris's gallery

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Ragatha: you're trying to corrupt pomni!

Jax: ? [that never even crossed his mind]

Also jax: [immediately apologizes when he accidentally catches Pomni in the crossfire]

Jax, later, acting like he had any kind of foresight or plan and secretly wanted to hurt her all along:

Yeah you aren't fooling anyone but yourself, dumbass.

I love love LOVE how much he's fumbling here, clearly fishing desperately for anything to give him leverage out of this, lying through his teeth because that's easier than admitting the truth that he cares because that means confronting that his whole facade of "funny cartoon guy" doesn't work, that she saw straight through him all the way down to the human within that he's desperately trying to pretend away.

Pulling this "clearly I've meant to hurt you all along" idea out of his ass was the last resort, because neither his aggressive nihilism nor his direct insults and mockery got her to back off and quit fighting him.

And by the end all he's got left is to plead for her to look away.. and he looks so fucking tired.

Tired of hurting, tired of charades, tired of losing people. And still he wants to live. Enough to stop himself before he could abstract, enough to fight this fucking hard to maintain his last, tattered remnants of sanity.

He's trying to do everything in his power to kill this budding friendship before it can catch because he's already too invested, he can't handle another loss - because THAT will surely be his end.

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Christian Angel Artorias vs Manus, Starscourge Radahn, Ranni the Witch, Malenia Blade of Miquella, Queen Marika The Eternal, Base Serpent Messmer The Impaler, Rellana Twin Moon Knight

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He really was about to burst into tears here..

He's so sad. He's so fucking sad it's genuinely breaking me, because he knows he fucked up with Pomni, he's convinced that he'll never be able to rekindle that genuine spark and connection he felt with her

And combined with the awards show going on, I can't imagine how overstimulated he must have been here. He wants the connection, he wants to trust, to be loved, to have someone by his side. But he just keeps self-sabotaging, and I don't even think he knows why he does this at this point.

My heart is almost completely shattered, I love him so much it sickens me

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Looking at the poorly drawn fishes

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Partners in crime

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Losing my mind watching people not understand why Jax treated Pomni like that, yes he was awful to her, yes he absolutely said things he shouldn't, but he's VERY BLATANTLY self isolating, he's not being a dick for dick's sake, he's BLATANTLY trying to villainize himself to Pomni so Pomni leaves, but she is able to correctly call him out for the fact he's lying because he's scared of the fact he let her in even a little, and while Pomni doesn't have to take it, it's clear she is unsatisfied with the narrative Jax is clinging to and is wanting to push Jax out of that comfort zone because she sees the damage it's doing to everyone including him.

It's sloppy and messy and bad for them, but it's not Pomni being helplessly gaslit, Jax isn't trying to subtly manipulate her, he's trying to self harm with her, he's literally trying to get her to shoot him in the head without him fighting back. He's hurting himself on her to make her leave and to make him not want to reach out to her.

Which is still again, unhealthy as fuck, but in a COMPLETELY DIFFERENT way to just Jax being a manipulative jerk and the fact she doesn't seem to want to give up isn't a sign of jax "winning" or "manipulating her" it's her seeing through his bullshit and going "nope, you are a person, a terrified angry person lashing out, and i dont have to take this, i wont let you walk over me, and i won't let you do this to yourself unchallenged."

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WE ALL KNOW HE WAS TRYING NOT TO.

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*Partners in crime playing in the background*

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They've been stuck in my head

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Funnybunny because yes