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Sounds like exposing myself

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my heart is missing you extra tonight, I can feel how sad my heart feels, visit me in my dreams love you always B

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be cringe about your interests!! be embarrassing about the things that matter to you!! be unashamedly annoying with regards to the things that make your world go round!! the world is a better place because of it!!

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Michael Jackson in Japan 1987

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Yes, sure, my trauma affected me.

Do you know what else affected me?

Dancing under the glow of LED strip lights with my best friend at 3am. The pair of shoes my godmother gave me with the cute little bows that I wear for good luck. My girlfriend laughing so hard at my joke she had tears on her face. The hours and hours I’ve spent scribbling in the margins of books. Buying the ugliest sweater at goodwill because it made all my friends grin. Listening to that song on repeat while I swayed through the halls at school, smiling in response to all the weird looks people sent me.

I’m never going to just be the bad parts. I refuse to be boiled down to just the bad parts. Every moment of my life has affected me in some way, more than even just the parts I remember, and there has been beauty contained within and surrounding all the grotesquities.

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SO much about doing well is just not even giving your brain the time to sabotage you. Like deciding to just get started on a task before your brain could conjure up thoughts like “but there’s always tomorrow” “ruminate on this pointless thing instead” like sometimes you genuinely just have to put pen to paper and do

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thought a little too hard about it and now i have tears in my eyes and i feel physically ill

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forgive yourself. move on. for every misstep, do not linger; just take another step forward.

this is the only way to go forward. leave your guilt behind.

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Been on repeat 🔂

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yall ever miss your own energy?? like damn wtf happened to me??

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btw you will miss this in 5 or 10 years. memory will smooth these circumstances down like a river stone, and you will find yourself longing for a shade of light or a moment of this particular innocence. you don't know about what happens next, and one day that will be the most alluring thing of all. don't leave it all for nostalgia. have a nice night now, whatever night it happens to be.

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happy birthday to my sweet angel baby 👼🤍

Today would have been your day 12.20.24

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so. bad news. we have to keep going tomorrow. good news is that I’ll keep going with you

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WHY DO I HAVE TO YEARN EVERYTHING

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