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That on me my mistake I think I forgot about this chapter

Thank you so much for showing me this

No body seems to be talking about this panel Az and iruma gone to Clara's toy box together before this

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Tiny Azz and. Tiny iruma playing together with Clara

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Tiny Azz and. Tiny iruma playing together with Clara

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“Emotional abuse works like this: You are screamed at, and then, not knowing any better, you stand up for yourself. You think this is a way of being strong. You think this is a defense tactic.But this only provokes more screaming. Going silent provokes more screaming too, but usually it keeps the threats to the minimum. It keeps it just at screaming and not: a shove down the stairs, or order to pack your stuff and get out. So you learn how to go silent. How to play dead. How to cry without making a noise. How to swallow noise. How to wipe your cheeks, get out of the car, and go about your day. You learn. And when the screaming has stopped, when the two of you are in the car or out to dinner and they’re all smiles, all asking for favors, all questions, you are still hurt and annoyed and want to ask them, how? How can you speak to me like that? How can you pretend you did not say those things? How can you have forgotten? But you’ve learned. So you listen to, “Can I borrow your key”s and “how was your day”s and you play dead. You swallow the noise. And sometimes it doesn’t matter who is speaking to you, it doesn’t matter if they’re a friend, it doesn’t matter if their criticism is constructive, it doesn’t matter. You’ve learned. Any sort of speaking, any raising of the voice, any insult and you play dead.”

— Good Girl, Lora Mathis (via lora-mathis)

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do kids these days know about glomping?

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A few of these are probably referring to the date posting bug thing, but AAAAAAAAAAAH!

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If you're reading this...

go write three sentences on your current writing project.

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Love love love characters that present themselves as emotionally open social butterflies but the more you see of them the more obvious it is that they’re the most closed off fuckers in the story. Sure, they want to help you with your personal problems and messy emotions, but if you turn that shit back on them, they’ll shut down or deflect every time. Why are you sticking your nose in their business anyway? It’s not like it matters. They’re not a person, they’re just a role being played. They’re the guy who fixes things and saves people. Please ignore the man behind the mask, he’s fine. Everything’s fine.

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please please please please reblog if you’re a writer and have at some point felt like your writing is getting worse. I need to know if I’m the only one who’s struggling with these thoughts

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i would’ve left the entire world behind for you

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I hate I when I get an idea for a novel. Like oh no here starts the slow sad slip n’ slide to dissapointment again.

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on usefulness. on becoming both the blade and the lamb

tumblr user @/divorcefemme // Anaïs Nin // tumblr user @/willowcrowned // Mitski, “I Don’t Smoke” // Lilith Kerr, "bite back" (from unloving the knife)

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SPOILER

I want to write about the Seo brothers!!!!

Like because of the "transmigrated " into the game thing. Seo Hoyun became the same age as his brother right!

when their parents got in to a car accident, he was in the car right then he took care of everything after their parents.but in the "game" he is the same age as his brother not ten years older.

Anyway is my point. (let's forgot the "real" I want to explore the "game")

If he was still the one to raise his brother and he was the same age. He would also be 8 because in the event of the car incident he was 18 in the "real". right!?

Seo Hoyun, after his parents accident sees the true attitude of their relatives. With wounds still bleeding and with bruises still healing, he decided to stall for time.

With the scholarships and the money they get from the insurance. They managed to stall for 4 years before it starts to move in court.

anyway their relatives managed to fight over their guardianship for 3 years. Because they think the money is gone they are not fighting that hard.

So Seo Hoyun has a part time job between 12 to 15. as a background character in dramas and movies. while he was still studying, it pays well with minimal effort and background character don't receive any attention.

(He skipped grades. So Seo Hoyun can graduate at 18 and join the entertainment industry as an intern program director .)

Because he was young and just a background character he learned many things when in set.

(Thus explaining his knowledge about the entertainment industry.)

It is also because of this that he learned he wanted to be a program director. He study it because it was his passion. He graduated then for two years learned all that he can making sure his knowledge is solid before looking for promotion.

(This is where he learned all the knowledge he can't learn as a background character actor.)

Then when he was 20, he desperately needed money. He joined a company as an idol. For a few years he trained as a trainee, then because of a problem in his body. He was unable to debut together with his bandmates.

When he got back. It was like he forgot everything he learned. Seo Hoyun started to learn again back from the begin.

(then everything have like the novel but a little to the left)

Seo Hoyun won an award he was so happy.

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Anyway we are done talking about Seo Hoyun.

Let's talking about Joo Woosung.

Joo Woosung who lost a friend. maybe something more. An almost.

Joo Woosung who finally opened his heart only for the person, the reason to forget evrything in the way that matter.

(The thing is Seo Hoyun love his brother and he has faith in Joo Woosung. Look lets face it he left the drive okay when he knew that Joo Woosung was suspicious he slip up because he subconsciously trust. okay! but Joo Woosung respect that why he didn't look and wanted Seo Hoyun to be the one to tell him when he is ready.)

let us talk about Joo Woosung who lost Seo Hoyun the way that matters.

and.

who learned to love him all over again.

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truly some people have no genre savviness whatsoever. A girl came back from the dead the other day and fresh out of the grave she laughed and laughed and lay down on the grass nearby to watch the sky, dirt still under her nails. I asked her if she’s sad about anything and she asked me why she should be. I asked her if she’s perhaps worried she’s a shadow of who she used to be and she said that if she is a shadow she is a joyous one, and anyway whoever she was she is her, now, and that’s enough. I inquired about revenge, about unfinished business, about what had filled her with the incessant need to claw her way out from beneath but she just said she’s here to live. I told her about ghosts, about zombies, tried to explain to her how her options lie between horror and tragedy but she just said if those are the stories meant for her then she’ll make another one. I said “isn’t it terribly lonely how in your triumph over death nobody was here to greet you?” and she just looked at me funny and said “what do you mean? The whole world was here, waiting”. Some people, I tell you.

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First, Kakashi knows his luck is not the best. He used to blame himself for all the misfortune that happens around him. 

His father killed himself, his teammate, Obito, sacrificed himself only to come back all wrong, and he killed the person, Rin, he promised to protect with his own hands. 

He has baggage of trauma sack upon each. Kakashi accepts this. Life is a bitch and mercy is a fickle thing that only lucky people can have. 

He knows.

Second, He knows he is not a good person. He murdered people without mercy and regret by the order of the Hokage he served. Without question.

His hand is soaked with the blood of people he killed, he can never wash it off.

It makes him wonder how others stand to look at themselves for the thing they have done, is doing and will do for the sake of this village.

Lastly, He never will be a people person. He was never a good reason for people. Although he wanted to. Kakashi was not enough for people to stay.