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on usefulness. on becoming both the blade and the lamb

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SPOILER

I want to write about the Seo brothers!!!!

Like because of the "transmigrated " into the game thing. Seo Hoyun became the same age as his brother right!

when their parents got in to a car accident, he was in the car right then he took care of everything after their parents.but in the "game" he is the same age as his brother not ten years older.

Anyway is my point. (let's forgot the "real" I want to explore the "game")

If he was still the one to raise his brother and he was the same age. He would also be 8 because in the event of the car incident he was 18 in the "real". right!?

Seo Hoyun, after his parents accident sees the true attitude of their relatives. With wounds still bleeding and with bruises still healing, he decided to stall for time.

With the scholarships and the money they get from the insurance. They managed to stall for 4 years before it starts to move in court.

anyway their relatives managed to fight over their guardianship for 3 years. Because they think the money is gone they are not fighting that hard.

So Seo Hoyun has a part time job between 12 to 15. as a background character in dramas and movies. while he was still studying, it pays well with minimal effort and background character don't receive any attention.

(He skipped grades. So Seo Hoyun can graduate at 18 and join the entertainment industry as an intern program director .)

Because he was young and just a background character he learned many things when in set.

(Thus explaining his knowledge about the entertainment industry.)

It is also because of this that he learned he wanted to be a program director. He study it because it was his passion. He graduated then for two years learned all that he can making sure his knowledge is solid before looking for promotion.

(This is where he learned all the knowledge he can't learn as a background character actor.)

Then when he was 20, he desperately needed money. He joined a company as an idol. For a few years he trained as a trainee, then because of a problem in his body. He was unable to debut together with his bandmates.

When he got back. It was like he forgot everything he learned. Seo Hoyun started to learn again back from the begin.

(then everything have like the novel but a little to the left)

Seo Hoyun won an award he was so happy.

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Anyway we are done talking about Seo Hoyun.

Let's talking about Joo Woosung.

Joo Woosung who lost a friend. maybe something more. An almost.

Joo Woosung who finally opened his heart only for the person, the reason to forget evrything in the way that matter.

(The thing is Seo Hoyun love his brother and he has faith in Joo Woosung. Look lets face it he left the drive okay when he knew that Joo Woosung was suspicious he slip up because he subconsciously trust. okay! but Joo Woosung respect that why he didn't look and wanted Seo Hoyun to be the one to tell him when he is ready.)

let us talk about Joo Woosung who lost Seo Hoyun the way that matters.

and.

who learned to love him all over again.

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truly some people have no genre savviness whatsoever. A girl came back from the dead the other day and fresh out of the grave she laughed and laughed and lay down on the grass nearby to watch the sky, dirt still under her nails. I asked her if she’s sad about anything and she asked me why she should be. I asked her if she’s perhaps worried she’s a shadow of who she used to be and she said that if she is a shadow she is a joyous one, and anyway whoever she was she is her, now, and that’s enough. I inquired about revenge, about unfinished business, about what had filled her with the incessant need to claw her way out from beneath but she just said she’s here to live. I told her about ghosts, about zombies, tried to explain to her how her options lie between horror and tragedy but she just said if those are the stories meant for her then she’ll make another one. I said “isn’t it terribly lonely how in your triumph over death nobody was here to greet you?” and she just looked at me funny and said “what do you mean? The whole world was here, waiting”. Some people, I tell you.

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First, Kakashi knows his luck is not the best. He used to blame himself for all the misfortune that happens around him. 

His father killed himself, his teammate, Obito, sacrificed himself only to come back all wrong, and he killed the person, Rin, he promised to protect with his own hands. 

He has baggage of trauma sack upon each. Kakashi accepts this. Life is a bitch and mercy is a fickle thing that only lucky people can have. 

He knows.

Second, He knows he is not a good person. He murdered people without mercy and regret by the order of the Hokage he served. Without question.

His hand is soaked with the blood of people he killed, he can never wash it off.

It makes him wonder how others stand to look at themselves for the thing they have done, is doing and will do for the sake of this village.

Lastly, He never will be a people person. He was never a good reason for people. Although he wanted to. Kakashi was not enough for people to stay.

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i was going through my wips and damn. Got hit by my own angst

AN:

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this emoji followed by

Sori I wrote this after watching Final | Alien Stage

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The Seo brothers love each other so much

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I'm reading the trashy pd has to survive as an idol

and damn

I don't know if I am bias (I am). But is there gay subtext between Seo Hoyun and Joo Woosung

or is my shipping glasses on

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i read CS Lewis’ A Grief Observed one time years ago and i’m still not recovered from it

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It has all gone down to hell. The server they made was torn with war and hate.

When he ordered the community be destroy, because he didn't have the guts to destroy it himself.

How could he? 

Him? Destroy the memories of happiness they have back then?

The laughter, the smiles, the happiness.

He knew there was no going back.

Before someone destroyed it, he looked away and ordered it destroyed.

All Dream wanted was to have someone to call a friend again.

After months, he can finally see the sky again. Feel the sun on his skin.

It burns.

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There were many things he hated. But the action resulting in Techno getting invited on the server was never one of them.

Tech was joining the server. Today.

Dream has never been more thankful in making a habit of greeting all the members of the server every time they join.

Because he was going to talk with Techno. With Techno.

Technoblade joined the server.

Dream barely stopped himself from jumping around in joy.

That was the moment Dream noticed Techno was staring at him.

What? What’s wrong? Is there something on his face? 

He can't help fidget on the spot. 

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—and then after slaying the dragon. Two gods starts to speak in front of him. And the universe said I love you because you are love.—

The children listening to Dream's teaching closer. Eager to hear what he has to say

—Wake up."

Dream poke them each on the nose. The children burst into giggles.

He clapped his hands. " Run along. We are done for today."

The children got up and ran. “Bye!”

"You really should stop teaching forbidden scripture."

Techno appeared from behind a tree.

��Oh when you are the one asking, it's okay. What a flip of attitude.”

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The sound of metal colliding, the sound of a plate being set down the table. It was completely domestic.

And Dream don't belong, not anymore.

The smell of vegetables and meat drifted inside the room. It was not Dream's room, never his to own.

Dream signed, folding his body and resting his forehead against his knees.

He can't help it, the longing, the yearning. The aching in his chest for a home that was and will never again.

Home slipped through his fingers, crumbled into ashes.

Still he misses it.

Knock. Knock. Knock.

Dream lifted his head, to find Techno.

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Good morning, you have to be the thing that saves you

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When they first step inside this world. They promised, this would be the end to the things before, that this would be a new beginning.

Dream forgot to ask, if their friendship was included.

When he got locked inside Pandora's Vault.

Dream realized something about himself, when Sapnap threaten him and when George didn't even visit.

Dream was not made for happy ending.

He was made for blood stained and fighting until the bitter end.

But Techno make him want to try, for the gentle things

He makes him wan to take off his armor and lay down his sword.

But Techno make him want to try, for the gentle things

He makes him wan to take off his armor and lay down his sword.

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…And if we won’t burn together, I’ll burn alone.

Bret Easton Ellis