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debating just deleting this app

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i still am i’m going back to cutting everyone off i have no place for this bs keep your friends keep everyone i don’t need absolutely anyone cause for fuck sake if this is how you’re gonna act i’ll get me new ppl keep all these mfs you wanna consider friends bro cause at least im realistic you wanna be fucking delusional then go ahead and do it but leave me tf out of it

leave me out of your whole life at this point i no longer hope we meet again or see if we can even be friends

i need you out

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you are the biggest dick and if your goal was for me to fucking be disgusted by you gladly you fucking win because fuck i honestly cannot stand you rn

you are fucking mean you are genuinely so fckn mean

like leave me alone i’m being fr leave me alone you decided this you wanted this stupid bullshit

and you keep making it messier and messier for fucking what i was happy letting it die with the dignity it deserves and for some fucking reason you weren’t you needed to make it messy for your own fucking comfortability

i loved you i was truly in love with you and you couldn’t fucking do it and now i’m moving on and finding someone who is giving me what i need and im trying to be better for him and yet

just i can’t be happy i was doing good dude like i was happy and ofc you had to come back into my life to just start bullshit drama that had no place here because for me all of that was over i was already done

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fucking hate all of this bs

i’m fucking over it absolutely over it i’m done imma do my own bs

just fuck absolutely every one of yall i hate this stupid ass mess

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my day started off to good

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you fucking wanted this so let it fucking go i am finally moving tf on and going in with my life and you want to come right back and fuck my shit up delete this fucking app alr you don’t even use it other than to stalk bs that has nun to do with you

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real fucking quick if you are still reading my tumblr get the fuck off this shit

this is fucking mine and you have NO BUSINESS here so get the fuck out

you are out of my life and ofc you have to keep looking at my shit

MY PRIVATE SHIT FOR SKEMTHING ONKY MINE

ONLY.

AND YOU WANNA COME ON HERE AND READ MY SHIT TO PPL???

FR???

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bro i just don’t get it to still talk about me and fucking do all this bs

like what do you want from me?

you can move on but as soon as i start to you wanna fucking get all mad

like how fucking selfish are you

you can do your own bs THAT I BARELY KNOW ABOUT BECAUSE WHY TF SHOULD I

like dude i hear about you and shit and i just let that shit go cause it ain’t got nun to do with me anymore

what is your issue why are you making my business yours

you don’t want me you want to just know you can have me

you don’t even want me fr

like be fckn realistic you are just damaged and for some reason want me to be crying wanting you back because you’re is awesome

bro grow up move on cause god knows i fucking will and am

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okay but on a real note why tf did emi even tell him? like i don’t know that’s weird how’d he even find out and why was one of his first thoughts to tell specifically him?

i’m just confused as to why?

like even if he did find out and all this bs why does it matter what i do and if the guy i actually want sm with could’ve brought it up and talked oh and how did he tell him at the same exact time i did

that makes me look weird asf cause even he was like

“yall told me at the same time”

like bro i didn’t even know he was gonna tell you or how or why he fucks up and that shit makes me look bad like i’m still talking to him

which is am not i have him blocked on everything and as much as its crazy how i get to move on too what did he expect

me to sit here after telling him if we are done we are done

like i’m just done wasting my breath my time my energy on him

and i’ve been doing so good recently literally

but why’d he have to come back to ruin sm i liked having and dip again?

bro hasn’t talked about me said shit about me like bro in the end im not the reason we aren’t together it was cause of your bullshit

if you did it on purpose you are absolutely childish idc what your reasoning was you’re childish asf

and if you did it for his well being which i completely fckn doubt because you have no idea what happened or wtf is going on

just bro stay in your business i am not your business no more and im not gonna be your business again?

we aren’t friends we aren’t shit

either way i should’ve told him a lot earlier myself and i knew that and i still didn’t because i didn’t want him to stop fw me

AND JOKES ON YALL

i’m bout to still make it work with this dude

just need to build that trust with him and prove to him i really do mean what im saying

and i truthfully will it was a stupid mistake i made before we talked and yes bla bla we aren’t together but i don’t want to have hoes

i ESPECIALLY don’t want him to just be a hoe

he isn’t a hoe to me he’s the guy i actually want to be with

and we have the best conversations and i’m always smiling and laughing and as much as i like talking with him

we are barely starting to talk fr and i am in it

i already told him i am still not ready to date because of emi obviously

like bro we just broke up a month ago and i haven’t given myself time to much

it would be unfair to get into a relationship knowing i’d still think about my ex every now and again

and sad to say but he is still in my mind but every single time i am just proven i made the right choice

which helps ig but it sucks idk i expected sm like different ig

i just didn’t think we’d see each other or heard from each other again and no issue in seeing him in a group setting but like all i hear about him now is how he’s hoeing around and going out drinking and talking to these girls and now how he tried to fuck up this thing with this guy

like what do you want from me?

you don’t want me? and talk to other girls but when i’m doing it it’s wrong?

like dude you don’t want me you just want the attention

you just want to know you can

and you simple cannot

so my fault gang

i am no longer considering you in what i’m doing because you already showed me there was no point to that if you wanted that and wanted us to work out you should’ve done it while we were together now i am happy and found someone who is very considerate in what they say and do to me and im the asshole but i don’t blame him and try to defend my actions because i know what i did was wrong and i was going to fix it wether he knew or not hense why i talked to him about it and told him i wasn’t going to talk to anyone else because i wasn’t and this is the first time im doing this bs of “talking stage and taking it serious” and i am terrified but i trust this man so much

idk i feel safe to express myself towards him because he will always try to see things from my side and if he decides he doesn’t want to fw me anymore and TELLS ME then i’ll respect him and leave him alone

but as of the moment i know i still have a chance and i am going to prove to him everything i am saying because he deserves that and more and i want to be the one who gives it to him when i am ready for it

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hmmm chasing chasing

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ouch 👎

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bro i am crying and i also got a nose bleed which was very inconvenient

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i am hurting this dude

like legit i am hurting him

how can i do that like i really like him and before i just didn’t want to take it serious since we weren’t dating

but we aren’t now and i actually wanted to take it serious even if we didn’t get together

i am constantly hurting him

fuck me dude

i can treat him good tho i know i can and i will this time i will be so much better for him this time and it’s a shitty start and i am so so sorry it is and has been shitty but one more chance and i won’t fuck it up this time

but like he deserves better than this beginning

he really does he deserves better in general can i be better for him?

i know if i tried i can be and if he gives me the chance to i will be

but it depends if he does

i cannot say fs only time will tell

just hoping it’ll work out

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he left me on seen

FUUUUCK

fuck having hoes dude i don’t even care i wanted this fucking guy and legit agh just nun it’s over yall win my fault ig

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“give me a chance” as if this man hasn’t given me more than enough chances

i fckn fumbled

genuinely fumbled the biggest bag 😭

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if i keep chasing you think he’ll fw me. 🧍

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if this mf gives me another chance i am dating him rn i don’t even care 😭

please i don’t want him to leave