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Speaking of mountains, I know most people live around sea level, but still, I'm curious

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death of subcultures and death of third places are directly connected and you can’t convince me otherwise

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Feeling childish about growing up, it just doesn’t seem fair.

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obsessed with the way my robotics team lead talks

she’s reinventing hieroglyphics

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probably time for this story i guess but when i was a kid there was a summer that my brother was really into making smoothies and milkshakes. part of this was that we didn't have AC and couldn't afford to run fans all day so it was kind of important to get good at making Cool Down Concoctions.

we also had a patch of mint, and he had two impressionable little sisters who had the attitude of "fuck it, might as well."

at one point, for fun, this 16 year old boy with a dream in his eye and scientific fervor in heart just wanted to see how far one could push the idea of "vanilla mint smoothie". how much vanilla extract and how much mint can go into a blender before it truly is inedible.

the answer is 3 cups of vanilla extract, 1/2 cup milk alternative, and about 50 sprigs (not leaves, whole spring) of mint. add ice and the courage of a child. idk, it was summer and we were bored.

the word i would use to describe the feeling of drinking it would maybe be "violent" or perhaps, like. "triangular." my nose felt pristine. inhaling following the first sip was like trying to sculpt a new face. i was ensconced in a mesh of horror. it was something beyond taste. for years after, i assumed those commercials that said "this is how it feels to chew five gum" were referencing the exact experience of this singular viscous smoothie.

what's worse is that we knew our mother would hate that we wasted so much vanilla extract. so we had to make it worth it. we had to actually finish the drink. it wasn't "wasting" it if we actually drank it, right? we huddled around outside in the blistering sun, gagging and passing around a single green potion, shivering with disgust. each sip was transcendent, but in a sort of non-euclidean way. i think this is where i lost my binary gender. it eroded certain parts of me in an acidic gut ecology collapse.

here's the thing about love and trust: the next day my brother made a different shake, and i drank it without complaint. it's been like 15 years. he's now a genuinely skilled cook. sometimes one of the three of us will fuck up in the kitchen or find something horrible or make a terrible smoothie mistake and then we pass it to each other, single potion bottle, and we say try it it's delicious. it always smells disgusting. and then, cerimonious, we drink it together. because that's what family does.

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do you think about vampires. have you thought about vampires. will you think about vampires. when will you think about vampires

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Not every story is about seeing yourself in it. Sometimes it’s about learning to see other people too.

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“Freaky Friday” was not in fact a real movie which existed BUT had recently entered production as a film because people kept referencing it any time body swapping came up so the movie industry was just like “well I guess we have to make that movie now” and there was already a niche internet fan-base for it.

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what do you mean you only drink to get drunk. 14yo serb starting to grow a moustache type of behaviour

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balkan women making music about doomed alcoholics that cheat on them all the time

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I don’t want advice, I want to be shot

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cigarette cases, 1870s - 1910s

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“Queer people need to get weirder-” you can’t handle like. A lesbian.