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the hater

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deleting my horny blog so i can focus on things that really matter. like developing a drinking problem & my nicotine addiction

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she hadn't really planned on telling gojo about her plan this casually, or telling him at all. a letter, maybe, all those things that have gone unsaid that he may or may not have already known. yaga, the traitorous bastard, brings up having prepared her transcripts for the admissions office in front of him and then left them alone with her decision hanging heavy in the air.

"i'll need to focus, you know?"

bullshit excuse.

"...it's not like i'm needed for anything outside of the clinic. i told yaga he can call me if something comes up that can't be helped with standard care. and you're already busy. but i can call you too, if you want."

shoko sighs, lazily kicking at a rock.

"i might. i don't really want to have to explain everything to a roommate though."

and it's not like she has a lot of options considering the amount of sorcerers they have left.

"i guess we'll see."

@koseigu liked for a short starter.

“ For real, real? No contact? ” He squints, a frown etching on his features at the news about Shoko planning to withdraw for a while to focus on her major. “ At least tell me the name of the college. Are you gonna look for a roommate or something? ”

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"I don’t need you to say it back; I just needed you to know… I’m in love with you." (sugusho)

shoko laughs. she can't help it, honest.

it's snowing, and the heat of her breath is mixing with the cloud of smoke being expelled alone with her carefree cackles. the gig tonight went well, and they all made enough to spend a few hours getting completely fucking wasted with a few new fans.

she's flattered, because it's suguru and who wouldn't be, but she's also entirely convinced herself it's the suntory talking instead of anything genuine. though, flattery isn't entirely the right word for what is bubbling in her chest and spreading so rapidly it seems like it'll burst out of her chest like those creepy fuckers in alien. it's more like ... the feeling of needing to do an absolutely disastrous and stupid thing like kissing the guitarist when things are already complicated enough for star plasma.

"i'm not going to say it back."

her cigarette is snuffed out under her the toe of a platform boot while she lights another and offers him the pack.

"and you might not need me to, but you want me to."

i want to say it too.

"what happened with kyoto? i thought things were going well for you two."

@eleutheriya, and if the nana au bus...crashes into us...

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obento for sukuna : his fist—

rice with umeboshi & yuzu furikake, sake / soy sauce marinated salmon flank ( pan seared ), spinach miso salad, pork wrapped blistered sashito peppers stuffed with enoki mushrooms ( somehow they're all the really spicy ones ), octopus shaped sausages ( 6 limbs and angry looking ), Very Thick savory tamagoyaki layered with smoked ham

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if this is how he dies, underneath gojo in this stupid fucking dorm bed, sukuna will happily accept it.

the bed is, unfortunately, way too small. the two of them are big. the forced proximity that this lends itself to has been more than overwhelming in the past, when he and gojo would lounge playing video games or decompressing after class or a mission.

then, like now, he had no idea what do do with his hands. unlike then, satoru wasn't in his lap with his fingers dancing on his skin and the heat of his breath making him dizzy.

he's breathing heavily, desire and terror crashing together in his chest and making his heart race. the next natural move would be to grab his ass but that's also moving really fast for this incredibly new intimacy. god, it's tempting though, and would do the dual work of lifting him up just a little bit so that something else doesn't get involved in this moment.

yeah, this is it. final moments. better make them count.

"y'can't just say things like that," he groans (whimpers?), squeezing his eyes shut but keeping their faces close together. "i'm really trying to be good right now. gimme a second."

It’s a feeling of long-held tension releasing all at once, like standing at the edge of a cliff and then, finally, deciding to leap—not in fear, but with exhilarating certainty. His heart, which used to race with apprehension, now beats with steady purpose. He feels this magnetic pull toward what he craves, and there is no more internal war, no doubts to paralyze him. Just the bright, freeing clarity that he’s allowed to seek this love and let it unfold.

The barriers are gone, and it feels almost unreal that everything is aligning for him. He doesn’t hesitate; his body moves on instinct, naturally, because the signal is so clear. There’s only forward motion, this rare, delightful freedom to want what he wants, and to reach for it openly.

The kiss couldn’t be sweeter and the words murmured in his lips stimulate his senses, igniting a spark somewhere deep and hidden. Satoru feels his skin flush, his pulse quicken, as if he’s come alive in a way he didn’t realize was missing.

“ Yeah, let’s not waste time on anything that pulls us apart. I just want you. ” Each breath they share becomes a silent promise between their lips. Satoru’s hand is motioned to Sukuna’s face, fingers tracing his jaw. His knee brushes to his side as he swings his leg over his lap, finding comfort in the narrow space between them.

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@brazenlystrong and i have been writing this ship for a few months now and i still need to walk away from my laptop over a first kiss thread i'm going to fucking lose my mind

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me and geto being the same on this is really. really special to me.

@koseigu—

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Jujutsu Kaisen - 2.16 - Thunderclap

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🐝  *  ―  𝑷𝑰𝑵𝑰𝑵𝑮 / 𝒀𝑬𝑨𝑹𝑵𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑺𝑬𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑵𝑪𝑬 𝑺𝑻𝑨𝑹𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑺.

❛  i can't stop thinking about you even when i try.  ❜ ❛  every time i see you, it's like my heart skips a beat.  ❜ ❛  i never realized how much i needed you until you weren't there.  ❜ ❛  do you ever feel like there's something missing ... like a piece of your heart is somewhere else?  ❜ ❛  i wish i had the courage to tell you how i feel.  ❜ ❛  if only you knew how much you truly mean to me.  ❜ ❛  do you ever wonder what it would be like if things were different between us?  ❜ ❛  sometimes i wonder if you ever think about me the way i think about you.  ❜ ❛  i had a lot of dreams about you recently.  ❜ ❛  somehow, you're always on my mind.  ❜ ❛  i think i've been in love with you since the day we met - scratch that, i know i've been in love with you since the day we met.  ❜ ❛  my biggest wish is to hold you close and never let you go.  ❜ ❛  all my life i've felt like a part of me was missing, but with you i've finally found it.  ❜ ❛  you deserve better than who i am right now, but i'm gonna keep trying to become someone you do deserve.  ❜ ❛  every time you smile at me, i get this flutter in my chest.  ❜ ❛  do you think i'll ever be worthy of your love?  ❜ ❛  i want to be the person to make you happy. the one person you can always come to with whatever you need.  ❜ ❛  will we ever get another chance together?  ❜ ❛  you were the best thing that's ever happened to me.  ❜ ❛  my biggest regret is ever letting you go.  ❜ ❛  i'm still in love with you ... and i honestly never stopped.  ❜ ❛  when i wake up in the morning, you're the first person i want to see.  ❜ ❛  every time i wake up, i check if you wrote me another message.  ❜ ❛  i wish i could be as important to you as you are to me.  ❜ ❛  it hurts when you don't talk to me like you used to.  ❜ ❛  i miss everything about you, your touch, your laugh, your smile. i wish i could have that back.  ❜ ❛  i want to fall asleep wrapped in your arms.  ❜ ❛  hold me closer; i always feel safer when you're with me.  ❜ ❛  there's so much i wish i was able to tell you.  ❜ ❛  i know things aren't easy right now, but i want to remain a fixture in your life. after all, you're one in mine.  ❜ ❛  i miss the way you always made me smile.  ❜ ❛  you're the reason i keep holding on.  ❜ ❛  maybe we're supposed so to remain a case of 'right person, wrong time' forever.  ❜ ❛  if only you knew how i feel about you.  ❜ ❛  i'm yearning to hold your hand in mine.  ❜ ❛  i think you are the one for me, and i hope one day i'll be the one for you, too.  ❜ ❛  do you think i'll ever become more than a friend to you?  ❜ ❛  my heart belongs to you, always and forever.  ❜ ❛  my first instinct is to protect you, no matter the cost.  ❜ ❛  i've been thinking about us a lot lately.  ❜

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i dont want a "career" i should be someone's loyal and gay dog

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name / alias : tsarina (tsari for short), tsukuna on discord and allat

are you over 18? : hell yeah brother, almost 29

  – 𝐖𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐈𝐍𝐆 –

are you selective about who you write with? : no (anyone) / semi (most people) / yes (some people) / highly (few people) / private (mutuals only).

are you selective about who you follow? : no (anyone) / semi (most people) / yes (some people) / highly (few people).

if your muse is canon, how much do you adhere to canon? : not at all / a little / some / mostly / strictly / not applicable. **depends on the muse: shoko is largely canon, natasha @taliaromanova is largely canon divergent. sukuna is...sukuna. oc's are usually following the canon with which they exist in.

what post lengths do you write? : one-liners / single-para / multi-para / novella / all of the aforementioned

do you use icons and / or gifs? : no / gifs / icons / yes / sometimes.

do you write on other platforms? : no / yes ( discord! )

what level of plots do you write? : unplotted / open-ended plots / semi-plotted / fully plotted epics / all of the aforementioned

how quickly do you usually respond to threads? : very slow (more than a month) / slow (3-4 weeks) / average (1-2 weeks) / fast (less than one week) / very fast (less than three days) **it really depends on my irl work situation, my mental health, on here i really try to be fast or very fast but usually end up average. on discord i'm like. immediate.

what types of themes do you like? : adventure / romance / fluff / angst / violence / tragedy / domestic / family / all of the aforementioned / ( horror, that capital R gothic Romance )

what genres do you like? : ( feel free to add! ) high fantasy / supernatural / science fiction / historical / horror / comedy / romantic / drama / action / smut / adventure / espionage / dark / emotional / all of the aforementioned

are there any themes you’re uncomfortable writing on your blog? : (not triggers) no / yes / sometimes ( i don't write any cheating scenarios, the actual like...pregnancy parts of being pregnant / birth )

do you have any triggers? how do you request it tagged? : i'll just block the post or the person posting stuff lmao

  – 𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐏𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐆 –

what types of relationships are you open to? : romantic / platonic / familial / all of the aforementioned

what types of pre-established relationships are you open to? : romantic / platonic / familial / all of the aforementioned ( i usually need a little bit of writing / talking to make a pre-established romantic thing work! )

do you have OTPs? : no / chemistry only / yes 

do you have NOTPS? : no / yes 

what is your muse’s sexual orientation? : heterosexual / heteroflexible / bisexual / pansexual / homoflexible / homosexual / demisexual / sapiosexual / asexual / still trying to figure it out / depends on the muse you’re asking

what is your muse’s romantic orientation? : heteroromantic / heteroflexible / biromantic / homoflexible / homoromantic / panromantic / demiromantic / sapioromantic / aromantic / still trying to figure it out / depends on the muse you’re asking

are you comfortable writing smut? : no / selectively / yes 

how early in a relationship do you ship romantically? : autoship / during plotting / after a couple IC interactions / several IC interactions / slow burn / plot dependent / never

are you open to toxic ships? : no / selectively / yes / i am not sure ( some muses are more predisposed to levels of toxicity than others )

are you open to problematic ships? : no / selectively / yes / i am not sure ( i'm not like...sure what this means lmao. because many people have different definitions. no adults/minors is a given. otherwise, i do write a cannibal curse. so. )

are you open to polyamory shipping? : no / highly selectively / yes / i am not sure 

are you an exclusive shipper? : never / sometimes / yes ( depending on the plots / time spent establishing a ship, i can be! )

does crack shipping ever happen? : nope / yes / depends

tagged by: @tewwor i see u goosero tagging: fuckin steal it, babes

[koseigu]

the return [2/2].

dialogue prompts from twin peaks: the return (2017).

i told them if anything happened to me, it was you who did it.

how can you ever love me after what i did?

do you find me attractive?

what do we care about what the government thinks about who we marry? are we going to invite them to the wedding?

i can't stop thinking about last night.

it's true. it's all over the news.

i could throw a car farther than i'd trust that rat fuck.

now i know how brando felt.

you fuck us once, shame on us. you fuck us twice, shame on you.

these days, the glow is dying. what will be in the darkness that remains?

watch and listen to the dream of time and space. it all comes out now, flowing like a river. that which is and is not.

i know there's been trouble in there. we've all heard it.

you're staying with me tonight, okay?

i didn't know it was a gun.

you found something, didn't you?

there's fire where you are going.

can i smoke in here?

but smoking's bad for you.

do you know how good a cigarette would taste with this coffee?

smoke 'em if you got 'em.

i'm in your corner, champ. knock 'em dead.

i wanted to see you again. i've thought of you every day.

i have my life back again.

were you here when they first came?

your room seems different.

i'm trying to tell you that you have to watch out. things can happen. something happened to me.

is somebody in the house?

it's a goddamn bad story, isn't it?

if you need any help --- if you need anything --- i want you to call, okay? i mean it. help of any kind.

sometimes i really worry about you.

we don't have time for torture. i'm hungry.

what's on your mind tonight? you know i'm gonna tell you what's on mine.

the ninth level of hell will welcome you.

what kind of shit are you?

if you went missing, would you want people finishing their fucking homework before they looked for you?

you are nothing but a spineless, no-balls loser.

what fucking crystal ball are you looking into?

when you didn't come home last night, i thought the worst.

looks like we got ourselves a new contestant here.

what do i get if i win?

hope there's no murders this weekend.

you know you're not supposed to come here.

i need to know a good poison i could use. undetectable.

it makes me sick just to look at you.

i haven't slept in weeks. i've vomited blood. i can't live like this. i only want to die or change.

sit your butt down. it's no good eating alone.

love doesn't always turn a profit.

i love your show so much. you have done so much for me.

do you like it? do you really like it?

i feel like i'm somewhere else. have you ever had that feeling?

it's like i'm somewhere else and somebody else.

i always feel like myself. it may not always be the best feeling.

i'm not sure who i am, but i'm not me.

who am i supposed to trust but myself? and i don't even know who i am.

i want to stay, and i want to go. i want to do both.

we are like the dreamer who dreams and then lives inside the dream. but who is the dreamer?

who do you think that is there?

what happened to us back there?

it's my birthday. you gotta tell me the story.

it wasn't meant to be polite.

do you really want to fuck with this?

call 911. we got a dead one at the bar.

nice sweater. where'd you lift that?

i've been a selfish bitch to you all these years, and you've been a saint.

true love is giving the other what makes them happy.

i'll have a cup of coffee. and a cyanide tablet.

i thought you told me you didn't have any family.

oh. it's you.

i don't have your number.

you got a death wish?

it's like all our dreams are coming true.

the old team together again. nothing can stop us.

you know about death. that it's just a change, not an end.

there's some fear in letting go.

remember what i told you. i can't say more over the phone.

you're such a whiner. it's like being with a sick dog.

i just never really saw you before, the way i'm seeing you now. it's like i'm meeting a different person. who are you?

you hear that bird this morning?

i came as soon as i heard.

i will not soon forget your kindness and decency.

move over. i'll drive.

you've made my heart so full.

you'll see me soon. i'll walk through that door and i'll be home for good.

you've gone soft in your old age.

if i disappear like the others, do everything you can to find me.

i know you understand, but i'm still sorry.

the past dictates the future.

[name]. the one and only.

do you remember everything?

i hope i see all of you again. every one of you.

see you at the curtain call.

is it you? is it really you?

once we cross, it could all be different.

please don't try to find me.

i don't recognize you anymore.

usually, somebody like you comes around, i tell 'em to fuck off.

i gotta get out of dodge. it's a long story.

i tried to keep a clean house. keep everything organized.

in those days, i was too young to know any better.

sorry to bother you so late at night.

what year is this?

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@gravesung

the rituals WERE intricate but they were also fucking

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@brazenlystrong

you'll be torn open and laid bare.

hehe and then what

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pocky day is a convenient holiday. business booms, and there's something else—that equally convenient excuse to kiss someone you've been possibly thinking about kissing ever since that stupid bakery contest.

shoko expected one or two offers, but not this one. and she is super fine with it. free sweets. she hates sweets.

the gesture does not go unnoticed, but it does go by without being commented on. mostly because she's too busy chasing the hint of blue peeking over dark sunglasses once they've both got a hold of the snack between their teeth. well ... mama didn't raise no chicken. she just hopes she won't bump into infinity on the way.

@brazenlystrong, continued from here