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OKAY OKAY OKAY THIS JUST OCCURED TO ME.

Ivan is perfectly capable of being likeable on a surface level. Their teacher says that he gets along with the other kids and is polite to superiors, and his graduation messages indicate he was well liked by his peers.

It's been pointed out before that it's hilarious that Ivan seemingly only behaved in an unhinged way with Till, and how jarring it must have been for everyone around them to see Ivan go from 0-1000 whenever Till was around.

Ivan was observant and KNEW how to endear himself to others. He could have chosen to put on whatever mask was needed to have Till's attention.

He loved Till for being strong and resilient, and seemed to enjoy Till's extreme reactions to things. Till is described as the most sensitive of the group, and he doesn't seem to change who he is for anyone. Ivan loved Till's authentic self.

Did he let the mask drop entirely around Till, because Till was the only person he was interested in having a genuine connection with? Did loving Till, who was never anything but himself, inspire Ivan to be honest?

Is that another tragedy of Ivan? That he truly loved someone enough to be his flawed, weird little self in front of them, and was not loved back?

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critically jacking off to this problematic fic in a scholarly manner

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maybe monsterfucker erotica doesn't need a plot but it certainly gives the whole thing a bit more substance

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THANK YOU FOR BEING THE VICTIM OF MY SHALLOW EMOTIONS OH MY GODDF EHDUEHDHWHDUDBD

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i've fallen into the ALST pit :)))

this is just a start to my lil self-indulgent fic. its a WIP and idk how i feel abt it yet, but enjoy my pain :))) (low-key a "fix-it" but super angsty still fic)

...and yes i've had CURE on blast while writing this

--- Round 1: We lost Sua

Round 2 & 3: We lost {UNNAMED}

Round 4: {REDACTED}

Round 5: {RE-} We {DAC-} lost {TED} Mizi? 

Round 6: We… lost��� Ivan?

The rain pattered endlessly on the ground, causing the blood to thin and spread. The lights clicked off and the two on stage were plunged into darkness. Till was frozen on the spot, staring at the white body lying motionlessly on the ground.

Before he knew it, he’d fallen to his knees, ripping at his hair with his hands. What was that noise? It almost sounded like… oh. He was screaming. The strangled scream he was hearing reverberate in the empty room was his own. Nothing felt real in this moment.

His hands moved to shake the body in front of him, but his trembling hands could still feel the warmth of his body. His bright white outfit was a stark contrast to the red blood slowly merging into rivulet streams.

His vision flickered as his hands found purchase on the ground next to him, barely holding himself up. Choked sobs were building up in his throat, and he knew no one cared. The last person who cared about him was on the ground in front of him, riddled with bullets.

He was so ready to die in that moment, that he didn’t even register the bullets ringing out. Didn’t even question who they were shooting. Lifting his now bloodstained hands, he dragged his fingers across his neck, realizing that the hands that were wrapped around it mere moments ago would never move again.

His thoughts mindlessly drifted to the show. His performance was emotional, but he wasn’t giving it his all. With Mizi.. missing.. he didn’t care anymore. There was no one left that meant anything to him. He didn’t even think about Ivan.

Ivan.

The one who was somehow always there, always tormenting him, always.. helping him. He couldn’t fathom what Ivan’s deal was, and even now he wasn’t sure what was real or not. He felt bile rising in his throat, but he refused to yield.

There was no way right? He tried to convince himself as more blood seeped out from the wounds on his rival’s body. Without any time to catch his breath, he suddenly heard the stomping of boots. It was security.

He didn’t move from his spot as they surrounded them, guns out and facing them. Seeing that Till wasn’t making any sudden moves, they all quickly dragged him away from Ivan, hoisting his lifeless body over their shoulder.

For the first time in a long time, Till felt rage. His entire body felt like it was on fire as he opened his eyes wide, screaming at the guards. “Don’t you… Don’t you touch him!” His words were scratchy, his voice hoarse. He wasn’t sure just how long he’d been sitting there when they intervened.

Till scrambled to his feet, ready to lunge at the officer who dared to manhandle Ivan like that. He wouldn’t let it happen, not again. He watched Mizi be dragged off without a second thought, unable to help her. He wouldn’t let them take Ivan from him.

But before he had a chance to lunge, he felt a blunt object hit the back of his head with force. His vision blacked, and he fell forward. Before he lost consciousness he couldn’t be sure, but did he see Ivan’s finger twitch?

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*entering any conversation* hello I am the most nervous animal on earth please socialize with me I have nothing to say

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ever since i was a little girl i always knew i wanted to be some sort of horrendous freak

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Dustin always gets the passengers seat lol

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always the goddam babysitter etc etc

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Steddie ✨

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#How Eddie became my favorite character with only 42 minutes of screen time

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IT'S ALWAYS SUNNY IN HAWKINS

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‘Did you ever play one of these backwards?’

‘Oh yeah!’

‘And?’

‘It said I’d meet a dark eyed stranger.’

‘Get out of here.’

‘Even said he’d crush a bat better than when Ozzy bit one’s head off.’

‘You’re full of shit, Munson.’

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she is going home to make soup. (via)

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late night confessions — because sapphic chrissy and gay eddie mean the world to me.

prints available here

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i think he deserves to go crazy next season

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