klawingatthewalls

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I am Siting Serenely In My Tube.

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Its like, what more do I need to do? What else is required for her to get help? Its getting worse. SIGNIFICANTLY worse. And yet im getting shit assistance for fuck all and all the goddamn things I want or need are FOUR OR FIVE GODDAMN WEEKS APART

I swear to Fuck, if the medical system doesnt start helping my wife a hell of a lot better I'm going to be ripping heads. She's in BRUTAL SUFFERING and they seem to just treat it as "meh". Im betting you money its due to her being a woman or it not being So Bad that shes not actively keeling over and wailing in agony at all moments, just some of them!

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I swear to Fuck, if the medical system doesnt start helping my wife a hell of a lot better I'm going to be ripping heads. She's in BRUTAL SUFFERING and they seem to just treat it as "meh". Im betting you money its due to her being a woman or it not being So Bad that shes not actively keeling over and wailing in agony at all moments, just some of them!

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My brain rly do be like "You cant draw to your own expectations??? Die mad about it"

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People are starting to police the word thick and be like "if she dont have a belly she isnt thick" and tbh? Fuck off. Im so sick of people policing bodies and language. I'm overweight and "thick" by any definition I've seen and ya know what? Just let people label their body as it brings them joy. There is too much goddamn misery in the world. If a girl feels better about her body by calling herself thick when shes not even 100 soaking wet then let her at this rate. Short of developing an ED and thus creating harm, its just... kinda gross.

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sometimes, as a tgirl dating another tgirl, your partner will randomly metamorphosize and transform into a corrupted version of herself; at which point you must spend the next hour engaged in a verbal boss fight attempting to assure her that you do in fact love her and that she deserves to have you as a partner. if you lose she kills herself

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Doll joints, robotic hinges and arthropod exoskeleton are part of the same family of "i am gonna give this character horizontal lines on its body" but denote different vibes of it.

I propose this new alignment chart.

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was talking to my gf about my fear of dying young for being trans and my mom putting my deadname on my gravestone, and she said "i hope that never happens, but if it does, i will carve your name into your grave myself if i have to." and i think theres something extremely raw about that sentiment and trans community in general. you can kill only our bodies, but you cant kill transsexuality

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if you’re on tumblr and over the age of 24 it means the mental illness won

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Strangling the neck of the bitch that stole my money but im just choking myself.

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I dont understand why so many people in my life are just. Terrified of what other people think of them. I mean I am too, dont get me wrong, but its just... at what point, to what degree, does it become a self-fufilling prophecy? At what point do we become the burdens we fear others see us as? At what point do the enemies we see in every stare exist? Is it a case of us inviting in the terror, or was it always there, and we are merely fixated on it?

I dont have any answers really. Im just.... lost, I guess.

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hey wait! i know you! we used to be chained next to each other in the cave! wow, so good to see you, how are ya? man. remember how we used to talk about the shadows on the wall together. gosh that was a long time ago. but hey. sure is one heck of a sun out here, right? it's good to see you.

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the skill of going "jesus i just dont fucking care" and scrolling on

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"why didn't you show any signs of being trans"

cuz I knew I'd be punished? duh! like c'mon, boys aren't supposed to dress like girls or want to, I would have been reprimanded, don't pretend I wouldn't have.

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Something I have noticed about fellow queer woman (cis and trans, but unfortunately mostly trans) is a tendancy to constantly assume the world is judging them and desiring to exclude them. Its weird to me because while yes many people dislike us and try to exclude us it is NOT universally done to you. Other people existing near you are not inattely judging you, fuck, I almost garentee they dont notice you, unless you suddenly make it weird by INSISTING that people are there to stare at you. And at that point, yea, theyre staring at you. Because a scene was made with you as goddamn bobo the fool.

The world can be terrifying, it can hurt us, and when it does we often look at everyone else as possible threats. Waiting for the monsters to come back out and hurt us. But if you keep expecting monsters around every corner, you'll start mistaking regular people for them just for the release of tension.